Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Sunday afternoon? Mom is not feeling the best at all today. It started last night when I went to bed. Lights were turned off at 10:30 pm & Mom was up at 1 am, 2 am, 3 am, 4 am & finally got to sleep at 4:30 am or after. I was up at 8 am again. This morning was not fun either as I have been pretty sick as well. Guess what I had for dinner last night wasn't the best choice at all. I have been drinking juice & water today & I had brunch so we will see how that goes. Mom knows it is going to be an early night tonight regardless of the Superbowl game. I need to get some sleep. Mom has a couple of errands that I need to run tomorrow so I really need to just get to feeling better & get rest. If you can tonight, could you please be with Mom? Thank you so much Tyler. Mom needs you near me, always. 
 Well, as I said above, today is Superbowl Sunday. The kick off is at 6:20 pm. Patriots against the Eagles. I know you are rooting for the Patriots & Mark is rooting for the Eagles. Mom will root for the Patriots as we have a bet going on the game.... a fun bet! Secretly though I have mixed feelings about it. I want the Patriots to win in hopes that Brady will retire after getting 6 Superbowl rings but I want the Eagles to win to rub it in the Patriots faces. I know... that is not nice at all considering where Mom lives, huh? It really isn't that I dislike the Patriots.... I just don't like the attitude of the QB. He just seems to come off that he is better than everyone. Mom doesn't like that attitude on anyone regardless of who you are... athletes, celebrities, etc....I do wish all players well though & I believe that it is going to be a very good game. The Eagles played hard the last game & looked great. If they look like that tonight then they really have a chance to pull off a win. Guess we shall see later this evening! Mom will let you know on tomorrows letter. I wanted to get on the computer to write to you now so that in a few minutes I can go lay on the couch & just relax. Mom did some house work earlier this morning while Mark was gone to run a errand. I got the dusting, vacuuming & laundry done. when Mark got home he surprised Mom with these beautiful long-stemmed white & pink roses. It was such a sweet surprise. He also got Mom a gold metal sign that said Fearless. It is perfect. Mark & Mom have our days but he is very good to me for the most part. We love each other very much & that is what matters. 
 Mom doesn't have a lot of updates for you as last night was extremely quiet. The phone didn't ring at all. I did speak to Aunt Beck this morning. She called because she needed some help with her computer stuff. Mark helped her & then we chatted for a bit. All is well there & with everyone else. I will touch base with them this week & will be seeing everyone in 4 days! 
 Mom totally spaced it as I had said that starting in February I was going to start giving the meaning of colors & writing them out on here. I did a lot of research on this & found it very interesting. All colors have all kinds of meanings so what Mom will do is start with the obvious color today & then work through the rainbow of colors & branch from there. when I am finished I will go back through the colors & give other meanings as well until I have written them all down on my letters to you. So here is the first one. Today's color is RED: Red stimulates the entire system, instantly boosting energy levels & kick starting a sluggish immune system function. Rd is linked to reproduction & fertility & relieves menstrual problems, sexual dysfunction, especially impotency. 
 Here is the saying of the day:
 " You must tell yourself " No matter how hard it gets, I,m going to make it! " 
 Here is the prayer for the day:
 Cleansing Prayer: I cleanse myself of all selfishness, resentment, critical feelings for my fellow beings, self-condemnation & misinterpretation of my life experiences. I bathe myself in generosity, appreciation, praise & gratitude for my fellow beings, self-acceptance & enlightened understanding of my life experiences. Amen.
 Before Mom closes your letter for today, I wanted to take a minute to say that it is World Cancer Day. I will light a candle tonight for not only you, Tyler & all our loved ones that are with you on the other side but also for all cancer survivors, fighters & those who have lost their own personal battle with this nasty disease. This October 15th... Mom will be a 22 year Survivor. I thank God every day for my life. I take nothing for granted. Never have & never will. Life is a gift. Life is precious. everyone who has ever heard the words " You have cancer " is a Hero in my eyes. You are also Mom's Hero & the wind beneath my wings. I will whisper to you later tonight so be listening for my voice. Smile & I will smile as well. I miss you more than words can say. I love you with every beat of my heart. To the moon & back & all the way around the world. You forever will live inside my heart, mind, body & soul. Mom hopes tonight is everything you need & would like it to be. Have fun while I sleep though. Come visit me in my dreams if you can. I will be back tomorrow with another letter to you. For now, Mom is going to relax for a couple hours before I have to get dinner going. The game starts in 3 hours.... let that fun begin! Good night & sweet dreams my sweet precious son, my bright shining star.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!