Tuesday, December 5, 2017

Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this rainy Tuesday afternoon? Mom is doing well today. I just got in from being gone all day long. I left at 10:15 am & it is now 3 pm. I had a full day of dropping off presents that we bought people, going to the nail salon & then going shopping in 3 different stores. Even though I was alone for it all, Mom had a really good day. I enjoyed myself for once. The weather was & is not the greatest out there but now I am home safe & sound. The weather is going to get even worse as the afternoon & evening progresses for us here. The rain will be heavy & the winds will be up to 50 mph at times. Please keep us safe & sound, Tyler. Please watch over us all. Thank you. Tonight Mom is thinking we will be having an early dinner & then just watch TV for a bit & then head to bed. Mom is definitely hoping to get some sleep tonight as the last 2 nights I have not slept very well. Mark will be heading to his office tomorrow for a long day of work & Mom will be back to studying & trying to finish up this exam so that I can submit it & move on. This week is really flying by that is for sure. It will already be Wednesday tomorrow. 2 1/2 weeks until Christmas! Yikes! The stores were not really busy for Mom when I went & that was amazing. I am sure it will be a different story come this weekend though. 
 Mom spoke to Grandpa last night & he was informing me that he had to go to the hospital to have some blood work done. When he went to the ER a couple weeks back they did blood work & the doctors said that some of it was good & some of it was not good. They wanted to recheck it to make sure. If everything is good then he doesn't have to go back but if it comes back not good then he has to have a couple procedures done. That has Mom a little worried but I am crossing my fingers that everything goes well. Please be with him. Thank you. Everything else is going well for him & Debbie. They had to go buy a new washer & dryer yesterday as theirs crapped out on them. New ones will be delivered on Friday. Mom did not speak to anyone else at all yesterday or last night. I will touch base with everyone starting tomorrow since I will be home. I should have more to tell you then. 
 Here is a saying for the day for you: When things seem shattered & lost.....know nothing stays broken forever. Gather up your strength & pick up the pieces one by one. You must keep going..... ALWAYS! It's going to get better. Yes, you will make it through this!
 Mom is hoping that your evening will be everything you hope it will be doing all the things you need to & may want to do. Come visit me in my dreams tonight if you can. Last night I did have a dream about you but you were not in it. It was when you were younger. It confused me a little. Be with us tonight if you get the chance. Keep us safe. Thank you my sweet precious son. Mom will whisper to you later this evening when I am lighting the candles & when I go to bed. Smile when you hear my voice & I will be sure to smile to you when I am talking to you. Always remember that you are my hero & the wind beneath my wings. You are my shining star. I miss you like crazy. Forever you are in my heart, mind, body & soul. I will be back tomorrow to write you another letter. For now Mom needs to get going to get the night routine started. Before I end your letter, here are the prayers for the day:
  May you be honest with God about the hurts in your heart. May you discern the difference between grief and self-pity. May you be okay with not always being okay. God will one day wipe away every tear from your eyes, but until then, He wants to help you walk this journey with peace in your heart and assurance in your soul. He is with you. He will heal you. And He will one day turn your mourning into dancing and your sorrow into songs of joy. In the meantime, enjoy the little graces you find along the way. Celebrate the small victories. Dare to dream. And take one step at a time. You’re going to be okay. Blessings on your day today.
 By God's grace, may you eliminate hurry and worry from your life. May you instead slow your pace and turn your face to the One who loves, saves, redeems, and restores everything about you. Instead of grabbing for yourself, may you pause and wait and see how God provides and cares for you. May you enter into a new season where you know God's rest, His pace, and His provision like you've never know before. He's for you and with you in ways you can't even imagine!
“No eye has seen, no ear has heard, and no mind has imagined what God has prepared for those who love him” (1 Corinthians 2:9 NIV)
 Good night & sweet dreams, Tyler. Mom loves you unconditionally
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 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
 A

 
 

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