Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you on this Monday afternoon? Mom is writing to you now ( it is 1 pm ) because as of right now we have internet. I am not sure what is going on but it has been acting up all weekend. I guess it was doing the same thing earlier this morning to Mark so I guess I will have to call the cable company to see what is happening. I wanted to make sure that I was able to write to you today as trying to write you a letter on my cell phone is just tough. Mom is sorry for the very short letter last night but I at least wanted to write to you & not go without one.
 Mom needs to apologize to you & to all that read that letter last night. Mom was not in a good mood at all & I don't even think the letter probably made any sense. If it did I should not have talked about it on here. Mom tries her hardest to be a positive person for the most part. I try to stay upbeat & not let things get to me but there are just days that I can't do that & last night was one of those times. Mom is really hurt & confused & I still don't know what to do but I am sure an answer will come to me. Sometimes it is tough when Mom needs to talk to someone & no one is there to answer the phone or to listen. At times I wish someone would pick up the phone & other times I am thankful that they didn't because I don't want to burden anyone with my problems. Life is super tough at times.... you know that of all people, Tyler. Mom so wishes that you were here. You would listen to me talk & you would try to help me out. You always had that knack of making me see a different side to things. I know you are with Mom in the only way you can now. It is just so difficult. I miss you terribly. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. You will always be Mom's everything. Nothing will ever change that my sweet precious son!
 Today the weather is beautiful outside. The sun is shining & the skies are blue. Mom just finished taking the pups out for a nice long walk. We all enjoyed it! Mom hopes that tonight there will be a beautiful sunset along with being able to see the stars & moon. I didn't see anything at all last night but honestly I was not looking because I was so upset. Please be with Mom tonight as I need you. You know everything that is going on as you see it all. Mom doesn't have to write the details out. Thank you, Tyler. Mom appreciates it more than you could know. I will whisper to you later tonight & I will be lighting a candle for you as well. Be sure to smile when you hear my voice & I will smile back for you!
 Mom doesn't have many updates for you today. I did chat with Grandpa last night for a few minutes & things are well. They are keeping busy with work & wedding planning. Meme called Mom this afternoon. She listened to me vent because she knew something was wrong. She also let me know that she was going to the doctors tonight to have x-rays done on her chest, lower back & hip. Guess she has a cough again & it came out of no where. They will just be checking to make sure everything is okay there. She needs the one on her hip though as she has had a hard time walking for the past 3 weeks. Hope she gets answers. She will be calling me later tonight to let me know. everyone else is doing well I guess. It has been pretty quiet. Mom will let you know as I know of things. Anyways.... I do have a couple prayers for you to make up for not doing them last night so here they are: 
 Our idea of what breakthrough looks like frequently falls short of what God has in mind for us. Amen.
 May God Himself wrap you up in HIs new mercies this day! Where you've known angst, may He give you awe-inspiring wonder. Where you've known heartbreak, may He bring healing, deliverance, and supernatural breakthrough. May He help you blow the dust off your dreams and lift them up as possibilities once again. With God all things are possible. May you learn to pray from that beautiful truth. Be encouraged today. He's got you!
 Here are a couple inspirational messages for you as well:
 " The real voyage of discovery consists not in seeking new landscapes, but in having new eyes. "
 " Nothing is predestined: The obstacles of your past can become the gateways that lead to new beginnings. " 
 Mom needs to get going now as it is after 2 pm. I need to get some studying done today whereas I took all last week off waiting for my books to arrive. Mom hopes that you have an evening of fun doing all the things you need to & want to do. Come be with me & visit me in my dreams if you can tonight. Thanks pumpkin! I will be back tomorrow night with another letter to you so until then.... Good night & sweet dreams. Remember you live inside my heart, mind, body & soul. You are my hero & the wind beneath my wings!
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!