Dear Tyler,

Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this Saturday afternoon? The weather here is beautiful. Sunny & blue skies & in the 80's. Wish Mom was feeling better to enjoy the day more. I feel worse than I have in the past 4 days. Hopefully soon I will be feeling better. This cough is terrible & it is driving me insane. 
 Today is an emotional day for Mom. It was 23 years ago on this very day that you got sick. I remember it all like it was yesterday. The things that were said to your Dad & I, to seeing you so sick. The nightmare for us all, but especially you was just starting. None of us had a clue to what was going to happen & where life was going to lead us. We were in it together though. At times I didn't think we had a chance or a pray to save you or us but God showed us & proved us wrong. We made a lot of mistakes along the way but Mom believes that for the most part we did pretty dang good. We took the bull by it's horns & we just never looked back. Our " normal " routine that we had changed & it became our new " normal. " We had such a huge support system behind us...doctors, surgeons, nurses, family & friends through it all. You endured so much, Tyler through all those years. You stayed so strong for so long. You amazed me. You gave me strength when I needed it & we were each others rock. It was always you & I against the world but as you like Mom to say now... it is you & I for the world. This day will always be etched in my mind as a day that changed our lives forever. It makes me sad for all the things that took place over 23 years but Mom will not dwell in them. I honor you my sweet precious son for all that you fought for, over came, etc.... You are Mom's HERO & forever will be the wind beneath my wings. I miss you so much, more than words can say & I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. You live forever in my heart, mind, body & soul. Nothing will ever change that. 
 Mom did not see the stars shining bright last night but I did get to see the moon. It was very pretty. It appeared to have been a nice sunset but I missed it. Hopefully we will get one tonight that I will see. Mom is probably not going to do much but relax & go to bed early. I really need to fight this nasty cold/cough off for good. I will whisper to you later as I always do so be listening out for my voice. Smile when you hear Mom & I will smile back for you. I don't have much for updates right now. I did chat with Meme briefly though. She was not having the best day. 1st her coffee maker didn't work so she had no coffee, then she was doing laundry & the washer just stopped. She had to go out & get a new one & then after that, like that was not enough something happened with their toilet. I felt so bad but she was keeping her spirits up. Everyone seems to be well. I should have some other news for you in a couple days I am sure.
 Here is a pray for the day: Dear God, Let me be content with who I am, what I have & where you are leading me. Help me to have a mindset of confidence, courage & thankfulness all day long. Amen. 
 A Blessing from the Light: You are dearly loved; more than you can possibly imagine & you are never alone. A universe of love & light surrounds you & showers you with blessings that ebb & flow in your heart. 
 Well believe it or not it is almost that time of the day where Mom needs to be thinking of what to have for dinner & get the pups all taken care of. Mom hopes that you will come visit me tonight in my dreams while I sleep. Have fun & continue to soar & spread your wings. I will be back tomorrow with another letter to you so until then.....good night & sweet dreams. I love you.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!