Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Friday afternoon? It is June 21st.... just 1 day after you passed 6 years ago. It is also the 1st day of summer and the day (6 years ago) that your star was put into space along with Mark's. Mom is doing alright today. Yesterday not so much at all. My head was in a fog all day long and I couldn't get out of my way to say the least. I talked to Grandpa but honestly I was only half listening to the conversation. I wasn't being rude at all, it was my head was not with it. Mark ordered dinner so that I didn't have to cook. That was nice. Mom was silent most of the night watching TV and then I went to bed around 10 pm. I slept okay. Only up a couple times during the night and then right back to sleep. Mom was up this morning at 7 am though. Mark fed the pups for the 1st time in 5 weeks. That was new. He needs to start moving around more this weekend as Monday he is back on the road working at a customers site for the next 8 days straight. Again, I worry... you know Mom, but I have to hope that he will be honest with himself and not push it. If it is too much for him I hope he speaks up so that he does not hurt himself even more. He is not healed completely so reinjurying this would not be hard at all. Mom will be saying lots of prayers that is for sure!
Today may be the 1st day of summer but it is a crappy day here. It is dark, gloomy and raining heavy. It has been now for the entire afternoon. This is day 3 of rain and no sun. I guess the weekend will be great. Sunny and warm but the beginning of next week will be rain again. This is all getting depressing again. Mom will be happy to go to a state where there is no snow, no high winds, less rain and more sun. We have the countdown on that is for sure! Next week will be a busy one and Mom will be saying more prayers than I usually do. At the beginning of the week there will be an inspection and appraisal for the home. Mark will also be talking to his boss and company about everything. Mom is hopeful that everything will go well. I don't have any "bad" feelings at all which is a plus! I know you will be with all of us every step of the way so I am definitely not worried at all. Everything is stating to become very real in the last week. Mom has been talking to different companies to get quotes on things. My studies yet again have taken a back seat. This is week 5 for that. Mom is hoping that next week when Mark is at his customer site and now that the roofers are completely done on our building things will be somewhat quiet and I can get this last lesson done and work on the final exam next week. That would be super. I know that things will be quiet as far as the house so that will work to my advantage. Mom will take her time with everything but I think I will do just fine on what I have left for school. I can't believe that in 9 days it will be July already. Even more so, it is hard to believe that you would have turned 28 this year on the 29th of July but instead you will forever be 22 years old. I miss you Tyler. Mom misses you so much. No words can every express the emptiness that I feel without you here with me. No time will heal that as well, no matter how positive Mom is. That is reality. That is grief. I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You were and always will be my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live inside my heart, mind, body and soul.
Mom will be lighting your candle tonight after I finish my letter to you. I am trying to multi task right now. Prep dinner, write to you, message a friend of mine and get dinner for the pups. Mom is late on that as it is after 5 pm. They are sleeping right now so I am not going to try and bother them. I might have another 5-10 minutes tops before Ozzy realizes that Mom is late on feeding them...lol. I will whisper to you later tonight so smile when you hear Mom and I will smile back to you. I will write to you again tomorrow afternoon when I get home from running around doing errands. I hope that your night is filled with all fun things while Mom is sleeping. Come visit me in my dreams if you can. Mom should have some new updates about the family over the weekend as well. I know we have a skype call with Tubal and Karen Sunday evening and Mom will be chatting with Meme and Grandpa as well.
Mom needs to go as it was not even 5 minutes for Ozzy. The life of a 4 year old pup. Until tomorrow comes....good night and sweet dreams later my sweet precious son. I love you, Tyler Andrew Howard with all my heart and soul.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Here is the daily prayer:
Father! You have given them to me, and I want them to be with me where I am, so that they may see my glory, the glory you gave me; for you loved me before the world was made. John 17:24, TEV
Lord our God, we thank you that you have revealed your glory in your Son Jesus Christ. We thank you that today we can still see and feel the glorious grace which streams out from Jesus Christ in his victory over the world, the powerful help which benefits all those who find faith. Grant that a further glory may be revealed, faith dwelling in the hearts of all people, faith that can conquer all the need and suffering on earth, faith that is the power to look to you, to become inwardly quiet in you, and to hope in you at all times. Then your help will come quickly, more quickly than we can imagine. It will come on us unawares, for the Savior has said, “See, I shall come quickly.” We want to hope and believe and trust till the end. Amen.
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