Friday, June 30, 2017
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Friday afternoon? Mom is feeling better than I did last night but I am still pretty tired from being awake a lot during the evening. Mom is so sorry that I couldn't write you a long letter but Mom was just happy to be able to write you something. Mom has had a pretty busy day today. I was up early & got things done around the house. I cleaned the bathrooms & dusted so all I have to do over the weekend is vacuum & get one of the beds ready for Monday when everyone arrives. I did all the laundry & I even managed to submit my 2nd exam in my class. Mom didn't do as well as I was hoping I would. I have manged in all my classes for this which is # 10 a this point & I have gotten straight A's... well this exam I submitted I received a B...my 1st one. Mom won't lie.... I was pretty bummed out at that grade. I looked it over a couple times too. It is pretty hard when there are only 25 questions & each is worth 4 pts a piece. I got 4 wrong. Mom is way too hard on herself when it comes to this & I really need to stop. That B is a great grade as well & I should be very happy with that as these exams are really challenging & tough. I should be so proud of myself for doing as well as I have but right now I am just upset. Anyways... enough of that.
Last night was pretty quiet here for us. The phone never rang & Mom is quite happy about that as I was in no mood to chat with anyone. Meme did call me this morning & we chatted for a few minutes. her & Bob are all ready & packed to come here in 2 days. Grandpa & Debbie are all set as well too. Mark & Mom have some shopping to do this weekend but after that we will be ready for everyone Monday morning to be here! Mom is also house sitting for our neighbor that lives next to us. Mom just needs to make sure that her cat is all fed & that all her plants are watered. Mom felt pretty good about being asked as we have lived here for 3 yrs & this is the 1st time she has asked. That shows Mom that she trusts me & that is huge for living where we do. Not much is going on. Called Aunt Beck today & we had a good chat. She is doing better but now John is sick. Everything else is good with them just very busy in their every day life. Aunt Beck was saying that Bean is doing well. She is going camping in the White Mtns this weekend with a friend of hers. That will be tons of fun for her as she likes doing that plus hiking. Think that is all Mom has for you today but I am sure to have more by the weekend ending.
Here is a prayer for the day: As you breathe in the morning air, may you breathe in a fresh revelation of God's love. As you stretch your muscles & move through your day, may you also activate & stretch your faith in the promises of God. Believe God when He says He is for you & with you. You possess more than you need when you are in Christ Jesus. Walk, live & breathe like the heir of God you are. Have a blessed, joy-filled evening. Amen.
Here is a message that could help inspire: If you find yourself in a negative situation with someone in your life, take a few minutes each day to feel love within your heart for that person & then send it out into the Universe. Just doing this one thing helps remove any resentment, anger, or negativity towards that person. Remember that feeling resentment, anger, or any negative emotion attracts it back to you. Feeling love attracts love back to you. What you are feeling for another, you are bringing to you.
Well, Tyler, it is that time of the night where Mom needs to be going so that I can get the evening routine all set. Mom will whisper to you later this evening so be listening for my voice. Smile & Mom will too. I will light a candle for you after I am done with this letter. Hope you see it & know it is for you my sweet precious son. Mom is not sure if I will see the stars or moon tonight or even a sunset as the weather has been rainy & then sunny off & on not to mention really muggy. I will look though later as I always do. Hope you night is all that you want & need it to be. May you get the chance to come visit me in my dreams tonight. Please continue to watch over Mom, Mark & all our family. Thank you so much. Continue to fly free & high like I know you are & love. Remember you are my hero & the wind beneath my wings. You are in my heart, mind, body & soul. I miss you more than words can say & I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. Until tomorrows letter to you.... Good night & sweet dreams.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Friday afternoon? Mom is feeling better than I did last night but I am still pretty tired from being awake a lot during the evening. Mom is so sorry that I couldn't write you a long letter but Mom was just happy to be able to write you something. Mom has had a pretty busy day today. I was up early & got things done around the house. I cleaned the bathrooms & dusted so all I have to do over the weekend is vacuum & get one of the beds ready for Monday when everyone arrives. I did all the laundry & I even managed to submit my 2nd exam in my class. Mom didn't do as well as I was hoping I would. I have manged in all my classes for this which is # 10 a this point & I have gotten straight A's... well this exam I submitted I received a B...my 1st one. Mom won't lie.... I was pretty bummed out at that grade. I looked it over a couple times too. It is pretty hard when there are only 25 questions & each is worth 4 pts a piece. I got 4 wrong. Mom is way too hard on herself when it comes to this & I really need to stop. That B is a great grade as well & I should be very happy with that as these exams are really challenging & tough. I should be so proud of myself for doing as well as I have but right now I am just upset. Anyways... enough of that.
Last night was pretty quiet here for us. The phone never rang & Mom is quite happy about that as I was in no mood to chat with anyone. Meme did call me this morning & we chatted for a few minutes. her & Bob are all ready & packed to come here in 2 days. Grandpa & Debbie are all set as well too. Mark & Mom have some shopping to do this weekend but after that we will be ready for everyone Monday morning to be here! Mom is also house sitting for our neighbor that lives next to us. Mom just needs to make sure that her cat is all fed & that all her plants are watered. Mom felt pretty good about being asked as we have lived here for 3 yrs & this is the 1st time she has asked. That shows Mom that she trusts me & that is huge for living where we do. Not much is going on. Called Aunt Beck today & we had a good chat. She is doing better but now John is sick. Everything else is good with them just very busy in their every day life. Aunt Beck was saying that Bean is doing well. She is going camping in the White Mtns this weekend with a friend of hers. That will be tons of fun for her as she likes doing that plus hiking. Think that is all Mom has for you today but I am sure to have more by the weekend ending.
Here is a prayer for the day: As you breathe in the morning air, may you breathe in a fresh revelation of God's love. As you stretch your muscles & move through your day, may you also activate & stretch your faith in the promises of God. Believe God when He says He is for you & with you. You possess more than you need when you are in Christ Jesus. Walk, live & breathe like the heir of God you are. Have a blessed, joy-filled evening. Amen.
Here is a message that could help inspire: If you find yourself in a negative situation with someone in your life, take a few minutes each day to feel love within your heart for that person & then send it out into the Universe. Just doing this one thing helps remove any resentment, anger, or negativity towards that person. Remember that feeling resentment, anger, or any negative emotion attracts it back to you. Feeling love attracts love back to you. What you are feeling for another, you are bringing to you.
Well, Tyler, it is that time of the night where Mom needs to be going so that I can get the evening routine all set. Mom will whisper to you later this evening so be listening for my voice. Smile & Mom will too. I will light a candle for you after I am done with this letter. Hope you see it & know it is for you my sweet precious son. Mom is not sure if I will see the stars or moon tonight or even a sunset as the weather has been rainy & then sunny off & on not to mention really muggy. I will look though later as I always do. Hope you night is all that you want & need it to be. May you get the chance to come visit me in my dreams tonight. Please continue to watch over Mom, Mark & all our family. Thank you so much. Continue to fly free & high like I know you are & love. Remember you are my hero & the wind beneath my wings. You are in my heart, mind, body & soul. I miss you more than words can say & I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. Until tomorrows letter to you.... Good night & sweet dreams.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Thursday, June 29, 2017
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son! Hope you are doing well on this Thursday evening. Mom is not feeling the greatest right now but I at least wanted to tell you that I miss you so much & I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. My head is killing me & my tummy is upset. Hopefully relaxing & going to bed early will help me out & I will be better come morning. Please be with Mom if you can. I need you my sweet precious son. Mom promises to write you a long letter tomorrow night. I will whisper to you later this evening so be listening out for my voice. Smile & Mom will too. Have fun tonight while I sleep. Sorry this is so short but Mom really is having a hard time focusing. I will be back tomorrow so until then....good night & sweet dreams. You are my hero & the wind beneath my wings. You forever live inside my heart, mind, body & soul.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Hi my sweet son! Hope you are doing well on this Thursday evening. Mom is not feeling the greatest right now but I at least wanted to tell you that I miss you so much & I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. My head is killing me & my tummy is upset. Hopefully relaxing & going to bed early will help me out & I will be better come morning. Please be with Mom if you can. I need you my sweet precious son. Mom promises to write you a long letter tomorrow night. I will whisper to you later this evening so be listening out for my voice. Smile & Mom will too. Have fun tonight while I sleep. Sorry this is so short but Mom really is having a hard time focusing. I will be back tomorrow so until then....good night & sweet dreams. You are my hero & the wind beneath my wings. You forever live inside my heart, mind, body & soul.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Wednesday, June 28, 2017
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son! How are you on this Wednesday afternoon? Mom is doing okay. It is 3:52 pm & I just woke up from a nap...lol. Guess going to bed at 11:00 pm & waking up at 5:30 am was not enough sleep for Mom. I was studying all day long, took my 1st exam in my new class ( got a 98%~ 1 wrong out of 40 questions! ) & apparently after that I was tired. Mom got up & went to pet Ozzy & before I knew it I was napping with him right beside me. Mark said that it was cute. I will take his word for it...lol! Believe it or not, Mom is still pretty tired. if I was to lay down I bet that I could fall right back to sleep again, no problem. Guess it will be an early night for both Mark & Mom tonight.
Last night was pretty quiet as Mark did not get home until after 7 pm. He put in a 14 hr day. He is home today but back on the road again tomorrow & a quiet day for him on Friday again which will be good as we have lots to do over the weekend before everyone gets here Monday morning. Mom needs to make sure the apartment is cleaned...dusted, vacuumed, laundry is done, bathrooms are cleaned, beds are all made up by Sunday night & grocery shopping for the week is done! It will be a very busy week next week for us all. Meme, Bob, Grandpa & Debbie will be here from Monday morning until Friday afternoon. It will be so great to have some quality time with them all. Mark & Mom are still thinking of things we can do that won't be too much for Bob as he is still not feeling all that well. We will come up with some things for sure. Mom will have lots to talk about in my letters to you next week.
Mom just got off the phone with Grandpa & Debbie. Things are well with them & looks like they will be pretty busy during the month of July. Grandpa will be getting a new shed, a new car port & having some work done around the house. He is pretty excited & Mom is too. he has been wanting both now for quite some time. Mom hasn't heard fro Meme at all since last week so I guess I will give her a call tonight to see how she is doing. Kind of weird that she hasn't called. Hopefully as is well & she & Bob have just been busy. Mom will let you know tomorrow. Not much else for updates so here is the prayer for this evening: May you begin your setbacks as temporary, your delays as detours, & your heartbreaks as opportunities to experience God's precious, powerful healing. In the meantime, may God give you glimpses of glory, insights to His good plan for you. Be assured that God has never left your side; He'll never let you go. May God help you see with supernatural insight so that you won't be deceived by the enemy of your soul, or by your past painful filters, or by your fears of the future. In fact, right here---in this place--- may your divine perspective hugely inspire your faith steps. You are mighty in God & He is mighty in you. Amen.
Here is the inspirational message for the day: Abundance~ It is time for your life to flow with prosperity, love & success. You draw from the limitless Universal pool according to your belief in how much you deserve. Angel wisdom is reminding you now to believe in yourself & trust that you deserve more. Than you will attract abundance & the true riches of life. To feel surrounded by love, open your heart to others. Choose to do what fulfills you most & the angels will bring you joy, satisfaction & success. Enhance prosperity by receiving graciously, giving out willingly & saying thank you for everything. Enjoy all you have & more will come to you.
Mom is hoping that tonight I get to see a sunset, the stars & the moon as last night Mom got to see a major thunder & lightning storm. I was outside videoing it for about an hour or so. It was crazy.... the rain, the wind, the lightning bolts. Mom thought it looked cool. The clouds were black but had a horizon of blue. Mom of course took pictures. I will whisper to you as I always do later this evening. Smile for Mom & I will picture that sweet smile in my mind & I will smile back to you. I miss you so much my sweet precious son. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. To infinity & beyond. You are Mom's hero & the wind beneath my wings. You will forever live inside my heart, mind, body & soul. Until tomorrow nights letter.... have a fun night doing all things that you are needing to do & want to do. Come be with Mom if you can. Good night & sweet dreams, Tyler!
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Hi my sweet son! How are you on this Wednesday afternoon? Mom is doing okay. It is 3:52 pm & I just woke up from a nap...lol. Guess going to bed at 11:00 pm & waking up at 5:30 am was not enough sleep for Mom. I was studying all day long, took my 1st exam in my new class ( got a 98%~ 1 wrong out of 40 questions! ) & apparently after that I was tired. Mom got up & went to pet Ozzy & before I knew it I was napping with him right beside me. Mark said that it was cute. I will take his word for it...lol! Believe it or not, Mom is still pretty tired. if I was to lay down I bet that I could fall right back to sleep again, no problem. Guess it will be an early night for both Mark & Mom tonight.
Last night was pretty quiet as Mark did not get home until after 7 pm. He put in a 14 hr day. He is home today but back on the road again tomorrow & a quiet day for him on Friday again which will be good as we have lots to do over the weekend before everyone gets here Monday morning. Mom needs to make sure the apartment is cleaned...dusted, vacuumed, laundry is done, bathrooms are cleaned, beds are all made up by Sunday night & grocery shopping for the week is done! It will be a very busy week next week for us all. Meme, Bob, Grandpa & Debbie will be here from Monday morning until Friday afternoon. It will be so great to have some quality time with them all. Mark & Mom are still thinking of things we can do that won't be too much for Bob as he is still not feeling all that well. We will come up with some things for sure. Mom will have lots to talk about in my letters to you next week.
Mom just got off the phone with Grandpa & Debbie. Things are well with them & looks like they will be pretty busy during the month of July. Grandpa will be getting a new shed, a new car port & having some work done around the house. He is pretty excited & Mom is too. he has been wanting both now for quite some time. Mom hasn't heard fro Meme at all since last week so I guess I will give her a call tonight to see how she is doing. Kind of weird that she hasn't called. Hopefully as is well & she & Bob have just been busy. Mom will let you know tomorrow. Not much else for updates so here is the prayer for this evening: May you begin your setbacks as temporary, your delays as detours, & your heartbreaks as opportunities to experience God's precious, powerful healing. In the meantime, may God give you glimpses of glory, insights to His good plan for you. Be assured that God has never left your side; He'll never let you go. May God help you see with supernatural insight so that you won't be deceived by the enemy of your soul, or by your past painful filters, or by your fears of the future. In fact, right here---in this place--- may your divine perspective hugely inspire your faith steps. You are mighty in God & He is mighty in you. Amen.
Here is the inspirational message for the day: Abundance~ It is time for your life to flow with prosperity, love & success. You draw from the limitless Universal pool according to your belief in how much you deserve. Angel wisdom is reminding you now to believe in yourself & trust that you deserve more. Than you will attract abundance & the true riches of life. To feel surrounded by love, open your heart to others. Choose to do what fulfills you most & the angels will bring you joy, satisfaction & success. Enhance prosperity by receiving graciously, giving out willingly & saying thank you for everything. Enjoy all you have & more will come to you.
Mom is hoping that tonight I get to see a sunset, the stars & the moon as last night Mom got to see a major thunder & lightning storm. I was outside videoing it for about an hour or so. It was crazy.... the rain, the wind, the lightning bolts. Mom thought it looked cool. The clouds were black but had a horizon of blue. Mom of course took pictures. I will whisper to you as I always do later this evening. Smile for Mom & I will picture that sweet smile in my mind & I will smile back to you. I miss you so much my sweet precious son. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. To infinity & beyond. You are Mom's hero & the wind beneath my wings. You will forever live inside my heart, mind, body & soul. Until tomorrow nights letter.... have a fun night doing all things that you are needing to do & want to do. Come be with Mom if you can. Good night & sweet dreams, Tyler!
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Tuesday, June 27, 2017
Dear Tyler,
Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this Tuesday evening? Mom is running really late tonight as it is already 5 pm & I have not even fed the pups or got dinner going just for Mom. Mark is still gone to his client & has been since 7 am this morning. Poor guy had a longer day than expected & the drive was terrible so far for him. His meeting was suppose to be only for 2 hours & it ended up being 4 hours. Now he is going to be home quite late tonight & will have put in a 15+ hour day. This is the part of his job that Mom really hates. This is where he does not take care of himself & he ends up getting sick & then at times Mom does too. I really hope & pray that what is coming up in the Fall will bring lots of good things & Mom won't have to worry so much anymore. My fingers & toes are crossed. Please whatever you may be able to do to help us out we would gladly appreciate it. Thank you.
Yesterday was a tough day for Mom. Mostly the whole month of June is but there are certain day that are worse than others & yesterday was one of them. Mom didn't want to really talk about it on here in my letter to you because so much sadness & bad memories were associated with that day. June 26th many years ago was the day that Grandpa, Audrey & Mom were in our really bad car accident. It was in 1988 & even after all those years Mom still remembers it like it was yesterday. It was a day that changed Mom. I was 17 years old & had so many injuries. Mom was sleeping in the back seat & that was the only reason why I lived as my body was so relaxed. Mom broke all the bones in the left side of my face, broke my jaw in 3 places, shattered my left eye socket which will never heal & broke my left femur in half & had to have a rod put in it. Mom spent 2 weeks in the hospital learning how to walk again after having 5 surgeries. Mom had over 500 stitches all over her body ( 250 of them were in my face alone. ) It took a long time for Mom to heal but I had my young age to help with that. I was determined to get better. That was one hard summer for me. Grandpa got hurt badly as well. He broke his left collarbone & the back side of his kneecap. He had many cuts, bruises, & scars on his arms & hands. They literally looked like someone put them in a blender. To this day he still has very little feeling in his hands. Audrey jumped out of the car before we got hit head on. She got a few cut & bruises along with broken ribs. The horror of it all. If that wasn't enough yesterday was also the day Mom laid you to rest. It was the day of your funeral. Another day that is etched in my mind forever. 4 years has gone by & I miss you more each passing day. I wish sometimes that I could express it to you but then I remember & realize that you don't need any words as you can feel it in your soul. Mom hopes you will always feel it. My love for you is unconditional. It always has been & it always will. Mom loves you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. Mom loves you more than all the stars in the sky. To infinity & beyond.
This morning Mom did see that there was some joy that happened on June 26th. Megan had her baby. Mom chatted with her earlier & wished her congratulations. I am not sure the exact time when she was born but it looks like it was around 9:15 pm. She was tiny. She weighed in at 5 lbs & 10.4 oz. & 17.5 " long. Her name is Aubrey. She is so precious & beautiful but Mom wouldn't expect anything less as Megan is beautiful. Now Megan has 2 babies. Her son, Logan will be 2 yrs old in a few months. Mom is so happy for her & her little family. She is a good Mom. Mom is not surprised at all by that either. I am sure that you watch over them as well. You & Megan always got along so well & I know that you loved her.
Not much else is new for updates. The phones were quiet yesterday, last night & today. Mom got her grade for her final exam in her Anatomy & Physiology class....it was a 92%. I got 4 questions wrong. I was so happy! My overall grade was a 96! I started my new class today & it will be another challenging one as it is Anatomy & Physiology II but I will do my best. That is all I can do! That's all Mom has for you today but I am sure to have some others in the next few days. Here is the prayer for today:
May the Kingdom, Power & Presence of the Living God seem nearer to you now than ever before. May your understanding of what you possess in Him grow exponentially today. May you see glimpses of glory everywhere you turn so you're reminded that God is very much at work behind the scenes, answering your prayers, opening doors & moving mountains. Jesus lives to pray for you & when He prays heaven moves. Walk full of faith today simply because heaven sings a song over you. God is at work on your behalf & any day now, you will see Him breakthrough. Bless you, friend! Amen.
Here is the inspirational message for the day:
Praising & blessing dissolves all negativity, so praise & bless your enemies. If you curse your enemies, the curse will come back to harm you. If you praise & bless them, you will dissolve all negativity & discord & the love of the praising & blessings will return to you. As you praise & bless, you will feel yourself shift into a new frequency with the feedback of good feelings!
Mom needs to get going for now my sweet precious son. I have so much to do & the clock is ticking not to mention Ozzy is going crazy because Mom is 30+ minutes behind feeding him his dinner. I hope that you have a peaceful night doing all the things you need & want to do. May you get the chance to come visit Mom in my dreams tonight when I fall asleep. I will whisper to you later as I always do so be listening out for my voice. Smile when you hear me & I will close my eyes & picture your sweet smile that I miss so very much....Mom will smile back to you. Thank you for the beautiful " painting " last night along with the clouds. There were no words...just breathtaking. Hope you will get your brushes back out tonight & " paint " Mom another one. Maybe I will see the moon & stars shining bright in the sky as well. Mom will be back tomorrow night with another letter to you so until then....Good night & sweet dreams. Remember you are forever inside my heart, mind, body & soul. You are my hero & the wind beneath my wings. I love you.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this Tuesday evening? Mom is running really late tonight as it is already 5 pm & I have not even fed the pups or got dinner going just for Mom. Mark is still gone to his client & has been since 7 am this morning. Poor guy had a longer day than expected & the drive was terrible so far for him. His meeting was suppose to be only for 2 hours & it ended up being 4 hours. Now he is going to be home quite late tonight & will have put in a 15+ hour day. This is the part of his job that Mom really hates. This is where he does not take care of himself & he ends up getting sick & then at times Mom does too. I really hope & pray that what is coming up in the Fall will bring lots of good things & Mom won't have to worry so much anymore. My fingers & toes are crossed. Please whatever you may be able to do to help us out we would gladly appreciate it. Thank you.
Yesterday was a tough day for Mom. Mostly the whole month of June is but there are certain day that are worse than others & yesterday was one of them. Mom didn't want to really talk about it on here in my letter to you because so much sadness & bad memories were associated with that day. June 26th many years ago was the day that Grandpa, Audrey & Mom were in our really bad car accident. It was in 1988 & even after all those years Mom still remembers it like it was yesterday. It was a day that changed Mom. I was 17 years old & had so many injuries. Mom was sleeping in the back seat & that was the only reason why I lived as my body was so relaxed. Mom broke all the bones in the left side of my face, broke my jaw in 3 places, shattered my left eye socket which will never heal & broke my left femur in half & had to have a rod put in it. Mom spent 2 weeks in the hospital learning how to walk again after having 5 surgeries. Mom had over 500 stitches all over her body ( 250 of them were in my face alone. ) It took a long time for Mom to heal but I had my young age to help with that. I was determined to get better. That was one hard summer for me. Grandpa got hurt badly as well. He broke his left collarbone & the back side of his kneecap. He had many cuts, bruises, & scars on his arms & hands. They literally looked like someone put them in a blender. To this day he still has very little feeling in his hands. Audrey jumped out of the car before we got hit head on. She got a few cut & bruises along with broken ribs. The horror of it all. If that wasn't enough yesterday was also the day Mom laid you to rest. It was the day of your funeral. Another day that is etched in my mind forever. 4 years has gone by & I miss you more each passing day. I wish sometimes that I could express it to you but then I remember & realize that you don't need any words as you can feel it in your soul. Mom hopes you will always feel it. My love for you is unconditional. It always has been & it always will. Mom loves you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. Mom loves you more than all the stars in the sky. To infinity & beyond.
This morning Mom did see that there was some joy that happened on June 26th. Megan had her baby. Mom chatted with her earlier & wished her congratulations. I am not sure the exact time when she was born but it looks like it was around 9:15 pm. She was tiny. She weighed in at 5 lbs & 10.4 oz. & 17.5 " long. Her name is Aubrey. She is so precious & beautiful but Mom wouldn't expect anything less as Megan is beautiful. Now Megan has 2 babies. Her son, Logan will be 2 yrs old in a few months. Mom is so happy for her & her little family. She is a good Mom. Mom is not surprised at all by that either. I am sure that you watch over them as well. You & Megan always got along so well & I know that you loved her.
Not much else is new for updates. The phones were quiet yesterday, last night & today. Mom got her grade for her final exam in her Anatomy & Physiology class....it was a 92%. I got 4 questions wrong. I was so happy! My overall grade was a 96! I started my new class today & it will be another challenging one as it is Anatomy & Physiology II but I will do my best. That is all I can do! That's all Mom has for you today but I am sure to have some others in the next few days. Here is the prayer for today:
May the Kingdom, Power & Presence of the Living God seem nearer to you now than ever before. May your understanding of what you possess in Him grow exponentially today. May you see glimpses of glory everywhere you turn so you're reminded that God is very much at work behind the scenes, answering your prayers, opening doors & moving mountains. Jesus lives to pray for you & when He prays heaven moves. Walk full of faith today simply because heaven sings a song over you. God is at work on your behalf & any day now, you will see Him breakthrough. Bless you, friend! Amen.
Here is the inspirational message for the day:
Praising & blessing dissolves all negativity, so praise & bless your enemies. If you curse your enemies, the curse will come back to harm you. If you praise & bless them, you will dissolve all negativity & discord & the love of the praising & blessings will return to you. As you praise & bless, you will feel yourself shift into a new frequency with the feedback of good feelings!
Mom needs to get going for now my sweet precious son. I have so much to do & the clock is ticking not to mention Ozzy is going crazy because Mom is 30+ minutes behind feeding him his dinner. I hope that you have a peaceful night doing all the things you need & want to do. May you get the chance to come visit Mom in my dreams tonight when I fall asleep. I will whisper to you later as I always do so be listening out for my voice. Smile when you hear me & I will close my eyes & picture your sweet smile that I miss so very much....Mom will smile back to you. Thank you for the beautiful " painting " last night along with the clouds. There were no words...just breathtaking. Hope you will get your brushes back out tonight & " paint " Mom another one. Maybe I will see the moon & stars shining bright in the sky as well. Mom will be back tomorrow night with another letter to you so until then....Good night & sweet dreams. Remember you are forever inside my heart, mind, body & soul. You are my hero & the wind beneath my wings. I love you.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Monday, June 26, 2017
Dear Tyler,
Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this Monday afternoon? Mom is feeling kind of bummed out right now. I just finished up my final exam for my class & Mom doesn't think she did all that well. It was a pretty detailed exam and there were several essay questions on it. I think I failed it to be quite honest with you but I will still get a passing grade for the course. Tomorrow Mom will start her new class. It is Anatomy and Physiology II. That should be interesting as it is a class that is all online. At least the day will be quiet because I will be alone. Please watch over Mom tomorrow while I am here with the pups & please watch over Mark as he will be driving a very long distance to & from his client. Thank you so much.
Not much has happened since last night when I wrote to you. Grandpa called me & we chatted for about 30 minutes or so. Mom watched some TV in bed with the pups & Mark was sick so I was tending to him & helping when & wherever I could. I did get some sleep but I am hoping for more tonight. My cold/cough is getting better. I am only taking the cough medicine once or twice a day instead of 4 to 5 times a day & the coughing has gone down tremendously so that makes me happy. It would be 3 weeks for this for Mom & over a month for Mark. I am hoping to be over it completely in the next few days as everyone will be here a week from today. Mom can't get over the fact that next week is the 4th of July. Where the heck did the time go? It seems like yesterday we were just celebrating Memorial Day. That was 1 1/2 months ago.... Everyone around here have been lighting off fireworks. They are really pretty for the ones that I got to see but they make Princess & Ozzy so scared. I hope that they do well when the fireworks go off on the 4th. Mom is crossing her fingers on that one! Mom didn't talk to anyone else at all last night so I am sure to be touching base with Meme, Aunt Beck & perhaps Bean sometime this week. Things will just be crazy busy trying to get school work done & everything else all set for our company. Mark won't be able to help Mom as his work week is so crazy. Poor guy is all over the place. Mom hopes that things that are in the works come this Fall will sky rocket & major changes can take place. Maybe then I wouldn't worry as much about him. Please help us in that area if you can. Thank you. Mom knows you are doing all that you are able too & we both appreciate it so much. That is all the updates that I have for you today. I will have more in a couple days as Bob goes back to the doctors I believe on Wednesday & then has his procedure on July 12th. There are a few more things going on right now but nothing I can elaborate on at this time. You know what I am talking about though. In due time Mom will be able to talk about it on here.
Here is the prayer & inspirational message for today: May the Lord enlarge your territory, expand your influences & increase your capacity to walk in faith. May His hand of power be upon you in a way that marks everything you do. May He keep you from harm-both causing & enduring it---may He use you to bless a world very much in need. May He surprise you with breakthroughs & still-water Sabbath moments. May you walk forward unafraid with the full knowledge that Your Shepard goes before you. He's placed His hand of blessing upon your head & He will faithfully lead you. Have a lighthearted, joy-filled day & night. Amen!
Begin to use the two most powerful words, I AM, to your advantage. How about, " I AM receiving every good thing. I AM happy. I AM abundant. I AM healthy. I AM love. I AM always on time. I AM eternal youth. I AM filled with energy every single day!
Well my sweet precious son, it is that time of the day where Mom needs to get going. I already started prepping for dinner tonight but I have more to do & feed the pups & it is already 4:30 pm. Things need to get done even earlier as tomorrow will be a very early morning for Mark & Mom. I hope that you come visit me tonight when I am sleeping. Have fun doing all the things you need to & want to do. Mom is hoping to see a nice painting of yours as today was sunny & so beautiful out. Maybe I will even get to see the moon & the stars shining bright. I will whisper to you later as I always do so be listening out for my voice. I miss you so much & I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. To infinity & beyond. You are forever in my heart,mind, body & soul. You are my hero & the wind beneath my wings. Mom will be back tomorrow with another letter so until then...good night & sweet dreams.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this Monday afternoon? Mom is feeling kind of bummed out right now. I just finished up my final exam for my class & Mom doesn't think she did all that well. It was a pretty detailed exam and there were several essay questions on it. I think I failed it to be quite honest with you but I will still get a passing grade for the course. Tomorrow Mom will start her new class. It is Anatomy and Physiology II. That should be interesting as it is a class that is all online. At least the day will be quiet because I will be alone. Please watch over Mom tomorrow while I am here with the pups & please watch over Mark as he will be driving a very long distance to & from his client. Thank you so much.
Not much has happened since last night when I wrote to you. Grandpa called me & we chatted for about 30 minutes or so. Mom watched some TV in bed with the pups & Mark was sick so I was tending to him & helping when & wherever I could. I did get some sleep but I am hoping for more tonight. My cold/cough is getting better. I am only taking the cough medicine once or twice a day instead of 4 to 5 times a day & the coughing has gone down tremendously so that makes me happy. It would be 3 weeks for this for Mom & over a month for Mark. I am hoping to be over it completely in the next few days as everyone will be here a week from today. Mom can't get over the fact that next week is the 4th of July. Where the heck did the time go? It seems like yesterday we were just celebrating Memorial Day. That was 1 1/2 months ago.... Everyone around here have been lighting off fireworks. They are really pretty for the ones that I got to see but they make Princess & Ozzy so scared. I hope that they do well when the fireworks go off on the 4th. Mom is crossing her fingers on that one! Mom didn't talk to anyone else at all last night so I am sure to be touching base with Meme, Aunt Beck & perhaps Bean sometime this week. Things will just be crazy busy trying to get school work done & everything else all set for our company. Mark won't be able to help Mom as his work week is so crazy. Poor guy is all over the place. Mom hopes that things that are in the works come this Fall will sky rocket & major changes can take place. Maybe then I wouldn't worry as much about him. Please help us in that area if you can. Thank you. Mom knows you are doing all that you are able too & we both appreciate it so much. That is all the updates that I have for you today. I will have more in a couple days as Bob goes back to the doctors I believe on Wednesday & then has his procedure on July 12th. There are a few more things going on right now but nothing I can elaborate on at this time. You know what I am talking about though. In due time Mom will be able to talk about it on here.
Here is the prayer & inspirational message for today: May the Lord enlarge your territory, expand your influences & increase your capacity to walk in faith. May His hand of power be upon you in a way that marks everything you do. May He keep you from harm-both causing & enduring it---may He use you to bless a world very much in need. May He surprise you with breakthroughs & still-water Sabbath moments. May you walk forward unafraid with the full knowledge that Your Shepard goes before you. He's placed His hand of blessing upon your head & He will faithfully lead you. Have a lighthearted, joy-filled day & night. Amen!
Begin to use the two most powerful words, I AM, to your advantage. How about, " I AM receiving every good thing. I AM happy. I AM abundant. I AM healthy. I AM love. I AM always on time. I AM eternal youth. I AM filled with energy every single day!
Well my sweet precious son, it is that time of the day where Mom needs to get going. I already started prepping for dinner tonight but I have more to do & feed the pups & it is already 4:30 pm. Things need to get done even earlier as tomorrow will be a very early morning for Mark & Mom. I hope that you come visit me tonight when I am sleeping. Have fun doing all the things you need to & want to do. Mom is hoping to see a nice painting of yours as today was sunny & so beautiful out. Maybe I will even get to see the moon & the stars shining bright. I will whisper to you later as I always do so be listening out for my voice. I miss you so much & I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. To infinity & beyond. You are forever in my heart,mind, body & soul. You are my hero & the wind beneath my wings. Mom will be back tomorrow with another letter so until then...good night & sweet dreams.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Sunday, June 25, 2017
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son! How are you on this Sunday evening? Mom is sorry that I did not write you a letter last night but I did not feel good at all. Mom never turned on her computer & I basically sat on the couch all day & night watching TV while Mark was visiting with his friend, Rick. He got here about 1 pm & we were suppose to go out & go shopping but because I didn't feel the greatest the guys went out & grabbed lunch & came back about an hour or so later. They went out on the balcony & smoked a cigar & chatted while Mom stayed inside. They ordered dinner later that evening but Mom didn't eat anything. I was hoping to go to bed & get a good nights sleep because I did not sleep well Friday night but that did not happen. Mom only got about 4 hours rest last night. I did get up this morning & get things going. I made coffee for the guys & made breakfast as well. We decided to go out today & do the shopping that we wanted to do yesterday but once again.... Mom did not feel well enough to do that so Mark went out for a bit & when he got back Mom did all the shopping online. I am still not feeling 100% but I do feel better than I did earlier. Mom wanted to at least write to you a small letter as I did not want to go 2 days without writing. It is after 5 pm & I need to get the night routine started for us so Mom is sorry for the short letter tonight. I will make it up to you tomorrow.
No real updates at all as I did not talk to anyone over the weekend. Meme did email me & was having a hard time with a situation. Mom doesn't really know what to think about it. I know Meme is upset & hurt but Mom is going to try really hard to stay out of that mess! I understand both sides but I would rather just keep to myself & not say a word. I think it would be for the best. Please watch over Meme for Mom. She is going through some tough times along with Bob. Thank you my sweet precious son. Please watch over us all. Mom appreciates it so much.
Tonight I will will make sure to whisper to you as I always do. Be listening for my voice. I hope you smile & Mom will smile back to you. I know I will not see any stars shining or the moon again because it is pretty dark right now. Looks like we are going to get hit with a good thunderstorm. Maybe I will sit outside if we do & watch it. This week will be a very busy one for Mark with traveling & work so could you please watch over him for Mom? Thank you. You know how much I worry about him. It will be a busy week for Mom as well with another new class & getting things ready for everyone to come down here in 6 days. Mom hopes that your night will be all that you want & need it to be. I hope that you have some fun while I am trying to get some sleep tonight. I desperately need it after not getting much the last 2 nights. Come be with me or visit me in my dreams if you can. Thank you, Tyler.
Before I close this letter I wanted to write you a little pray & inspirational message like I have been doing. Here they are for today: This is an evening blessing: May God Himself release fresh faith & perspective into your soul. May He strengthen your frame & establish your steps. May He surround you with good friends who fear God & who love you. May He give you fresh vision for your future & divine wisdom for stewarding your " now " moments. May the song in your heart ring louder than the enemy's threats & accusations. There is no one like our God & there's nothing like His love for you. Sleep well tonight. Amen.
Grasping the truth of our heir status should never inspire pride or judgement. Only humble gratitude.
Mom needs to get going as I am late on everything right now. No worries though but I would like to get the pups fed. Mom will be back tomorrow with another letter to you so until then good night & sweet dreams. Remember you are the wind beneath my wings & my hero. You live inside my heart, mind, body & soul. I miss you so much....if my words could just express it..... I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Hi my sweet son! How are you on this Sunday evening? Mom is sorry that I did not write you a letter last night but I did not feel good at all. Mom never turned on her computer & I basically sat on the couch all day & night watching TV while Mark was visiting with his friend, Rick. He got here about 1 pm & we were suppose to go out & go shopping but because I didn't feel the greatest the guys went out & grabbed lunch & came back about an hour or so later. They went out on the balcony & smoked a cigar & chatted while Mom stayed inside. They ordered dinner later that evening but Mom didn't eat anything. I was hoping to go to bed & get a good nights sleep because I did not sleep well Friday night but that did not happen. Mom only got about 4 hours rest last night. I did get up this morning & get things going. I made coffee for the guys & made breakfast as well. We decided to go out today & do the shopping that we wanted to do yesterday but once again.... Mom did not feel well enough to do that so Mark went out for a bit & when he got back Mom did all the shopping online. I am still not feeling 100% but I do feel better than I did earlier. Mom wanted to at least write to you a small letter as I did not want to go 2 days without writing. It is after 5 pm & I need to get the night routine started for us so Mom is sorry for the short letter tonight. I will make it up to you tomorrow.
No real updates at all as I did not talk to anyone over the weekend. Meme did email me & was having a hard time with a situation. Mom doesn't really know what to think about it. I know Meme is upset & hurt but Mom is going to try really hard to stay out of that mess! I understand both sides but I would rather just keep to myself & not say a word. I think it would be for the best. Please watch over Meme for Mom. She is going through some tough times along with Bob. Thank you my sweet precious son. Please watch over us all. Mom appreciates it so much.
Tonight I will will make sure to whisper to you as I always do. Be listening for my voice. I hope you smile & Mom will smile back to you. I know I will not see any stars shining or the moon again because it is pretty dark right now. Looks like we are going to get hit with a good thunderstorm. Maybe I will sit outside if we do & watch it. This week will be a very busy one for Mark with traveling & work so could you please watch over him for Mom? Thank you. You know how much I worry about him. It will be a busy week for Mom as well with another new class & getting things ready for everyone to come down here in 6 days. Mom hopes that your night will be all that you want & need it to be. I hope that you have some fun while I am trying to get some sleep tonight. I desperately need it after not getting much the last 2 nights. Come be with me or visit me in my dreams if you can. Thank you, Tyler.
Before I close this letter I wanted to write you a little pray & inspirational message like I have been doing. Here they are for today: This is an evening blessing: May God Himself release fresh faith & perspective into your soul. May He strengthen your frame & establish your steps. May He surround you with good friends who fear God & who love you. May He give you fresh vision for your future & divine wisdom for stewarding your " now " moments. May the song in your heart ring louder than the enemy's threats & accusations. There is no one like our God & there's nothing like His love for you. Sleep well tonight. Amen.
Grasping the truth of our heir status should never inspire pride or judgement. Only humble gratitude.
Mom needs to get going as I am late on everything right now. No worries though but I would like to get the pups fed. Mom will be back tomorrow with another letter to you so until then good night & sweet dreams. Remember you are the wind beneath my wings & my hero. You live inside my heart, mind, body & soul. I miss you so much....if my words could just express it..... I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Friday, June 23, 2017
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this very warm & humid Friday afternoon? Mom is doing okay. It is the 1st day in 2 weeks that I haven't been coughing a lot. I still have the cough but it is now not continuous. I am still pretty stuffy so I am thinking that somehow the cough turned into a cold. Either way Mom is believing she is on the road to recovery. The weather today is really warm & humid. It is 90+ degrees outside & all the mugginess that goes with it. Mark was saying that his drive home was a pretty wet one as it was raining & had thunder & lightning. Guess we may see some of that later this evening. Mom was able to see a pretty painting in the sky last night but no moon or stars. I whispered to you so I hope you heard me. Mom will do it again later tonight too. Smile big when you hear my voice & I will smile just for you my sweet precious son.
Today Mom did quite a bit. I did the dusting, vacuuming, laundry, trash, got ready, ate lunch instead of breakfast & then came right into my office & started my final exam. Boy it is a lot harder than what I thought it would be. There are several essay questions on it & then a few fill in the blanks & multiple choice. Mom is hoping I will do well but I am not feeling like I will at this point. I worked on it for 3 hours & my head is hurting so I decided to just stop for the day & perhaps do some over the weekend or finish it up on Monday. Mom needs to get going here in a few minutes because it will be time for me to feed the pups & figure out what I am cooking for dinner tonight. Mom lost track of time as I was doing my exam. Mom needs to finish up with the housework too as we are having one of Marks friends here for the weekend. Mom likes to make sure everything is nice & clean for when we have guests. Next week I will do it all over again because on Monday Meme, Bob, Grandpa & Debbie will be here for the week. Mom & Mark are rethinking things on what we can do as Bob is still not doing well. We want everyone to have fun while they are here, relax & not be bored. Hope the pups will behave as Skittles & Ozzy don't seem to get along anymore. They used too but no more. Please watch over us all so that no one gets hurt. Last time Mom almost got bit twice. I was not happy about that at all...ugh! Anyways... that is all that Mom has for today. Here is the prayer & inspirational message for the day: When the enemy tries to bait you into discouragement, may you instead take your courageous stand in Christ Jesus. When the devil tries to seduce you into despair, may you instead walk through the door of hope God has provided for you. When you're tempted to walk down jealousy's path, may you instead embrace your own beautiful purpose & take the high road God has set before you. There's a best place for your feet today. Choose life this weekend! Amen.
The secret is within you. The more you use the power within you, the more you will draw it to you. You will reach a point where you won't need to practice anymore, because you will Be the power, you will Be the perfection, you will Be the wisdom, you will Be the intelligence, you will Be the love & you will Be the joy!
The night sky will be upon us soon. Mom will be looking out for the sunset & hopefully the moon & stars shining bright. I know you will be there shining bright for someone who needs it & that makes me so proud. Mom knows you are doing so many wonderful things wherever you are. Just wish I could see it for myself. Mom knows one day I will. Hope you have a fun night while I sleep. Come visit me if you can. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. I miss you more than words can say. You live inside my heart, mind, body & soul. You will forever be the wind beneath my wings & my hero! Mom will be back tomorrow evening so until then....Good night & sweet dreams.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this very warm & humid Friday afternoon? Mom is doing okay. It is the 1st day in 2 weeks that I haven't been coughing a lot. I still have the cough but it is now not continuous. I am still pretty stuffy so I am thinking that somehow the cough turned into a cold. Either way Mom is believing she is on the road to recovery. The weather today is really warm & humid. It is 90+ degrees outside & all the mugginess that goes with it. Mark was saying that his drive home was a pretty wet one as it was raining & had thunder & lightning. Guess we may see some of that later this evening. Mom was able to see a pretty painting in the sky last night but no moon or stars. I whispered to you so I hope you heard me. Mom will do it again later tonight too. Smile big when you hear my voice & I will smile just for you my sweet precious son.
Today Mom did quite a bit. I did the dusting, vacuuming, laundry, trash, got ready, ate lunch instead of breakfast & then came right into my office & started my final exam. Boy it is a lot harder than what I thought it would be. There are several essay questions on it & then a few fill in the blanks & multiple choice. Mom is hoping I will do well but I am not feeling like I will at this point. I worked on it for 3 hours & my head is hurting so I decided to just stop for the day & perhaps do some over the weekend or finish it up on Monday. Mom needs to get going here in a few minutes because it will be time for me to feed the pups & figure out what I am cooking for dinner tonight. Mom lost track of time as I was doing my exam. Mom needs to finish up with the housework too as we are having one of Marks friends here for the weekend. Mom likes to make sure everything is nice & clean for when we have guests. Next week I will do it all over again because on Monday Meme, Bob, Grandpa & Debbie will be here for the week. Mom & Mark are rethinking things on what we can do as Bob is still not doing well. We want everyone to have fun while they are here, relax & not be bored. Hope the pups will behave as Skittles & Ozzy don't seem to get along anymore. They used too but no more. Please watch over us all so that no one gets hurt. Last time Mom almost got bit twice. I was not happy about that at all...ugh! Anyways... that is all that Mom has for today. Here is the prayer & inspirational message for the day: When the enemy tries to bait you into discouragement, may you instead take your courageous stand in Christ Jesus. When the devil tries to seduce you into despair, may you instead walk through the door of hope God has provided for you. When you're tempted to walk down jealousy's path, may you instead embrace your own beautiful purpose & take the high road God has set before you. There's a best place for your feet today. Choose life this weekend! Amen.
The secret is within you. The more you use the power within you, the more you will draw it to you. You will reach a point where you won't need to practice anymore, because you will Be the power, you will Be the perfection, you will Be the wisdom, you will Be the intelligence, you will Be the love & you will Be the joy!
The night sky will be upon us soon. Mom will be looking out for the sunset & hopefully the moon & stars shining bright. I know you will be there shining bright for someone who needs it & that makes me so proud. Mom knows you are doing so many wonderful things wherever you are. Just wish I could see it for myself. Mom knows one day I will. Hope you have a fun night while I sleep. Come visit me if you can. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. I miss you more than words can say. You live inside my heart, mind, body & soul. You will forever be the wind beneath my wings & my hero! Mom will be back tomorrow evening so until then....Good night & sweet dreams.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Thursday, June 22, 2017
Dear Tyler,
Hi pumpkin! How are you on this Thursday afternoon? Mom is wanting to write to you now because honestly I am feeling a little fuzzy at the moment. Guess I took my medicine a little too close & now my head is feeling weird & I am kind of tired. Mom was up early this morning & actually got a lot done. I fed the pups, made coffee for Mark, breakfast for the both of us, folded laundry, got ready, took the pups out for a nice walk & then came right in & did my studying. I read chapters 3 & 4 & also took those 2 exams. I got a 95% on the 1st one & a 98% on the 2nd one. So far out of 100 question total for the 4 exams Mom has 97 questions correct & only 3 wrong. I don't think that is too shabby. I am pretty proud of myself actually. Tomorrow all day while Mark is gone I will be working on my Final exam for this course. I actually started it yesterday & will be done Friday...3 days total. Mom knows you are smiling down on me. Mom is so happy that you are near me during this whole thing. Mom is doing as well as she is because of you so thank you my sweet precious son!
Last night Mom spoke to Meme & Grandpa. Mom had to cut both conversations short because I lost my voice. That came out of no where though. I went to bed about an hour or so later & woke up with a voice so maybe it was that I talked too much yesterday.... Mark enjoyed the peace & quiet for a bit though...lol. Bob's appointment was simple. They did an EKG & his heart is still pumping in A Fib still has been for the last 2 months. Doctors still do not know why though. They would like him to have blood drawn for the next 4 weeks to check all levels & have a scope down the throat to see if there are any blood clots. After that it looks like they will be shocking his heart again for the 4th time. Hopefully this will help him & things will get back to normal for Bob. The new medicine that they put him on are not working so they are back to square one on that again. Both Meme & Bob are discouraged & Mom doesn't blame them one bit. You & I know exactly how that feels. How many times did we both feel that way? Way to many to count that's for sure. Grandpa & Debbie are doing great. Looking forward to their vacation in another week when they come here to visit.
One of Mom's friends today is having their Dad's funeral. His Dad lost his battle with cancer last week. Just so sad. My friend took some pictures of the service as it was a full military funeral for their loved ones who lived out of state. It looked beautiful & the weather was perfect. My heart breaks for them all. Something like this is never easy. Mom hopes they can find peace & comfort now. I am sure his Dad was watching over with a smile on his face & so proud. Blessings to them all.
Mom doesn't not have any other updates for you but I do have a prayer so here it is:
May God himself restore to you something you lost & never thought you'd get back again. May He heal a soul wound you thought you'd never get over. May he pour out an abundance of joy & hope that makes you celebrate before the answer comes. And may thriving, rich faith mark your life in every way. You have access to the Most High God. May your live accordingly. A blessed & beautiful day & night to you. Amen.
here is the inspirational message of the day: You cannot be harmed unless you call harm into existence by emitting those negative thoughts & feelings. You have been given free will to choose, but when you think negative thoughts & have negative feelings, you are separating yourself from the One and All Good. Think about every negative emotion there is & you will discover that every one of them is based in fear. They come from thoughts of separation & from seeing yourself as separate from another.
Guess what time it is? Yup...it is that time of day where Mom needs to get going so that I can feed the pups & get dinner going for Mark & I. Mom will be taking the pups for another long walk as well. Hope that your night is all that you need & want it to be. Hope you can get the chance to visit Mom in my dreams tonight when I am sleeping. Have fun. Mom will whisper to you as I do each & every night. Smile & I will too. Hope Mom gets to see a nice sunset tonight along with the stars & moon. Nothing was seen last night which really surprised me. Mom lit a candle for you...did you see it? I will do it again this evening just for you. Mom misses you more than words can say. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. You live inside my heart, mind, body & soul. You always will. You are my hero & the wind beneath my wings.
Mom will be back again tomorrow with another letter to you so until then....Good night & sweet dreams.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Hi pumpkin! How are you on this Thursday afternoon? Mom is wanting to write to you now because honestly I am feeling a little fuzzy at the moment. Guess I took my medicine a little too close & now my head is feeling weird & I am kind of tired. Mom was up early this morning & actually got a lot done. I fed the pups, made coffee for Mark, breakfast for the both of us, folded laundry, got ready, took the pups out for a nice walk & then came right in & did my studying. I read chapters 3 & 4 & also took those 2 exams. I got a 95% on the 1st one & a 98% on the 2nd one. So far out of 100 question total for the 4 exams Mom has 97 questions correct & only 3 wrong. I don't think that is too shabby. I am pretty proud of myself actually. Tomorrow all day while Mark is gone I will be working on my Final exam for this course. I actually started it yesterday & will be done Friday...3 days total. Mom knows you are smiling down on me. Mom is so happy that you are near me during this whole thing. Mom is doing as well as she is because of you so thank you my sweet precious son!
Last night Mom spoke to Meme & Grandpa. Mom had to cut both conversations short because I lost my voice. That came out of no where though. I went to bed about an hour or so later & woke up with a voice so maybe it was that I talked too much yesterday.... Mark enjoyed the peace & quiet for a bit though...lol. Bob's appointment was simple. They did an EKG & his heart is still pumping in A Fib still has been for the last 2 months. Doctors still do not know why though. They would like him to have blood drawn for the next 4 weeks to check all levels & have a scope down the throat to see if there are any blood clots. After that it looks like they will be shocking his heart again for the 4th time. Hopefully this will help him & things will get back to normal for Bob. The new medicine that they put him on are not working so they are back to square one on that again. Both Meme & Bob are discouraged & Mom doesn't blame them one bit. You & I know exactly how that feels. How many times did we both feel that way? Way to many to count that's for sure. Grandpa & Debbie are doing great. Looking forward to their vacation in another week when they come here to visit.
One of Mom's friends today is having their Dad's funeral. His Dad lost his battle with cancer last week. Just so sad. My friend took some pictures of the service as it was a full military funeral for their loved ones who lived out of state. It looked beautiful & the weather was perfect. My heart breaks for them all. Something like this is never easy. Mom hopes they can find peace & comfort now. I am sure his Dad was watching over with a smile on his face & so proud. Blessings to them all.
Mom doesn't not have any other updates for you but I do have a prayer so here it is:
May God himself restore to you something you lost & never thought you'd get back again. May He heal a soul wound you thought you'd never get over. May he pour out an abundance of joy & hope that makes you celebrate before the answer comes. And may thriving, rich faith mark your life in every way. You have access to the Most High God. May your live accordingly. A blessed & beautiful day & night to you. Amen.
here is the inspirational message of the day: You cannot be harmed unless you call harm into existence by emitting those negative thoughts & feelings. You have been given free will to choose, but when you think negative thoughts & have negative feelings, you are separating yourself from the One and All Good. Think about every negative emotion there is & you will discover that every one of them is based in fear. They come from thoughts of separation & from seeing yourself as separate from another.
Guess what time it is? Yup...it is that time of day where Mom needs to get going so that I can feed the pups & get dinner going for Mark & I. Mom will be taking the pups for another long walk as well. Hope that your night is all that you need & want it to be. Hope you can get the chance to visit Mom in my dreams tonight when I am sleeping. Have fun. Mom will whisper to you as I do each & every night. Smile & I will too. Hope Mom gets to see a nice sunset tonight along with the stars & moon. Nothing was seen last night which really surprised me. Mom lit a candle for you...did you see it? I will do it again this evening just for you. Mom misses you more than words can say. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. You live inside my heart, mind, body & soul. You always will. You are my hero & the wind beneath my wings.
Mom will be back again tomorrow with another letter to you so until then....Good night & sweet dreams.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Wednesday, June 21, 2017
Dear Tyler,
Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this Wednesday afternoon? Mom is doing okay. I made it through yesterday with a few breakdowns but honestly I was pretty proud of myself for how I did. My mind was always on you & the memories of that day. Mom has been living it every day for the past 4 years. I grieved every day for you when you were here in the physical world & I grieve every day for not having you here with me. Mom is just in a constant grieving pattern. I miss you so much. I will always miss you. I loved you even before I met you & I still love you now. That will never go away or stop. You were my everything...you still are. Mom loves you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. More than all the stars in the sky & to infinity & beyond. Mom had several family & friends send me sweet messages yesterday & phone calls. For it being a difficult day they all sure made it a little easier. Everyone was so kind with memories of you...some made me laugh & some made me tear up. Mom is sure that you saw & read every single one of them too!
Today is the 1st official day of Summer & the weather is nice & warm. The sky is sunny & the sky is blue. Mom saw a small sunset last night & the clouds were neat. They were fluffy white & black almost but they had like a hot pink color running through them. I took some pictures. Meme made me laugh because she said they were scary looking & Mom thought they were cool. 4 years ago today you & Mark's Star that Mom bought you both for Christmas that year went up in Space. I remember we were waiting to watch it together but they kept changing the dates on us. Finally they had the date & we never got to see it. Mom wonders if you got to see it & if so what did it look like? Mom wonders what the moon & stars look like to you now? I bet they are beautiful. Mom is hoping that I get the chance to see some stars & the moon shining bright in the sky tonight. Its been a few days since that has happened. Maybe just maybe Mom will see a gorgeous painting in the sky as well. That would be a nice surprise. No pressure though, Ty ;)
Mom spoke to Meme, Aunt Beck & Bean last night. Like I was telling you...Aunt Beck has what Mom has..that cold & nasty cough & now John is catching it. Hope they both feel better soon. Bean is doing well. We chatted for about 30 minutes which was very nice. She sounds good. She was telling me she was sick for 6 weeks with this stuff. Ugh! Hope it doesn't last that long for Mom. It is week 2 for me & 3 1/2 weeks for Mark. This is crazy! Work is going well for her & her personal life seems to be looking up as well. Mom is happy for her. She deserves it! Mom will speak to Grandpa tonight & Meme again so I can find out how Bob's appointment went today. I am anxious to hear what the doctors said. They all will be here for 5 days the 1st week of July. That will be nice to spend some time with them & not just a few hours. Mom is looking forward to that. Mark is too as he has just been straight out with work. He needs a nice break. Mom is worried about him still. His job is just piling more & more clients on him. I say very little about it as I don't want to start an argument but I am very concerned. I know you watch over us all the time & as much as you can. Please continue my sweet precious son. It means so much to Mom. Thank you. That is all the updates that I have for you today.
Here is a daily prayer for you: May you begin to see your setbacks as temporary, your delays as detours & your heartbreaks as opportunities to experience God's precious, powerful healing. In the meantime, may God give you glimpses of glory, insights into His good plan for you. Be assured that God has never left your side; He'll never let you go. May God help you see with supernatural insight so that you won't be deceived by the enemy of your soul or by your past painful filters or by your fears in the future. In fact, right here--in this place--may your divine perspective hugely inspire your faith steps. You are mighty in God & He is mighty in you. Amen!
Here is an inspirational message for today: Clarity~ Every day that I wake I am a new person ready for another journey. I am excited by this life that I have been given & I treasure my health, family & friends. I have unlimited potential to create whatever life I wish for myself. The only limits I have are the ones that I place on myself. Every experience I have in this life creates who I am. I allow myself to experience all of the emotions that arise in me & I go forward with ease & grace. I have a crystal clear vision of where I want to go in my life!
Well, Tyler.... it is that time again of the day where Mom needs to get going to start dinner & feed Princess & Ozzy. Mom studied all day long. I read 2 chapters & took 2 exams. I got a 100% on the 1st exam & a 95% on the 2nd one. Mom will be doing exam 3 & 4 tomorrow & my Final will be Friday. This was a very fast course. Just 17 more classes to go...lol! I know you are with Mom every step of the way! Thank you. Mom hopes tonight will be everything you need & want it to be. Come visit me in my dreams tonight. Have fun while I sleep. I will whisper to you as I always do so be listening out for my voice. Let's smile together. Remember you live in my heart, mind, body & soul. You are my hero & the wind beneath my wings. Until tomorrow night....Good night & sweet dreams. The candle will be burning tonight.... it's for you! I love you.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this Wednesday afternoon? Mom is doing okay. I made it through yesterday with a few breakdowns but honestly I was pretty proud of myself for how I did. My mind was always on you & the memories of that day. Mom has been living it every day for the past 4 years. I grieved every day for you when you were here in the physical world & I grieve every day for not having you here with me. Mom is just in a constant grieving pattern. I miss you so much. I will always miss you. I loved you even before I met you & I still love you now. That will never go away or stop. You were my everything...you still are. Mom loves you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. More than all the stars in the sky & to infinity & beyond. Mom had several family & friends send me sweet messages yesterday & phone calls. For it being a difficult day they all sure made it a little easier. Everyone was so kind with memories of you...some made me laugh & some made me tear up. Mom is sure that you saw & read every single one of them too!
Today is the 1st official day of Summer & the weather is nice & warm. The sky is sunny & the sky is blue. Mom saw a small sunset last night & the clouds were neat. They were fluffy white & black almost but they had like a hot pink color running through them. I took some pictures. Meme made me laugh because she said they were scary looking & Mom thought they were cool. 4 years ago today you & Mark's Star that Mom bought you both for Christmas that year went up in Space. I remember we were waiting to watch it together but they kept changing the dates on us. Finally they had the date & we never got to see it. Mom wonders if you got to see it & if so what did it look like? Mom wonders what the moon & stars look like to you now? I bet they are beautiful. Mom is hoping that I get the chance to see some stars & the moon shining bright in the sky tonight. Its been a few days since that has happened. Maybe just maybe Mom will see a gorgeous painting in the sky as well. That would be a nice surprise. No pressure though, Ty ;)
Mom spoke to Meme, Aunt Beck & Bean last night. Like I was telling you...Aunt Beck has what Mom has..that cold & nasty cough & now John is catching it. Hope they both feel better soon. Bean is doing well. We chatted for about 30 minutes which was very nice. She sounds good. She was telling me she was sick for 6 weeks with this stuff. Ugh! Hope it doesn't last that long for Mom. It is week 2 for me & 3 1/2 weeks for Mark. This is crazy! Work is going well for her & her personal life seems to be looking up as well. Mom is happy for her. She deserves it! Mom will speak to Grandpa tonight & Meme again so I can find out how Bob's appointment went today. I am anxious to hear what the doctors said. They all will be here for 5 days the 1st week of July. That will be nice to spend some time with them & not just a few hours. Mom is looking forward to that. Mark is too as he has just been straight out with work. He needs a nice break. Mom is worried about him still. His job is just piling more & more clients on him. I say very little about it as I don't want to start an argument but I am very concerned. I know you watch over us all the time & as much as you can. Please continue my sweet precious son. It means so much to Mom. Thank you. That is all the updates that I have for you today.
Here is a daily prayer for you: May you begin to see your setbacks as temporary, your delays as detours & your heartbreaks as opportunities to experience God's precious, powerful healing. In the meantime, may God give you glimpses of glory, insights into His good plan for you. Be assured that God has never left your side; He'll never let you go. May God help you see with supernatural insight so that you won't be deceived by the enemy of your soul or by your past painful filters or by your fears in the future. In fact, right here--in this place--may your divine perspective hugely inspire your faith steps. You are mighty in God & He is mighty in you. Amen!
Here is an inspirational message for today: Clarity~ Every day that I wake I am a new person ready for another journey. I am excited by this life that I have been given & I treasure my health, family & friends. I have unlimited potential to create whatever life I wish for myself. The only limits I have are the ones that I place on myself. Every experience I have in this life creates who I am. I allow myself to experience all of the emotions that arise in me & I go forward with ease & grace. I have a crystal clear vision of where I want to go in my life!
Well, Tyler.... it is that time again of the day where Mom needs to get going to start dinner & feed Princess & Ozzy. Mom studied all day long. I read 2 chapters & took 2 exams. I got a 100% on the 1st exam & a 95% on the 2nd one. Mom will be doing exam 3 & 4 tomorrow & my Final will be Friday. This was a very fast course. Just 17 more classes to go...lol! I know you are with Mom every step of the way! Thank you. Mom hopes tonight will be everything you need & want it to be. Come visit me in my dreams tonight. Have fun while I sleep. I will whisper to you as I always do so be listening out for my voice. Let's smile together. Remember you live in my heart, mind, body & soul. You are my hero & the wind beneath my wings. Until tomorrow night....Good night & sweet dreams. The candle will be burning tonight.... it's for you! I love you.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Tuesday, June 20, 2017
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Tuesday afternoon? As you have seen, Mom's day so far has been very emotional. Today is the day that you received your Angel wings. Today is the day that I lost you & I lost myself. Mom was surprised that I slept last night because honestly the day was also emotional. I didn't think I would really be able to as my mind was all over the place but I did sleep. It was a nice surprise to say the least. This morning was pretty tough though I won't lie. Mom has been up since 6 am with my mind once again all over the place. Remembering so many details of the day 4 years ago. Doctors talking to me, telling me things & then having to make all kinds of decisions....wondering if those decisions were right, was I honoring you the way you wanted & the way you deserved or was I doing everything all wrong. The horror of it all plays over & over in my head. No Mom should EVER have to make the decision that I did. It is not right. It is so cruel. It is not fair & it is not the circle of life. Mom is really trying so hard Tyler not to be so sad, so angry all over again as I know you do not like it. Mom knows it hurts you & I would never want that. Mom wants you to continue to grow & be happy & free & I know you are as you have told me. I just miss you so much. I miss the sound of your voice, your face, your smile, your laugh, our conversations & everything else. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. I love you more than all the stars in the sky. You went through so much in your life even at the end you went through hell. Mom is so sorry. I hope you know that if I could have changed it I would. I would have done anything for you. If I could I would have taken all the pain that you had away. That's what Mom's do for their child or children. Mom grieved for you every day. I watched your pain. I watched your sadness because you couldn't do all the things your friends did. I watched you miss out on so many things. I watched you cry more often as you got older because you were aware of so much more. You never saw Mom cry because in front of you I felt I always needed to be your strength & be strong for you but the minute I turned my back & walked away the tears always fell from my eyes. Mom never wanted you to see me that way. I know your life was so tough & so exhausting but Mom wouldn't have traded any of it. I cherished every single thing that we did together whether it was just sitting & talking or us taking a vacation.... all of it I cherish. The memories is what keeps Mom going now. Memories is all I have left.
Meme & Aunt Beck have called me today to check in on me. That was very sweet of them. Meme was on her lunch break so I will touch base with her later tonight as tomorrow Bob goes for his doctors appointment. Aunt Beck is sick with what Mom has... the cold, cough, flu. It is going around so much. It is nasty & it needs to stay away for good. She is on day 8 & Mom is on day 13. I will say I do feel better then what I did. I am sleeping through the night & coughing less & less each day. Hopefully by the weekend I will be back to my old self again. I know you are watching over us all & Mom thanks you so much. Please continue to be with us. I am sure that Grandpa will check in with Mom later tonight. I have had several friends check in with me as well letting me know that they are thinking of me knowing what today is. Mom is very thankful for their sweet comments. It means a lot to me to know people care. You & I always had an army behind us. We both have always had so many that care. It warmed my heart then & it still warms my heart. Mom really doesn't have any updates for you because I am just trying to stay busy doing things so I don't let my mind wander. I will keep you posted as usual as I know of things though.
Here is a pray for today: May God open the Heavens & give you a glimpse of how far you've come in this battle. You're still standing! In Christ, you're stronger than you know. May you see with eyes of faith how much of the wall has already come down! May Jesus speak peace to you soul & strength to your heart. May you understand--on a whole new level--why God has allowed you to walk through this trial. He has something for you here....treasures in the darkness that will serve you well in the days ahead. Don't lose hope. Don't let go of His promises. Circumstances are changing because of your faith. You are part of the conquering army of saints in the world today! Amen.
Here is one more prayer: May you be honest with God about the hurt in your heart. May you discern the difference between grief & self-pity. May you be okay with not always being okay. God will one day wipe away every tear from your eyes, but until then, He wants to help you walk the journey with peace in your heart & assurance in your soul. He is with you. He will heal you. And He will one day turn your mourning into dancing & your sorrow into songs of joy. In the meantime, enjoy the little graces you find along the way. Celebrate the small victories. Dare to dream & take one step at a time. You're going to be okay. Blessings on your day today. Amen.
Mom decided to do 2 prayers today instead of 1 prayer & 1 inspirational message. It just felt right. On tomorrow's letter I will be back to one each though. Today Mom just didn't have it in her to be inspirational at all. I know it is probably the wrong thing but it is just how I feel right now. I am sorry, Tyler. Mom is just being honest.
Mom is hoping that the night sky will show a painting from you. It will be the sign I need to let me know you are with Mom. The weather again is hot, humid & muggy. The rain has stopped & the sky is blue with some clouds. Maybe Mom will see the moon & the stars as well. That sure would be nice. I know you will be shining wherever you are. Mom hopes your night is full with things that you need to do & want to do. Have fun while I sleep. Come visit me in my dreams. Always know & feel it in your soul that you live inside my heart, mind, body & soul. You are forever my hero & the wind beneath my wings. Mom will whisper to you tonight so be listening out for my voice. I will try to smile just for you & hope you will be smiling back. I will light a candle tonight in your honor. Mom will be back tomorrow with another letter so until then.....good night & sweet dreams my sweet precious son. Fly high & free. I love you with every beat of my heart.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
P.S. Can you please give Snapples a big hug & kiss from Mom? Today ( approx. 3 hrs after you gained your wings....he gained his too! ) Give Snickers & Max some too. I miss them very much! Thank you.
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Tuesday afternoon? As you have seen, Mom's day so far has been very emotional. Today is the day that you received your Angel wings. Today is the day that I lost you & I lost myself. Mom was surprised that I slept last night because honestly the day was also emotional. I didn't think I would really be able to as my mind was all over the place but I did sleep. It was a nice surprise to say the least. This morning was pretty tough though I won't lie. Mom has been up since 6 am with my mind once again all over the place. Remembering so many details of the day 4 years ago. Doctors talking to me, telling me things & then having to make all kinds of decisions....wondering if those decisions were right, was I honoring you the way you wanted & the way you deserved or was I doing everything all wrong. The horror of it all plays over & over in my head. No Mom should EVER have to make the decision that I did. It is not right. It is so cruel. It is not fair & it is not the circle of life. Mom is really trying so hard Tyler not to be so sad, so angry all over again as I know you do not like it. Mom knows it hurts you & I would never want that. Mom wants you to continue to grow & be happy & free & I know you are as you have told me. I just miss you so much. I miss the sound of your voice, your face, your smile, your laugh, our conversations & everything else. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. I love you more than all the stars in the sky. You went through so much in your life even at the end you went through hell. Mom is so sorry. I hope you know that if I could have changed it I would. I would have done anything for you. If I could I would have taken all the pain that you had away. That's what Mom's do for their child or children. Mom grieved for you every day. I watched your pain. I watched your sadness because you couldn't do all the things your friends did. I watched you miss out on so many things. I watched you cry more often as you got older because you were aware of so much more. You never saw Mom cry because in front of you I felt I always needed to be your strength & be strong for you but the minute I turned my back & walked away the tears always fell from my eyes. Mom never wanted you to see me that way. I know your life was so tough & so exhausting but Mom wouldn't have traded any of it. I cherished every single thing that we did together whether it was just sitting & talking or us taking a vacation.... all of it I cherish. The memories is what keeps Mom going now. Memories is all I have left.
Meme & Aunt Beck have called me today to check in on me. That was very sweet of them. Meme was on her lunch break so I will touch base with her later tonight as tomorrow Bob goes for his doctors appointment. Aunt Beck is sick with what Mom has... the cold, cough, flu. It is going around so much. It is nasty & it needs to stay away for good. She is on day 8 & Mom is on day 13. I will say I do feel better then what I did. I am sleeping through the night & coughing less & less each day. Hopefully by the weekend I will be back to my old self again. I know you are watching over us all & Mom thanks you so much. Please continue to be with us. I am sure that Grandpa will check in with Mom later tonight. I have had several friends check in with me as well letting me know that they are thinking of me knowing what today is. Mom is very thankful for their sweet comments. It means a lot to me to know people care. You & I always had an army behind us. We both have always had so many that care. It warmed my heart then & it still warms my heart. Mom really doesn't have any updates for you because I am just trying to stay busy doing things so I don't let my mind wander. I will keep you posted as usual as I know of things though.
Here is a pray for today: May God open the Heavens & give you a glimpse of how far you've come in this battle. You're still standing! In Christ, you're stronger than you know. May you see with eyes of faith how much of the wall has already come down! May Jesus speak peace to you soul & strength to your heart. May you understand--on a whole new level--why God has allowed you to walk through this trial. He has something for you here....treasures in the darkness that will serve you well in the days ahead. Don't lose hope. Don't let go of His promises. Circumstances are changing because of your faith. You are part of the conquering army of saints in the world today! Amen.
Here is one more prayer: May you be honest with God about the hurt in your heart. May you discern the difference between grief & self-pity. May you be okay with not always being okay. God will one day wipe away every tear from your eyes, but until then, He wants to help you walk the journey with peace in your heart & assurance in your soul. He is with you. He will heal you. And He will one day turn your mourning into dancing & your sorrow into songs of joy. In the meantime, enjoy the little graces you find along the way. Celebrate the small victories. Dare to dream & take one step at a time. You're going to be okay. Blessings on your day today. Amen.
Mom decided to do 2 prayers today instead of 1 prayer & 1 inspirational message. It just felt right. On tomorrow's letter I will be back to one each though. Today Mom just didn't have it in her to be inspirational at all. I know it is probably the wrong thing but it is just how I feel right now. I am sorry, Tyler. Mom is just being honest.
Mom is hoping that the night sky will show a painting from you. It will be the sign I need to let me know you are with Mom. The weather again is hot, humid & muggy. The rain has stopped & the sky is blue with some clouds. Maybe Mom will see the moon & the stars as well. That sure would be nice. I know you will be shining wherever you are. Mom hopes your night is full with things that you need to do & want to do. Have fun while I sleep. Come visit me in my dreams. Always know & feel it in your soul that you live inside my heart, mind, body & soul. You are forever my hero & the wind beneath my wings. Mom will whisper to you tonight so be listening out for my voice. I will try to smile just for you & hope you will be smiling back. I will light a candle tonight in your honor. Mom will be back tomorrow with another letter so until then.....good night & sweet dreams my sweet precious son. Fly high & free. I love you with every beat of my heart.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
P.S. Can you please give Snapples a big hug & kiss from Mom? Today ( approx. 3 hrs after you gained your wings....he gained his too! ) Give Snickers & Max some too. I miss them very much! Thank you.
Monday, June 19, 2017
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Monday afternoon? I wish mom could say that I am doing just fine but honestly I am not. I am very anxious today & I am sure it has a lot to do with the day & everything that goes along with it. Mom got another good night sleep last night & I hope it continues that way from here on in. I woke up this morning sad knowing what today was & I had a good cry. 4 years ago today was the last time I heard your voice, heard you laugh, saw your smile. Never did I think it would be the last time though. I remember everything that we talked about & Mom remembers the last thing you said to me. The pain of that day will haunt me forever. Time does not heal any of these wounds. Mom doesn't think they ever will either. I remember scrambling around after getting the phone call from the doctors telling me what had happened. They kept me informed the whole time. Meme, Bob, Grandpa, Debbie, Aunt Beck & brandy were there with you. That was so important to Mom that you knew you were not alone. Mom tried so hard to get an Airline to get us a flight back that day/night but no one would help out. Mom walked around in a daze & the 2 flights to get to you the next day were a blur. I know I just kept whispering to you & praying that you would hold on... that Mom would make it in time. You were so strong & so brave yet again. You always were but especially this time. You were & always will be my Hero. You are the wind beneath my wings, Tyler.
Mom is trying to stay busy doing things so that my mind does not wander. Sometimes it works & other times it does not. Tomorrow will be the toughest day & I will be alone. Mark will have to go to a class & he can't get out of it. I guess it is probably for the best as Mom won't really be too talkative. You will see Mom shed many tears tomorrow thinking about everything but know that I will be OK. That is all part of the grieving process. Mom has to be able to show her emotions so that I can grow.... So you can continue to grow wherever you are. Mom misses you so much. No words can ever express it. Love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. To infinity & beyond.
This morning when I was eating breakfast I heard the birds singing & they were quite loud or at least I thought they were loud. I happened to look up from where I was sitting & I saw a Cardinal sitting on top of the wreath I have hanging from the door outside. I just stared at it & it was looking back at me. It was talking & looked away & then fly off. I whispered to you. Did you hear Mom? Was that you telling me that you were near me & that everything would be alright? Mom thought the Cardinal would come back again but she never did. I waited at the table for a good 30 minutes but nothing. Mom wants to believe that was you giving me a sign. Thank you. I needed that. Please give another one for Mom tomorrow, OK?
Mom does not have any updates for you at all today but I am sure that will change during the week. I will keep you updated as I know of things though. Here is a pray for the day:
Precious Lord, quiet my heart today. Help me cease striving & intimately know what You are God. I release my cares, worries, dreams & hopes to You & fully embrace the wonder of knowing & being known by You. Any gift from Your hand pales in comparison to knowing Your heart. For You are the greatest treasure, the Pearl hidden in the field. I celebrate Your presence in my life today. I'm rich beyond measure because I'm Yours! Thank you, Lord. Amen!
Here is the inspirational message for today: Ask once, believe you have received & all you have to do to receive is feel good. When you are feeling good, you are on the frequency of receiving. You are on the frequency of all good things coming to you & you will receive what you have asked for. You wouldn't ask for anything unless it was going to make you feel good in the receiving of it, would you? Do get yourself on the feeling good frequency & you will receive.
It is only 1 pm here right now & Mom has a few hours before I need to start the night routine for the pups & Mark & I. Mom is going to go study as I received my new books for my class on Friday afternoon. Hope that later this evening you have a peaceful night doing things that you need to & want to. Mom hopes you have fun while I am sleeping. Please be with me or come visit me in my dreams if you can. Thank you my sweet precious son. I will whisper to you as I always do so be listening for me tonight. Smile & Mom will smile back just for you. The weather is kind of hazy today but very humid outside. Mom hopes to see the moon & stars shining bright & maybe I will see a sunset as well.
I will be back tomorrow with another letter to you so until then....good night & sweet dreams. My love for you is unconditional. You live inside my heart, mind, body & soul forever.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Monday afternoon? I wish mom could say that I am doing just fine but honestly I am not. I am very anxious today & I am sure it has a lot to do with the day & everything that goes along with it. Mom got another good night sleep last night & I hope it continues that way from here on in. I woke up this morning sad knowing what today was & I had a good cry. 4 years ago today was the last time I heard your voice, heard you laugh, saw your smile. Never did I think it would be the last time though. I remember everything that we talked about & Mom remembers the last thing you said to me. The pain of that day will haunt me forever. Time does not heal any of these wounds. Mom doesn't think they ever will either. I remember scrambling around after getting the phone call from the doctors telling me what had happened. They kept me informed the whole time. Meme, Bob, Grandpa, Debbie, Aunt Beck & brandy were there with you. That was so important to Mom that you knew you were not alone. Mom tried so hard to get an Airline to get us a flight back that day/night but no one would help out. Mom walked around in a daze & the 2 flights to get to you the next day were a blur. I know I just kept whispering to you & praying that you would hold on... that Mom would make it in time. You were so strong & so brave yet again. You always were but especially this time. You were & always will be my Hero. You are the wind beneath my wings, Tyler.
Mom is trying to stay busy doing things so that my mind does not wander. Sometimes it works & other times it does not. Tomorrow will be the toughest day & I will be alone. Mark will have to go to a class & he can't get out of it. I guess it is probably for the best as Mom won't really be too talkative. You will see Mom shed many tears tomorrow thinking about everything but know that I will be OK. That is all part of the grieving process. Mom has to be able to show her emotions so that I can grow.... So you can continue to grow wherever you are. Mom misses you so much. No words can ever express it. Love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. To infinity & beyond.
This morning when I was eating breakfast I heard the birds singing & they were quite loud or at least I thought they were loud. I happened to look up from where I was sitting & I saw a Cardinal sitting on top of the wreath I have hanging from the door outside. I just stared at it & it was looking back at me. It was talking & looked away & then fly off. I whispered to you. Did you hear Mom? Was that you telling me that you were near me & that everything would be alright? Mom thought the Cardinal would come back again but she never did. I waited at the table for a good 30 minutes but nothing. Mom wants to believe that was you giving me a sign. Thank you. I needed that. Please give another one for Mom tomorrow, OK?
Mom does not have any updates for you at all today but I am sure that will change during the week. I will keep you updated as I know of things though. Here is a pray for the day:
Precious Lord, quiet my heart today. Help me cease striving & intimately know what You are God. I release my cares, worries, dreams & hopes to You & fully embrace the wonder of knowing & being known by You. Any gift from Your hand pales in comparison to knowing Your heart. For You are the greatest treasure, the Pearl hidden in the field. I celebrate Your presence in my life today. I'm rich beyond measure because I'm Yours! Thank you, Lord. Amen!
Here is the inspirational message for today: Ask once, believe you have received & all you have to do to receive is feel good. When you are feeling good, you are on the frequency of receiving. You are on the frequency of all good things coming to you & you will receive what you have asked for. You wouldn't ask for anything unless it was going to make you feel good in the receiving of it, would you? Do get yourself on the feeling good frequency & you will receive.
It is only 1 pm here right now & Mom has a few hours before I need to start the night routine for the pups & Mark & I. Mom is going to go study as I received my new books for my class on Friday afternoon. Hope that later this evening you have a peaceful night doing things that you need to & want to. Mom hopes you have fun while I am sleeping. Please be with me or come visit me in my dreams if you can. Thank you my sweet precious son. I will whisper to you as I always do so be listening for me tonight. Smile & Mom will smile back just for you. The weather is kind of hazy today but very humid outside. Mom hopes to see the moon & stars shining bright & maybe I will see a sunset as well.
I will be back tomorrow with another letter to you so until then....good night & sweet dreams. My love for you is unconditional. You live inside my heart, mind, body & soul forever.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Sunday, June 18, 2017
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