Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this rainy Tuesday afternoon? I bet wherever you are it is nice and sunny as you don't get any other kinds of weather. You must be in your glory for that. You love the sun so much. You love feeling the warmness on your face. You always did. You would always put your chair back and faced the sun. You would close your eyes and you always looked so peaceful. Mom always loved watching you while you were like that. So many times I would just sit there and watch you. I never got tired of that my sweet precious son.
Mom had another pretty much non existence sleep last night again. I maybe got 4 hours of sleep here and there. The pups kept me awake and Mark was snoring. The alarm went off at 5:30 am because Mark had a cutover to do this morning. I did wake up at 6 am and I closed the door so I didn't hear Mark talking and I actually fell back to sleep until 8 am. Mom got up, pups got fed and then I lounged in bed for a bit to just wake up slowly. After a couple hours of doing that, Mom got up again, made Mark breakfast, fresh coffee and then made something for myself to eat. I did those dishes and then decided that I was going to do some cleaning out/purging of things. It was a great day to do it as the weather has been cloudy, dark and rainy all day. The temps were cool so it was the right time. I worked only in my closet in the bedroom. I was able to get rid of 3~ 33 gallon garbage bags full of clothes, shoes, boots, etc... that I will no longer be needing. Lots of winter stuff that I will no longer need either. It was exciting to go through it all and know that I don't have to go through another winter with snow. Mom will be donating all that stuff to people who are less fortunate. It always makes me feel good when I can do that. when the moving date gets closer, Mark and Mom will be donating more things and then trying to sell the bigger furniture to get some money to help us with hotel stays and gas. We will be selling the dining room table, the matching hutch, 2 TVs, Mark's computer desk, Mom's computer desk, our whole bed (mattress, box spring, etc), our entertainment center with the gas fire place in it and a few other bigger things. The small things we don't want we will just give it to someone. We plan on taking just the small stuff. Knick knacks, pictures, clothes, shoes and the things in both our offices. Not much is coming with us but we are very okay with that. Grandpa and Debbie are basically doing the same thing. A few big pieces and maybe 15 boxes of things besides their clothes and shoes. Meme on the other hand is bringing so much stuff. Mom keeps talking to her about it but she is not listening at all. I have given up for now though. I will try again in another month. I know she has done so much up to this point and I am proud of her. She has thrown away a lot and so has Bob. It will be interesting to see how this all plays out. Once we get to our new home.... Mark and Mom will be donating a lot as well. The place we are purchasing is furnished but we do not need everything so we will be donating all the kitchen things, all bath towels/pool towels, a couch and love seat, home decor pieces, 8 twin beds with the head board, mattress, box spring, sheets and pillows, 1 queen bed with the head board, mattress, box spring, sheets and pillows and also 1 king size bed with the same...head board, mattress, box spring, sheets, and pillows. We will also be donating a baby crib, stroller, high chair, pack in play, and a air hockey table. That is a lot but there are a lot of people that the realtor knows that have next to nothing so they will be so grateful for all these things. It will be our pleasure to do it. We will not need any of it and we are not looking to make any money from it either. They come and haul it away so that makes it easier for us as well. Mom will let you know when that happens and how many people from both places we can help. It warms my heart to be able to do all of this. You know Mom....I have always been a giver and not a receiver. Mark is the same way. We learned well from all our parents. You were the same way, which you got that from Mom and our side of the family.
Mom has kept very busy today because today and the next several days will be very hard on me. Today is June 18th and 6 years ago was the last time you and Mom spoke to one another. I remember it so vividly. I remember where I was exactly and what I was doing. I remember the whole conversation we had. Mom never knew that would be the last time but I think you did because of what you said to both Mark and I. I never put two and two together though. I just thought what you said was so sweet and from the heart. If Mom had only known.... I would have talked to you all night and never hung up the phone. I miss you so much. Every day since then hurts me beyond words. Time heals nothing. I know it never will. Mom does her best though. Some days are better than others. I love you with all my heart, Tyler. To the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live inside my heart, mind, body and soul. Mom will light the candle for you tonight in a little bit after I get dinner started. I will whisper to you like I always do later. Please smile for me and I will smile to you. Have fun while Mom gets some sleep too. Come visit me in my dreams if you can. Thanks. Continue to fly high and free. Watch over us all...thank you. Mom will be back tomorrow with another letter. Until then.... good night and sweet dreams later.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Here is the daily prayer:
So do not be ashamed of the testimony about our Lord or of me his prisoner. Rather, join with me in suffering for the gospel, by the power of God. He has saved us and called us to a holy life – not because of anything we have done but because of his own purpose and grace. This grace was given us in Christ Jesus before the beginning of time. 2 Timothy 1:8–9, NIV
Lord our God, radiant, light giving, and almighty God through all the ages, be with us in our time too. Strengthen the grace we have received from Jesus Christ, and let it be known over all the world so that your name may be honored everywhere. Bless us, we pray, and let your blessing spread from us to others, to the glory of your name. Grant that the good may be strengthened in us, the good you have let us hear about for so many years. May everything that belongs to your Word come alive in us and in the world. May your blessing be on our actions, for we want to remain under your blessing, to the glory of your righteousness and truth. Amen.
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