Dear Tyler,

Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this Wednesday afternoon? The weather is much better than last night but it is still windy & chilly. Mom was up early this morning getting things all set for Mark to go to the office & then I went back to bed for a little bit. I didn't fall back to sleep I just looked at email & played a couple games. Mom got up & then made breakfast, did the dishes, got ready & just took the pups on their walk. Now they are relaxed & fast asleep so Mom had the time to write to you. It is 1:15 pm already. It is sh*tty that in 3 hours it will be dark out. These days where there is little daylight is really getting to Mom. It makes it hard for me to feel my best. I didn't get all kinds of sleep last night but I did get more than the last couple of nights so I will take it. The weather got pretty bad here around 7 pm & by 9 pm the wind was whipping & the rain was heavy. Mom kept thinking it was airplanes going by but it wasn't... that was the wind. We decided to call it a night at 10 pm to try & get some sleep. Mark & the pups per usual fell right to sleep while Mom had a hard time with the wind. I did call Grandpa last night real quick to see how everything went for him. Bloodwork was done & he should know the results by the end of the week or the beginning of next week. Mom spoke to meme today. She called me during her break. She was telling me that Bob is going to go through some kind of procedure where they shock his brain & look at the brain waves to see where the tremors may be coming from. Meme is unsure of it but if Bob wants to do this & there is little risks to it then Mom says go for it. He deserves to get answers as he is having a very hard time right now. Mom doesn't know when the procedure will be done but I will be sure to update as I know. I know you will be with them both when it does take place & Mom knows that you will be with Grandpa as well. Thank you for watching over every single one of us my sweet precious son. It means the world to Mom to know that you are doing this for me. Everyone misses you so much & talks about you all the time. This makes Mom very happy. You still are very much a part of our lives every day. You always will. Mom misses you the most though. No words can express it as I have tried so many times before. I know I don't have to though as you feel it in your soul. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. You are my wind beneath my wings & my hero. You are forever in my heart, mind, body & soul. Never forget this, Tyler.
 That is all the updates that I have for you since last night was so quiet with the phones & here. Mark & Mom ate dinner & watched TV for a couple hours. Looks like a late night for Mark tonight so it will be a quiet night again. Mom doesn't mind though as I am pretty tired. I should study a bit today as I didn't yesterday but I am going to just relax after this & probably write out Christmas cards & watch a movie. If I wanted to I could nap but I am not going to as I know I won't sleep tonight. Mom is hoping that your evening will be filled with everything you would like it to be & may need it to be. Be with Mom tonight if you can so that I can get some much needed rest. Thank you. I lit a couple candles already today & whispered to you, did you hear Mom? I will light another one later this evening & whisper to you again. I will smile & hope you will too. Here is a saying for the day:
 Never Forget: How far you've come. Everything you have gotten through. All the times you have pushed on even when you felt like you couldn't. all the mornings you got out of bed no matter how hard it was. All the times you wanted to give up but you got through another day. Never forget how much strength you have learned & developed. 
 Here are the prayers for the day:
  May Jesus miraculously deliver you from the fear and anxiety that threatens to overwhelm you. May He set you in a spacious place so you feel less pressed by the enemy of your soul. May He shore you up and strengthen you so you can clearly see things as they are, and not as they seem. May JOY fill your heart—right in the midst of your circumstances—and may PEACE flood your soul. Jesus will never change His mind about you. He loves you. He’s tender with your weaknesses and fierce in your defense. You can rest in His presence. You can trust Him. So trust Him. Have a blessed and peace-filled day.
  If you’re in a season of hardship and life feels like an uphill climb, may you stay the course until Jesus tells you otherwise. May you determine NOT to make any rash decisions that you’ll later regret. May you instead, fix your eyes on Jesus and take your cues from Him. May you trust Jesus to carry your burden so you can hold fast to His promises. May you exhale frustration and inhale God’s peace and provision. This season will pass. And you’ll come through it with strength, clarity, and conviction. Don’t take the enemy’s bait. Follow the Savior’s lead. You’ll be glad you did. Blessings on your night tonight!
 Mom needs to get going for now & actually get things done while there is still daylight. Maybe I will do a little studying. Not sure...lol. If not it will be a full day tomorrow of studying & Friday as well! Anyways.... Mom will be back tomorrow with another one of my letters to you. Until then... Good night & sweet dreams my shining star. I love you to infinity & beyond.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!