Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Thursday evening? Mom is sorry that I did not write you a letter yesterday but these last 2 days have been pretty tough here. It just seems like I can't ever do anything that I want to do because all kinds of phone calls and emails regarding this potential relocation keep coming in and Mom is the one talking to everyone because Mark is not here and even if he was he wouldn't answer the calls. It is frustrating to me because he is not taking very much seriously right now. He is blowing a lot of necessary things off  saying that he will do it and never does. There is a time frame that we have and he doesn't seem to care about that either. I am just at the end of my rope in all this and I am getting to the point that I will make him talk to everyone and explain his actions instead of me. His whole attitude has changed since he started back to work and going to customer sites this week. I am sure that he is exhausted but if he has time to play stupid video games with his brothers and talk on the phone with them for all hours then he has the time to be doing stuff that needs to get done and he isn't. I am sorry that I am rambling on and venting on here...this is not what my letters to you should be but these last 2 days have been hell and Mom has been stressed out beyond stressed. Yesterday I didn't even turn my computer on at all and I didn't today as well. The only reason why I turned it on right now was to write to you briefly and then I will be shutting it off. I guess Mom is just in no mood to deal with anything. I am not sleeping all that great and Princess is being naughty because Mark has been gone all week long. Mom is needing a full solid nights rest and maybe in the morning I will feel better than what I have for the past couple days. 
 This afternoon we did not get the best of news either...just adds to the stress level even more. Meme called Mom a bit ago and she didn't have a great day either. I guess Mom is going to ask you to please be with Meme and Bob and Mom and Mark too. I guess Bob is not feeling well either. He called Meme to tell him that he was dizzy and not feeling well. Thank you my sweet precious son. It means so much to me.
 Mom has no updates for you at all because I have not really spoken to many people at all this week. Grandpa called last night but with Mom being so stress, my nerves have gotten the best of me and I was not feeling well enough to call Grandpa back. He may call again tonight but I am not sure. I really am in no mood to chat with anyone right now. I might call him back tomorrow when I am in a better mood. I should have some updates for you over the weekend hopefully. 
 Maybe Mom is feeling more on edge today because of the date. It is June 27th. 6 years ago I buried you. It is beyond the worst feeling in the world for a mother to have to do. No words can express the pain I felt that day and every day after. I miss you so damn much. It hurts like hell not to have you here with Mom. I love you with all my heart and soul. To the moon and back and all the way around the world. You will forever be my hero and the wind beneath my wings. You live inside my heart, mind, body and soul. 
 Mom will whisper to you later this evening and I will smile to you. Smile back to me please. I will be back tomorrow afternoon with another letter to you as well. Maybe I can get some studying in as there will be no phones calls going on for a few days after the news we got earlier. Maybe I will be able to get my lessons finished up and the final exam will be next week. Fingers crossed for the best. 
 Mom is going to go right now because I am just in a bad mood and I need to just not do anything at all. I need to be a lone and with my own thoughts. I hope you have fun tonight while Mom gets some sleep. Come visit me in my dreams if you can. Thank you my sweet precious son. Until tomorrow comes.....
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!

Here is the prayer for the day:

 TODAY, JUNE 27, 2019

But just as he who called you is holy, so be holy in all you do; for it is written: “Be holy, because I am holy.” 1 Peter 1:15–16, NIV

Lord God, help us to be holy as you are holy, and free us from all the earthly things that try to torment us. Grant us your Spirit so that we do what is right. May we always hold your hand confidently. Protect your children everywhere on earth, and help them do what is right even if the whole world does what is wrong. Help us, so that all we do becomes holy and pleasing in your sight. Let your grace grow among us and among the nations, and let your hand be strong to bring in your day, your day when everything is made new. May your name be kept holy, your kingdom come, and your will be done on earth as in heaven. Amen.