Dear Tyler,

Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this Sunday afternoon? The weather sure is hot & humid. Wow...it's that step outside & it takes your breath away. Definitely feels like a Texas kind of day today! It is June 18th & it is Father's Day. Mom was going to text your Dad to wish him a nice day but honestly I haven't heard from him in about 2 years now. I may still do it but last time I texted him I never got a response back so maybe he has a different number now... Mom is not sure. No matter where he is I know he is having a difficult day today as Mom does on Mother's Day. There are always a handful of days that are tougher than every other day & this happens to be one of them. Mom is sure that you will visit him at some point today! I know he will like that very much. Father's Day 1994 will be a day Mom will never forget. You had gotten sick 10 days before & were in a coma. We couldn't hear your little voice at all as we stayed by your side in the hospital 24/7. It was on this very day... Father's Day that you woke up from your coma & wished your Dad a Happy Father's Day. It's been 23 years since that happened but Mom still remembers it like it was yesterday. Mom will never forget that or anything that happened over the 20+ years with you. There were many of years that Mom played the role of Mommy, Daddy, Nurse, etc... to you. They sure were many of tough days but the outcome was so rewarding for me. No regrets at all....not then...not ever! The next couple of days will be tough for Mom just to let you know. It is a prewarning so to speak. If you see Mom being sad, quiet, crying just know it because I miss you so much & it will be 4 years since you went away. Mom will be OK though. I will just have to work through those days just like I do every year my sweet precious son. Send me a sign if you can to let me know you are with me. Mom would really love that. Thank you. Mom needs to change the subject now as I am getting sad.
 Last night Mom got a good nights sleep. It felt so good but I am thinking maybe I got too much because I am tired today or maybe it is because of the humidity in the air. Not sure but I am crossing my fingers & toes that tonight I can get another good night sleep & be ready to deal with what Monday will bring....not to mention Mom has school in the morning. It felt great last night not to cough constantly. I did wake up all stuffy & coughing this morning though. I have taken two doses of my cough medicine & Mom is sucking on these nasty cough drops but they are helping me so I am not complaining. I think all this is helping me & I am getting better slowly. Mom just has to be patient & let it go through her system. I know you are watching over me during this & I thank you so much. It means the world to me. I need you, Tyler. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. 
 Mom didn't chat with anyone last night but I did call Bob this morning to wish him a Happy Father's Day. I also spoke with Meme too. Mom will be calling Grandpa later tonight when he is out of work to wish him one as well. We have a regular skype call tonight too. Not much else but I will keep you posted. 
 Here is a prayer for you today: Heavenly Father, I am holding onto you! Please help me stay the course for I put my trust in You. Lead me into all that You have for me. Take me into deeper water, in the name of Jesus Christ, I pray. Amen.
 Here is an inspirational message for today as well: Doing good for others is not a duty.... it's a joy. It increases your own health & happiness.
 Today is flying by that is for sure. At some extent I want it too & the other part doesn't as Mom knows what days are coming on Monday & Tuesday. Either way Mom needs to get going so I can pay bills & figure out what is for dinner tonight for Mark & I. Mom will be back tomorrow with another letter to you so until then..... continue to fly free. Good night & sweet dreams. Hope you have a fun night & it is all that you need it & want it to be. Come visit me if you can. Mom will whisper to you later so smile when you hear me. I will smile too. Later tonight I will be looking for a painting from you so get those brushes out, Tyler! I love you my sweet son.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!