Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Thursday afternoon? Mom has been very busy today & I am just exhausted if I am being honest! Last night was a very quiet night here for me. Meme called me to see how I was doing. Mark did call me but that conversation was cut very short as we got into an argument & he hung up on me. About an hour later I did try to call him back & text him but he would not pick up or respond so I just gave up. Mom watched TV for the evening & the went to bed. The pups were really good for me yesterday & so far today. They are usually pretty restless when Mark is away but not this time. They slept all night & Mom basically tossed & turned & got hardly any sleep because I was so upset that Mark wouldn't call me back. I did try a few more times during the night but he still wouldn't answer or message me back. It is 2:32 pm & I have not heard from him at all still. I have no idea when he is leaving NY, if it is today or if it will be tomorrow. Mom is just not going to do anything. If he is home tonight he is & if not then he will be tomorrow. That is all I can do. I am not allowing myself to get stressed out about it anymore. If he wants to talk to me then he knows the number to call. I am sorry that you have to witness seeing Mom the way she is. I want you to know that I am doing alright though. Tonight I will be doing the same thing...making dinner, watching TV & then going to bed early as I really need to get some solid sleep. Mom has not studied at all the last 2 days. I am just not in the right frame of mind & after totally failing the exam on Monday I do not think it is wise to try & do another one. I will restart everything on Monday again. Mom has an appointment for her nails tomorrow at noon so that day is pretty much shot. I was suppose to go on Wednesday but we all know how that turned out. That is pretty much it for what has been going on here with me this whole week. I did chat with my friend, Christina last night. She called & we chatted for a bit. Today Meme called & the Bob did. That was a nice surprise. That was really sweet. Mom will try to touch base with everyone tomorrow night or during the weekend. Hopefully I will have something to share with you on one of those days. 

 Mom has been straight out all day today... I got up, made breakfast, got ready, took the pups out for a walk, did the garbage, got the mail, got the packages from the leasing office, dusted, vacuumed, put clothes away. I am pooped! In about an hour or so Mom will be getting off the computer to go prep dinner for one again tonight. I decided to make a nice dinner for myself so prep time will be a bit longer. I really dislike that daylight time ends a second earlier every night now. Today the sun will set at 4:28 pm. That is less than 2 hours....ugh! I need to finish up all this stuff on the computer & then go relax with the pups. On that note... here are the prayers for the day:

 For Your Loved Ones: Precious Lord,

I lift up my loved ones to You tonight. Jesus, draw them near, by the power of Your Holy Spirit. Heal their deepest wounds. Make their crooked ways straight. And open their eyes where they are blind. Dear God, drive a wedge between every person and circumstance that the enemy is using to send a lying message to them. Line their path with people and circumstances that speak life-giving, soul-restoring truth until they're totally free! May a revival break out all over our nation! May the prodigals come home, may the weary be restored, and the broken be healed. We wait for You, God to do what only You can do. You hear us when we pray. Help every brokenhearted mom and dad to rest on the promise that You love our loved ones far more passionately than we do! And may we trust You so deeply in this process that we’re able to choose joy in the meantime. In Jesus’ Name, I pray. Amen.

 May the Holy Spirit detoxify your soul! May He show you what habits, thoughts, and actions need to go so the Lord can strengthen you for the road ahead. May you sense the holy-invitation before you. May you get a glimpse of His plan for you; just enough to inspire you to make the necessary changes, take the necessary steps, and grab a firm hold of His promises. May you be willing to do something different so you'll be ready and equipped for this next place of promise. He's got a new chapter ahead for you. May you care enough about your story to leave the lesser things behind. You're so precious and important to Him! Blessings on your day today. 

 Here is a couple sayings for the day as well:

" If you are depressed, you are living in the past. If you are anxious, you are living in the future. If you are at peace, you are living in the present. "

 " I'm starting over. A new pattern of thoughts. A new wave of emotions. A new connection to the world. A new belief system in myself. "

 Mom hopes that you will be with again this evening when I got to bed tonight. I need you my sweet precious son. I miss you with everything I have. I love you more though. To the moon & back & all the way around the world. You are my hero & the wind beneath my wings. You are forever inside my heart, mind, body & soul. Have fun tonight & continue to fly freely in the heavens as I sleep. Mom will whisper to you later this evening so be listening out for my voice. Smile & Mom will smile back to you. Mom will be back probably late afternoon to early evening depending on when I get back home. I will write you another letter though. Promise! Until tomorrow.... good night & sweet dreams. Tyler, you are my shining star!

Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!