Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Friday late afternoon? Mom is running late as usual but that is okay. Today is June 1st so it is the start of the dedication month for you! Mom is excited to find all kinds of pictures for you. Hopefully all of them will tell some kind of story & it will show everyone who follows my blog just who you were in a small way. You were everything! You were handsome, funny, smart, caring, loving & so so much more to all your family & friends. Mom sure was lucky to have you for a son. Thank you from the bottom of my heart for choosing me to play such an important role in your life. It is still such an honor. 
 The weather today has been hot & humid but it is really nice none the less. Mom has enjoyed it. I was able to take the pups out for a nice walk this afternoon. It was muggy but there were no complaints at all from me. After that I got right to studying. I was able to go over my 2 exams & I have no more to try & figure out. I have done the best I can & I just hope that is enough to get me a passing grade. Mom will start her new class on Monday. Not sure what it is yet. Wish me luck, Ty! Thanks my sweet precious son! I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. 
 Mom had a few conversations today as well. Auntie Kristina called & we chatted for a few. Things are good there on her end. We got interrupted by another call on her end so she was going to call me back later. She hasn't yet but she will when she can. Auntie Donna call Mom as well too. That was such a sweet surprise. we chatted for over an hour. She is so sick again. I hope she feels better & soon. She was telling me that Uncle Kenny is having surgery this coming week on his eyes. He is legally blind right now. I sure hope that the surgery does the trick & helps him out. Bob is good. He was working. The other conversation was over the computer this morning. It was with Megan. She was saying that Alice was not feeling well. I told her that I hoped she felt better soon. She was asking if I was coming up this month & I told her yes I was for the day to see you as it will be your 5 year Angelversary. She was asking if she could join Mom as well & bring her children so that I could meet them. I was surprised but it was a nice one. It made Mom teary-eyed for sure. Mom asked about the family & hoped they all were well. She was saying that Ramon was divorced again & had a new girlfriend. She said he was happy for the moment. I wished him well. Told her I would see her soon & I would be in touch. She messaged me back with something that I was not apparently ready for.... she said that Ramon's new girlfriend was your nurse the night before you passed. I asked her name & she told me. I looked her up but she didn't look familiar to me. I have a sick feeling in my stomach for sure. Way to much going through my head. Megan said she told her that you two had a very long & deep conversation. She has answers to questions that I have had for many years now. Mom is going to get in touch with her. I don't want to make anyone angry because she is with Ramon now but it has nothing to do with him & everything to do with you. There has to be a reason that Megan just told me. Is it ironic that it is June 1st.... 19 days before you passed or something else? I guess I will find out. That conversation has been on my mind all day long today. So many emotions that I can't put into words at all. I know you can feel it though. I am sorry. Mom will do her best to remain calm about it. The rest of the day was filled with Mark working & Mom do her work. Tonight will be all about relaxing & getting some sleep. Mom didn't go to bed until after midnight & was up at 7 am. I am tired but I am doing well. Saturday we are headed to the movies because we missed it last week & Sunday we are going to go walk along the water for a bit. All in all it will be a good, low-key, relaxing weekend! I think it is just what we need! Mom hopes that your evening is filled with everything that you need it to be & want it to be. Come visit Mom in my dreams if you can. I would love that. Thanks pumpkin! Have fun tonight while I get some sleep. Mom will be back tomorrow in the afternoon or evening to write you your letter. I will whisper to you later tonight & I will light that candle for you & all the folks in the Carolina's that are dealing with the flooding. May they all be safe. Mom is praying for them. I miss you so much. You are my hero & the wind beneath my wings. Forever you are in my heart, mind, body & soul. Smile when you hear my voice later tonight & I will smile back. Mom needs to get going so that I can feed the pups & get dinner going seeings how it is already after 5 pm. Until tomorrow..... good night & sweet dreams my bright shining star.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!

Here is the prayer:

For the bread of God is he who comes down from heaven and gives life to the world. John 6:33, NIV

Dear Father in heaven, in your Word we trust, in your Word of eternal life, given us in Jesus Christ our Savior. We build on this Word of life in these days when it seems that everything is losing strength and value, and yet there is so much longing in people’s hearts. You will not let our hope be disappointed. What you have spoken must be fulfilled. What is promised in Jesus Christ must come into being, not only for a few but for the whole world, for which he died and was raised from the dead. Be with us. Keep us so fully alive that our lives reflect all the goodness we are allowed to experience and we overcome all the evil which tries to attack us. We thank you for calling us to life and for renewing us again and again. May your name be praised among us forever. Amen.