Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Monday afternoon? Mom is doing fine but I have been pretty busy all day so far. I was up most of the night again as I guess I drank too much water during the day & evening yesterday.... every couple hours so I can say that I am tired today from not getting a lot of rest last night but that did not stop me. Mom was up early this morning making coffee, feeding the pups, cleaning up around the apartment & then I got ready, took the pups for a nice walk & the made breakfast. After doing the dishes, I came right into my office & started to study. I read my chapter & started my exam. I didn't finish it but I will tomorrow. Mom just wants to make sure I am getting the correct answers & I don't want to submit anything when I am tired. I want a good grade this time! 
 Mom is sorry that I didn't write to you last night but Mark & I went out & ran errands most of the day & got back in the afternoon. Mom put everything away & then relaxed on the couch. I made dinner later in the evening, did the dishes & then relaxed some more. Both mark & Mom went to bed fairly early as well. Mom never turned on her computer at all. Yesterday there were many conversations that Mom had with family. I spoke to Meme, Grandpa & Uncle Dick. Mom had to tell all of them that one of their friends gained their Angel wings. Meme worked with him & knew him when she was growing up & Grandpa & uncle Dick were really good friends. They hung out when they were in high school. It was so sad to hear them all say " What " when I told them all. That makes 2 friends in 2 days that they have lost. I spoke to Uncle Dick for about 45 minutes. Him & Aunt Jacqui are getting ready to fly down to Florida on Friday to see Tony, Heather, Lexie, Ava, Charlie, & Piper. They are pretty excited. Uncle dick was saying that he had a doctors app't last week & got spoken to because he is not doing what he is suppose to since he had his heart attack. He is not drinking enough water, eating the right foods & because of that he has no energy. I hope that the doctor got through to him this time so that he can be around to see his grandbabies grow up. Meme called me today as well to let me know that things are going in the right direction for her & Bob but they are starting to worry about his procedure in 2 days. Mom hopes everything will be fine & he will get to go home that day. Mom & Mark will be going to NH next weekend for a day just to say hello, visit you, & to do a couple other things ( will be revealed in a matter of time! ) Mark's app't that was postponed last Thursday has been rescheduled for this Wednesday afternoon. Mom is crossing all fingers & toes on this one. I want this to work out so bad. I think it is a change that we need. Please help us out my sweet precious son. Thank you so much! That is all the updates that I have for you today. I will be sure to have more for you in the coming week.
 Here is your prayer for the day: May God give you absolute clarity and divine discernment so you can see things as they are, and not as they seem. May He keep you far from accusing tongues and protect you from being wrongly assessed. May you have the backbone and conviction to stand up for what is true, and to stand back when God wants to fight for you. May God give you laser-like focus to tend to your God-given assignment. May He grant you empowering grace to flourish where He has placed you. May your pure heart and firm faith keep you steady on the path ahead of you. These things are yours because you belong to Him.
  Your life is in your hands. No matter where you are right now, no matter what has happened  in your life, you can begin to consciously choose your thoughts & you can change your life. There is no such thing as a hopeless situation. Every single circumstance of your life can change. 
 Mom needs to get going now as it is that time of the night where I need to prep dinner & feed the pups. Later I will be relaxing outside for a bit enjoying the warm air. Mom is hoping to see the stars & maybe the moon tonight along with a beautiful painting from you. I will whisper to you later this evening as well. I will smile just for you & hope you will smile back to Mom. I will picture it in my mind. Mom hopes that your evening will be all that you need & want it to be. Have fun while I try to get some sleep tonight. Come visit me if you can. Mom misses you more than words can say & I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. I hope you will always know you are my hero & the wind beneath my wings. You will forever live inside my heart, mind, body & soul. Mom will be back tomorrow with another letter to you so until then....Good night & sweet dreams.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!

P.S. Today is July 10th. Today is the day 4 years ago that I started this blog writing my letters to you. Mom is still amazed to this day just how many folks from all countries/continents that read these letters faithfully on a daily basis. On a monthly basis Mom has over 900 who read these, to this date there have been almost 37,000 hits on here & Mom has posted 4, 585 letters & pictures to you...tonight will make 4, 589. Mom just wanted to take a minute to thank everyone who still continues to support me in these letters, who understand that grieving is & always will be ongoing for me. Blessings to each & every one of you from the bottom of my heart. It means so much to me.
 Tyler, I love you more than all the stars in the sky. Forever & Always xoxoxo.