Thursday, February 27, 2014
Dear Tyler,
Hi sweetheart. How are you doing on this beautiful Thursday afternoon? I hope that all is well with you in Heaven. Mom is doing ok today. Bonnie left at 1:15 pm today to head back to Tulsa, OK to her family. It was a sad moment but I was good and I didn't cry. I told Bonnie that I wouldn't and I didn't. I knew that the 10 days would go by fast but I didn't know that they would go by as fast as they actually did. We had a good time. Lots of laughter and talks daily. She relaxed and said that she had a good time. Bonnie said that she needed time for herself and maybe to find herself. She told me today that she accomplished both while visiting. I was happy for her. I hope that she will continue and do all that she wants to do. I will be seeing her again in June for a bit so I can't wait!
The weather today is so nice 50 degrees and blue skies and sunny out. Perfect weather for winter time! I am hoping that seeings how it is clear skies that this evening will be clear too so that I will be able to see the stars shining brightly. I haven't seen the stars out for a couple weeks now and it makes me sad. I want to see you up in Heaven. Make sure to listen for Mom to whisper to you tonight no matter what happens. I always do and I always will. It is a way that I can be close to you. It means a lot to Mom.
I wanted to tell you that Nancy came out of surgery just fine. She is able to talk still so that is a really good sign! Her results will be in in about a week. Thank you so much for helping out and being with her during this time. You & Mom both know how it feels to be anxious before a procedure. Again thank you so much! You are so amazing and I am so proud that you are my son. You are my everything. Forever & always!
Not much else has been going on. Mark has been working hard since we returned. The pups are completely wiped out and are sleeping soundly and I have done housework and laundry today after Bonnie left. Now I am sitting and watching tv and writing to you. I m tired as well. Think it will be a very early night for Mom so I can get some sleep and get up early tomorrow morning. I am still in the process of looking for wedding venues for Mark & Mom and securing things plus looking for apartments for our move coming up.
I haven't spoken to anyone back home lately. Not sure how things are with everyone. I will be making some calls tomorrow to see how everyone is. Oh yeah... make sure you go visit Bob today as it is his Birthday. Go and say hello but don't scare Meme or Bob...lol :)
I hope that you have a wonderful evening. I hope it is all that you want it to be. May it be peaceful for you. Fly high and fly free my sweet precious son. I miss you so much. More than anyone knows. I love you so much. You will always be my everything. Love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Hi sweetheart. How are you doing on this beautiful Thursday afternoon? I hope that all is well with you in Heaven. Mom is doing ok today. Bonnie left at 1:15 pm today to head back to Tulsa, OK to her family. It was a sad moment but I was good and I didn't cry. I told Bonnie that I wouldn't and I didn't. I knew that the 10 days would go by fast but I didn't know that they would go by as fast as they actually did. We had a good time. Lots of laughter and talks daily. She relaxed and said that she had a good time. Bonnie said that she needed time for herself and maybe to find herself. She told me today that she accomplished both while visiting. I was happy for her. I hope that she will continue and do all that she wants to do. I will be seeing her again in June for a bit so I can't wait!
The weather today is so nice 50 degrees and blue skies and sunny out. Perfect weather for winter time! I am hoping that seeings how it is clear skies that this evening will be clear too so that I will be able to see the stars shining brightly. I haven't seen the stars out for a couple weeks now and it makes me sad. I want to see you up in Heaven. Make sure to listen for Mom to whisper to you tonight no matter what happens. I always do and I always will. It is a way that I can be close to you. It means a lot to Mom.
I wanted to tell you that Nancy came out of surgery just fine. She is able to talk still so that is a really good sign! Her results will be in in about a week. Thank you so much for helping out and being with her during this time. You & Mom both know how it feels to be anxious before a procedure. Again thank you so much! You are so amazing and I am so proud that you are my son. You are my everything. Forever & always!
Not much else has been going on. Mark has been working hard since we returned. The pups are completely wiped out and are sleeping soundly and I have done housework and laundry today after Bonnie left. Now I am sitting and watching tv and writing to you. I m tired as well. Think it will be a very early night for Mom so I can get some sleep and get up early tomorrow morning. I am still in the process of looking for wedding venues for Mark & Mom and securing things plus looking for apartments for our move coming up.
I haven't spoken to anyone back home lately. Not sure how things are with everyone. I will be making some calls tomorrow to see how everyone is. Oh yeah... make sure you go visit Bob today as it is his Birthday. Go and say hello but don't scare Meme or Bob...lol :)
I hope that you have a wonderful evening. I hope it is all that you want it to be. May it be peaceful for you. Fly high and fly free my sweet precious son. I miss you so much. More than anyone knows. I love you so much. You will always be my everything. Love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Wednesday, February 26, 2014
Dear Tyler,
Hi sweetheart! How are you doing on this cold and rainy overcast day? Mom is doing ok. Bonnie is still here visiting us until tomorrow. She is leaving on Thursday afternoon and it is going to be a sad occasion. I have enjoyed having company and someone to talk to all the time while Mark is at work. Having Bonnie here has been just like old times when she was living with us back in NH. I hope that she will come back for a visit really soon. I hope that other family and friends will come visit us soon too. I sure do miss everyone so much but I miss you the most. I can't believe that you have left Mom and this world 8 months and 6 days ago. I hate it. I hate not having you here with me and the rest of our family and friends. Some days I just want to scream to the sky and the world for taking you away so soon. It just is not fair but I am trying to be an adult and understand that you were here for a reason and purposes and you met them and now you were returned back to our Lord and his home that is now yours. I just wish I could talk to you, see your face, and see your smile. I just want you back. I want you home with me. I want to see you grow up into a older man and enjoy seeing you live a life that you want. I am so angry that all of this was taken away from you and from me. I am trying so hard not to have the feelings and thoughts that I do but I just can't help it. Some days are just easier than others for Mom. Guess this is just a rough day for me. I am sorry.
I was hoping that I would be able to see clear skies tonight so that I could see the stars shining bright and see you up there watching over me but that is not going to happen as it has been raining all day and it is really cold and crappy weather. I do know that even though it is like this.. you will be shining brightly. Please continue to watch over us all. Keep us safe and healthy.
Please tell everyone in Heaven that I love them and miss them too. Give them big hugs for me. Oh yeah.. Can you do me a favor and be with your cousin Nancy tomorrow as she is going through a very scary surgery. She is having part of her Thyroid removed. The mass that is on there is also near her vocal cords. She has a 50 - 50 chance of waking up not be able to ever talk again or she can wake up and be just fine. Can you be with her and make sure that all goes well and she wakes up talking and that it is not cancer. I am worried for her. Thank you Tyler.
Sweet dreams my precious son. I miss you so much and I love you beyond anything in this world. Listen for me to whisper to you tonight. Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Hi sweetheart! How are you doing on this cold and rainy overcast day? Mom is doing ok. Bonnie is still here visiting us until tomorrow. She is leaving on Thursday afternoon and it is going to be a sad occasion. I have enjoyed having company and someone to talk to all the time while Mark is at work. Having Bonnie here has been just like old times when she was living with us back in NH. I hope that she will come back for a visit really soon. I hope that other family and friends will come visit us soon too. I sure do miss everyone so much but I miss you the most. I can't believe that you have left Mom and this world 8 months and 6 days ago. I hate it. I hate not having you here with me and the rest of our family and friends. Some days I just want to scream to the sky and the world for taking you away so soon. It just is not fair but I am trying to be an adult and understand that you were here for a reason and purposes and you met them and now you were returned back to our Lord and his home that is now yours. I just wish I could talk to you, see your face, and see your smile. I just want you back. I want you home with me. I want to see you grow up into a older man and enjoy seeing you live a life that you want. I am so angry that all of this was taken away from you and from me. I am trying so hard not to have the feelings and thoughts that I do but I just can't help it. Some days are just easier than others for Mom. Guess this is just a rough day for me. I am sorry.
I was hoping that I would be able to see clear skies tonight so that I could see the stars shining bright and see you up there watching over me but that is not going to happen as it has been raining all day and it is really cold and crappy weather. I do know that even though it is like this.. you will be shining brightly. Please continue to watch over us all. Keep us safe and healthy.
Please tell everyone in Heaven that I love them and miss them too. Give them big hugs for me. Oh yeah.. Can you do me a favor and be with your cousin Nancy tomorrow as she is going through a very scary surgery. She is having part of her Thyroid removed. The mass that is on there is also near her vocal cords. She has a 50 - 50 chance of waking up not be able to ever talk again or she can wake up and be just fine. Can you be with her and make sure that all goes well and she wakes up talking and that it is not cancer. I am worried for her. Thank you Tyler.
Sweet dreams my precious son. I miss you so much and I love you beyond anything in this world. Listen for me to whisper to you tonight. Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Tuesday, February 25, 2014
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son! I am so happy to be having the chance to be writing to you again after 5 days. I tried to get on my blog and write while I was away but the dang thing wouldn't let me in and it made me so sad. How are you doing in Heaven? I hope that all is wonderful and you are just as happy as can be. I miss you so much. I missed writing to you with all that has been going on in the last several days. I want to tell you about my 4 day weekend to Las Vegas but first I want to say thank you for watching over us as we flew there and back home. I know I couldn't see you out I kept looking out the window of the airplane and I just knew you where there with Mom. It gave me so much comfort in knowing that you were right there along for the ride!
Ok... so about the weekend... Left Texas around 5 am and was on the airplane by 6:30 am and departed at 7:10 am. We arrived in Las Vegas at 10:30 am but because of the time change it was only 8:30 am. Boy was I ever so tired when we arrived because we had already been up for 8 hours. We got to the hotel that we were staying at and found out that check in wasn't until 1 pm. We decided to go to breakfast and arrived back at the hotel around 12 noon. We decided to just sit for the hour and relax and wait until we realized that the room would not be ready until 3 pm. We opted for a different room at that point because I was falling asleep. Got into our room and we napped for a few hours. Got up thought we would go out but we both were so tired that we ordered room service and stayed in. I was asleep by 7:30 pm that evening and slept until 8:00 am the next morning.
Friday we were up early and we went on the strip and did the tourist sight seeing stuff. The Paris Hotel is so beautiful and Mom was just so happy being there. I was so comfortable and it made me smile. We did a lot of walking that day. The weather was really sunny and in the 70's. No complaints from me. It was the just right weather for sure. We ventured back to the hotel around 5:30 pm and was going to relax for an hour and then head to dinner by 7:00 pm... that failed because Mark was so tired, had a headache and was feeling ill. Once again we stayed in and ordered room service. Mark was asleep by 7:00 pm and because I was not tired I stayed up and watched tv until 9:00 pm and then I wet to bed.
Saturday had finally arrived the day of the concert and I was super excited. We decided to go to Old Town Vegas to see what it was like. Wasn't what we expected but it was just a relaxing day for us. Arrived back to the hotel and decided to go grab something to eat.. perhaps an early dinner. Got back to the hotel a couple hours later to relax and get ready to go to the concert and Mom was sick. The worst possible thing to happen. We were supposed to leave by 4:00 pm to head to the show and look around that hotel but we never left until 5:30 pm and arrived 1/2 hour before the show. I was bound and determined that I was NOT going to be sick during the show. The concert was amazing! I will admit that I did have tears in my eyes when she was on stage. I just couldn't believe that I was there and seeing her. It was a dream come true for Mom. I have waited so long for this. Celine Dion was just incredible. Our seats were wonderful. 9 rows from the stage and I could see every detail of her. That is how close we were. I was tickled pink. A huge smile on my face for 2 hours! Made the whole trip worth wild to be there that exact moment. After the show we walked around for a couple hours and headed back to the hotel. Got in at 12 midnight and then went to bed.
Sunday we got up early and checked out of the hotel. Did some gambling and then headed to the airport. Stayed there until 4?:45 pm when we boarded our airplane and arrived back in Texas at 10:30 pm.
Las Vegas as just a fun experience for Mom. Something I feel that everyone should experience just once in there life time. I know that you would have loved it. The atmosphere was just something else. All walks of life there and it was great. The lights at night were really pretty and cool and the water fountain show at one of the hotels was so neat to see during the day and at night. I know you would have loved it. You would have gone nuts over the gambling and all the girls too..lol ;). That is a place I would have loved to have gone with you and enjoyed together. I think that in some ways you were with Mom. I talked to you all the time. I hope that you heard me.
I missed writing to you as I said earlier. I didn't see any stars at all the nights that I was gone but there was not one time that I did not whisper to you. No stars were out last night either here in Texas. I did again whisper to you. I will do it again tonight. Be listening for Mom. I love you with all my heart and soul. I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You still are my everything.
I hope you have a peaceful evening tonight and may it be all that you want it to be. Fly high and fly free my precious son. I love you and miss you. Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
PS. Thanks for watching over Aunt Beck & John as they traveled home and please watch over Meme. She needs some prayers and TLC. Thanks Tyler xoxoxo!
Hi my sweet son! I am so happy to be having the chance to be writing to you again after 5 days. I tried to get on my blog and write while I was away but the dang thing wouldn't let me in and it made me so sad. How are you doing in Heaven? I hope that all is wonderful and you are just as happy as can be. I miss you so much. I missed writing to you with all that has been going on in the last several days. I want to tell you about my 4 day weekend to Las Vegas but first I want to say thank you for watching over us as we flew there and back home. I know I couldn't see you out I kept looking out the window of the airplane and I just knew you where there with Mom. It gave me so much comfort in knowing that you were right there along for the ride!
Ok... so about the weekend... Left Texas around 5 am and was on the airplane by 6:30 am and departed at 7:10 am. We arrived in Las Vegas at 10:30 am but because of the time change it was only 8:30 am. Boy was I ever so tired when we arrived because we had already been up for 8 hours. We got to the hotel that we were staying at and found out that check in wasn't until 1 pm. We decided to go to breakfast and arrived back at the hotel around 12 noon. We decided to just sit for the hour and relax and wait until we realized that the room would not be ready until 3 pm. We opted for a different room at that point because I was falling asleep. Got into our room and we napped for a few hours. Got up thought we would go out but we both were so tired that we ordered room service and stayed in. I was asleep by 7:30 pm that evening and slept until 8:00 am the next morning.
Friday we were up early and we went on the strip and did the tourist sight seeing stuff. The Paris Hotel is so beautiful and Mom was just so happy being there. I was so comfortable and it made me smile. We did a lot of walking that day. The weather was really sunny and in the 70's. No complaints from me. It was the just right weather for sure. We ventured back to the hotel around 5:30 pm and was going to relax for an hour and then head to dinner by 7:00 pm... that failed because Mark was so tired, had a headache and was feeling ill. Once again we stayed in and ordered room service. Mark was asleep by 7:00 pm and because I was not tired I stayed up and watched tv until 9:00 pm and then I wet to bed.
Saturday had finally arrived the day of the concert and I was super excited. We decided to go to Old Town Vegas to see what it was like. Wasn't what we expected but it was just a relaxing day for us. Arrived back to the hotel and decided to go grab something to eat.. perhaps an early dinner. Got back to the hotel a couple hours later to relax and get ready to go to the concert and Mom was sick. The worst possible thing to happen. We were supposed to leave by 4:00 pm to head to the show and look around that hotel but we never left until 5:30 pm and arrived 1/2 hour before the show. I was bound and determined that I was NOT going to be sick during the show. The concert was amazing! I will admit that I did have tears in my eyes when she was on stage. I just couldn't believe that I was there and seeing her. It was a dream come true for Mom. I have waited so long for this. Celine Dion was just incredible. Our seats were wonderful. 9 rows from the stage and I could see every detail of her. That is how close we were. I was tickled pink. A huge smile on my face for 2 hours! Made the whole trip worth wild to be there that exact moment. After the show we walked around for a couple hours and headed back to the hotel. Got in at 12 midnight and then went to bed.
Sunday we got up early and checked out of the hotel. Did some gambling and then headed to the airport. Stayed there until 4?:45 pm when we boarded our airplane and arrived back in Texas at 10:30 pm.
Las Vegas as just a fun experience for Mom. Something I feel that everyone should experience just once in there life time. I know that you would have loved it. The atmosphere was just something else. All walks of life there and it was great. The lights at night were really pretty and cool and the water fountain show at one of the hotels was so neat to see during the day and at night. I know you would have loved it. You would have gone nuts over the gambling and all the girls too..lol ;). That is a place I would have loved to have gone with you and enjoyed together. I think that in some ways you were with Mom. I talked to you all the time. I hope that you heard me.
I missed writing to you as I said earlier. I didn't see any stars at all the nights that I was gone but there was not one time that I did not whisper to you. No stars were out last night either here in Texas. I did again whisper to you. I will do it again tonight. Be listening for Mom. I love you with all my heart and soul. I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You still are my everything.
I hope you have a peaceful evening tonight and may it be all that you want it to be. Fly high and fly free my precious son. I love you and miss you. Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
PS. Thanks for watching over Aunt Beck & John as they traveled home and please watch over Meme. She needs some prayers and TLC. Thanks Tyler xoxoxo!
Wednesday, February 19, 2014
Dear Tyler,
Hi sweetie! How are you doing today on this Wednesday afternoon? I hope you are happy and well up in Heaven! Mom is doing fine today. A little tired because I didn't sleep last night but I will sleep extra good tonight! You would be so proud of me. I actually drove around today with Bonnie. That is the first time I have done that since we moved here. Bonnie said that she was so impressed with me and Mark said the same thing! I guess I was impressed with myself. That took a lot for me to do and I think it went very well!!! I took Bonnie to go get her hair cut, and to do some shopping for her granddaughter and great grandson's birthday. We had a great time and it was really nice getting out during the week instead of just the weekend.
Mom and Mark leave for Vegas really early in the morning. Our driver is coming at 5 am so I need to be up at 4 am to get ready. I am nervous but excited to go and see Sin City. I ask you to please be with us as we are traveling to and from. Make sure that we are safe and sound. Thank you sweetie! Aunt Becky is flying home on Friday so please be with her as well.
I will be doing my letter to you as much as I can while I am gone, but probably not every night. I hope that you understand and won't be upset with me. I know that Saturday night will be 1 night I will not be writing as that is the night of the concert and it will be ending quite late! I will write all about it so that you can visualize what Las Vegas is like. I sure wish that you were here with me and we were going on this trip together. I miss you so much. I know you will be with me not just the way I want. I love you pumpkin with all my heart and soul. Please always always remember this. It is so important that you do.
I will be looking to the sky tonight to see if I can see you shining brightly up in the sky. I will whisper to you so please be listening for Mom. I will also be up so early in the morning and the sky will still be dark so I will look up to it and whisper to you again. I miss you my precious son with all my heart and I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world.
Have a wonderful night in Heaven and do all that you want to do. Sweet dreams and watch over us all. Thank you. Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Hi sweetie! How are you doing today on this Wednesday afternoon? I hope you are happy and well up in Heaven! Mom is doing fine today. A little tired because I didn't sleep last night but I will sleep extra good tonight! You would be so proud of me. I actually drove around today with Bonnie. That is the first time I have done that since we moved here. Bonnie said that she was so impressed with me and Mark said the same thing! I guess I was impressed with myself. That took a lot for me to do and I think it went very well!!! I took Bonnie to go get her hair cut, and to do some shopping for her granddaughter and great grandson's birthday. We had a great time and it was really nice getting out during the week instead of just the weekend.
Mom and Mark leave for Vegas really early in the morning. Our driver is coming at 5 am so I need to be up at 4 am to get ready. I am nervous but excited to go and see Sin City. I ask you to please be with us as we are traveling to and from. Make sure that we are safe and sound. Thank you sweetie! Aunt Becky is flying home on Friday so please be with her as well.
I will be doing my letter to you as much as I can while I am gone, but probably not every night. I hope that you understand and won't be upset with me. I know that Saturday night will be 1 night I will not be writing as that is the night of the concert and it will be ending quite late! I will write all about it so that you can visualize what Las Vegas is like. I sure wish that you were here with me and we were going on this trip together. I miss you so much. I know you will be with me not just the way I want. I love you pumpkin with all my heart and soul. Please always always remember this. It is so important that you do.
I will be looking to the sky tonight to see if I can see you shining brightly up in the sky. I will whisper to you so please be listening for Mom. I will also be up so early in the morning and the sky will still be dark so I will look up to it and whisper to you again. I miss you my precious son with all my heart and I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world.
Have a wonderful night in Heaven and do all that you want to do. Sweet dreams and watch over us all. Thank you. Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Tuesday, February 18, 2014
Dear Tyler,
Hi sweetheart! How are you doing today? I hope you are well up in Heaven on this warm and beautiful Tuesday afternoon. Mom is doing well today. I am so sorry that I did not get a chance to write to you last night. I was so caught up in the moment with Bonnie arriving and getting things set for her that I finally sat down around 7 pm last night and watched tv and then went to bed. I don't think my head hit the pillow and I was out like a light. It is so nice to have a familiar face around here and someone to always talk to. Such a nice change. We haven't had company since Aunt Becky & John were here back at the beginning of November.
Mark & I are getting ready to leave for our mini vacation in 2 days. Wish me lots of luck going to Vegas. Maybe I will get lucky and win some money! Please be with us as we travel on Thursday & back home on Sunday. I know that you will be with us and make sure that we are safe.
Not much else has been going on here. Just catching up and visiting with Bonnie. We have been talking about old times, her husband Larry who passed away 1 year ago, and you, Tyler. We have been laughing, crying and just simply letting our emotions finally come out. It is nice to chat with someone who kind of knows what each other are going through. I think you would be proud of Mom.
Oh yeah... went and picked up my Wedding dress today. It is so beautiful. I wish that you would be able to see Mom in it on our Wedding day but I know you will see it in your own way just not Mom's way that I want it to be. I can hear you say that Mom looks so beautiful in it. Boy.. do I miss your voice. I miss you so much pumpkin. I love you with all my heart and soul. Please don't ever forget that.
The weather is so nice outside. Sunny and warm and kind of overcast skies. I don't think I will be able to see the stars out tonight but I know that you will be shining bright just like you always do. I will be whispering to you as I always do. Be listening for Mom.
Have a wonderful peaceful night my sweet precious son. My Angel from above. Watch over us all as you always do. Thank you so much. Fly high and fly free. Give our family and friends hugs from Mom and let them know I miss and love them too.
I love you forever. Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Hi sweetheart! How are you doing today? I hope you are well up in Heaven on this warm and beautiful Tuesday afternoon. Mom is doing well today. I am so sorry that I did not get a chance to write to you last night. I was so caught up in the moment with Bonnie arriving and getting things set for her that I finally sat down around 7 pm last night and watched tv and then went to bed. I don't think my head hit the pillow and I was out like a light. It is so nice to have a familiar face around here and someone to always talk to. Such a nice change. We haven't had company since Aunt Becky & John were here back at the beginning of November.
Mark & I are getting ready to leave for our mini vacation in 2 days. Wish me lots of luck going to Vegas. Maybe I will get lucky and win some money! Please be with us as we travel on Thursday & back home on Sunday. I know that you will be with us and make sure that we are safe.
Not much else has been going on here. Just catching up and visiting with Bonnie. We have been talking about old times, her husband Larry who passed away 1 year ago, and you, Tyler. We have been laughing, crying and just simply letting our emotions finally come out. It is nice to chat with someone who kind of knows what each other are going through. I think you would be proud of Mom.
Oh yeah... went and picked up my Wedding dress today. It is so beautiful. I wish that you would be able to see Mom in it on our Wedding day but I know you will see it in your own way just not Mom's way that I want it to be. I can hear you say that Mom looks so beautiful in it. Boy.. do I miss your voice. I miss you so much pumpkin. I love you with all my heart and soul. Please don't ever forget that.
The weather is so nice outside. Sunny and warm and kind of overcast skies. I don't think I will be able to see the stars out tonight but I know that you will be shining bright just like you always do. I will be whispering to you as I always do. Be listening for Mom.
Have a wonderful peaceful night my sweet precious son. My Angel from above. Watch over us all as you always do. Thank you so much. Fly high and fly free. Give our family and friends hugs from Mom and let them know I miss and love them too.
I love you forever. Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Sunday, February 16, 2014
Dear Tyler,
Hi sweetie. How are you today on this Sunday evening? I hope all is well with you and that you are happy as can be! Mom is doing just ducky today. The weather was overcast and cloudy but really warm with a gentle breeze blowing. We took the pups for a walk and they enjoyed it. We were suppose to do a few other things but Mom's stomach was acting up and we did dare go to far from home. We will do it later in the week.
The day has finally come and tomorrow at 11:30 am Bonnie will be here for a 10 day visit. It will be the second time we have had company in over a year! Mark and I also leave for Vegas this week for 4 days. We are getting excited to get away. It will be a nice change for Mom and Mark too. Please be with us as we travel to and from Vegas. Aunt Becky will also be traveling so please keep her safe too.
Tonight we were suppose to skype with Mark's Dad and Step Mom. It would be the first time seeing them and meeting them. It didn't happen though. Don't know if they got caught up in something or they just forgot. It is ok but we both were pretty bummed. We have been waiting for this for the last 4 nights since we received an email asking if we wanted to. Just hope that nothing is wrong and they are both well. There will be another time.
Not much else was going on today. Really mellow and quite quiet. Snickers actually is feeling pretty tough. He was throwing up a few times earlier today. Poor little guy has been basically sleeping the day away. Hope he didn't get a part of what I got last week. Max is just Max..lol! He is snoring away on the floor. He is doing well all things considered.
Spoke to Grandpa on Friday night. He seems to be good and keeping himself really busy with his part time job and everything else he does. I am so glad for him. Sure do miss seeing him and the rest of the family on a regular basis. Debbie is doing well too. Both are sick of the snow though and the cold weather. Guess NH is headed for another storm this coming week. Dang.. they are getting hit really hard this Winter and all at once. Don't envy them at all :) Just want our family & friends safe and sound!
Well, as I type this letter to you I am looking out the window and seeing the sky. Looks to be partly cloudy so maybe there will be a chance that I get to see the stars shining brightly tonight. Either way I will do what I always do and whisper to you. Be listening for Mom! I know that you are the brightest star in the sky and you do it for Mom whether you can see me or not. Thank you my sweet Angel from Heaven above. I miss you so much and I love you all the way around the world and back. You are forever my everything. Nothing will ever change that..EVER!!!
I hope you have a wonderful night. May it be all that you want it to be and so much more. Sweet dreams my precious son. Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Hi sweetie. How are you today on this Sunday evening? I hope all is well with you and that you are happy as can be! Mom is doing just ducky today. The weather was overcast and cloudy but really warm with a gentle breeze blowing. We took the pups for a walk and they enjoyed it. We were suppose to do a few other things but Mom's stomach was acting up and we did dare go to far from home. We will do it later in the week.
The day has finally come and tomorrow at 11:30 am Bonnie will be here for a 10 day visit. It will be the second time we have had company in over a year! Mark and I also leave for Vegas this week for 4 days. We are getting excited to get away. It will be a nice change for Mom and Mark too. Please be with us as we travel to and from Vegas. Aunt Becky will also be traveling so please keep her safe too.
Tonight we were suppose to skype with Mark's Dad and Step Mom. It would be the first time seeing them and meeting them. It didn't happen though. Don't know if they got caught up in something or they just forgot. It is ok but we both were pretty bummed. We have been waiting for this for the last 4 nights since we received an email asking if we wanted to. Just hope that nothing is wrong and they are both well. There will be another time.
Not much else was going on today. Really mellow and quite quiet. Snickers actually is feeling pretty tough. He was throwing up a few times earlier today. Poor little guy has been basically sleeping the day away. Hope he didn't get a part of what I got last week. Max is just Max..lol! He is snoring away on the floor. He is doing well all things considered.
Spoke to Grandpa on Friday night. He seems to be good and keeping himself really busy with his part time job and everything else he does. I am so glad for him. Sure do miss seeing him and the rest of the family on a regular basis. Debbie is doing well too. Both are sick of the snow though and the cold weather. Guess NH is headed for another storm this coming week. Dang.. they are getting hit really hard this Winter and all at once. Don't envy them at all :) Just want our family & friends safe and sound!
Well, as I type this letter to you I am looking out the window and seeing the sky. Looks to be partly cloudy so maybe there will be a chance that I get to see the stars shining brightly tonight. Either way I will do what I always do and whisper to you. Be listening for Mom! I know that you are the brightest star in the sky and you do it for Mom whether you can see me or not. Thank you my sweet Angel from Heaven above. I miss you so much and I love you all the way around the world and back. You are forever my everything. Nothing will ever change that..EVER!!!
I hope you have a wonderful night. May it be all that you want it to be and so much more. Sweet dreams my precious son. Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Saturday, February 15, 2014
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son. How are you doing this evening? I hope you are wonderful and are doing so many amazing things that you want to do in Heaven. Mom is doing well as I can be. Today Mark & I got a chance to go out. It was really nice. I am feeling like myself again. The weather was just beautiful. Sunny with blue cloudless skies and 70 degrees. Just simply beautiful. Did some grocery shopping, got my nails done and walked around today. Nothing major but again it was just really nice to get the fresh air. Bonnie is arriving on Monday.. 2 days and she will be here for 10 days. She is watching Max & Snickers for us when we go to Las Vegas for 4 days. Next Saturday we will be at the Celine Dion Concert. I can't wait. I am still in shock that Mark bought us tickets. He is so sweet. I know you loved him Tyler. I know you are smiling down because one of your fears was leaving me behind and that I would be alone. You even said you no longer had to worry about Mom because I was in good hands. You were so right pumpkin. You always could read people so well! I just wish you were still here with us. To share all this and be in Texas with Mom. I know you would like it here. The weather is amazing and the people are so friendly. The traffic sucks but you get used to it. Sometimes when I am outside I can see you sitting in your chair with your face to the sun and soaking it all in just like you used to. It brings a smile to my face but tears to my eyes. It is bittersweet. Mark bought Mom a charm bracelet for Valentines Day. It has 10 charms... a wine glass... because I like wine, a cupcake... because Mark calls me his Brass Cupcake, an engagement ring... because we are getting married, a Princess Crown...because I am Mark's Princess, a silver heart that says Mom...because I still am a Mom to you even if you are in Heaven, 2 silver spacers, and 3 white crystal stoppers. It is so pretty and sparkles. I know you would like it. Maybe you were even with us when we were picking it out. I always wonder when you are with me. I mostly have to rely on Aunt Becky to tell me. That sounds so sad but it is true. Could you do me a favor the next time you are near... can you make it really known so that Mom picks up on it? Thanks pumpkin.
Took the pups for a walk already and I was so surprised to see that after such a clear blue sky today..tonight sky is cloudy and no stars shining. It didn't matter because I know you are still up there shining brightly. I whispered to you. I hope you heard Mom. I will look again one last time before going to bed t see if anything changed. Again, I will whisper to you. Be listening. I miss you so much and I love you more than I can say.
I hope you have a peaceful evening. Continue to watch over us all like you always do. Sweet dreams my sweet precious Angel. You will always be my everything. Just remember that. Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Hi my sweet son. How are you doing this evening? I hope you are wonderful and are doing so many amazing things that you want to do in Heaven. Mom is doing well as I can be. Today Mark & I got a chance to go out. It was really nice. I am feeling like myself again. The weather was just beautiful. Sunny with blue cloudless skies and 70 degrees. Just simply beautiful. Did some grocery shopping, got my nails done and walked around today. Nothing major but again it was just really nice to get the fresh air. Bonnie is arriving on Monday.. 2 days and she will be here for 10 days. She is watching Max & Snickers for us when we go to Las Vegas for 4 days. Next Saturday we will be at the Celine Dion Concert. I can't wait. I am still in shock that Mark bought us tickets. He is so sweet. I know you loved him Tyler. I know you are smiling down because one of your fears was leaving me behind and that I would be alone. You even said you no longer had to worry about Mom because I was in good hands. You were so right pumpkin. You always could read people so well! I just wish you were still here with us. To share all this and be in Texas with Mom. I know you would like it here. The weather is amazing and the people are so friendly. The traffic sucks but you get used to it. Sometimes when I am outside I can see you sitting in your chair with your face to the sun and soaking it all in just like you used to. It brings a smile to my face but tears to my eyes. It is bittersweet. Mark bought Mom a charm bracelet for Valentines Day. It has 10 charms... a wine glass... because I like wine, a cupcake... because Mark calls me his Brass Cupcake, an engagement ring... because we are getting married, a Princess Crown...because I am Mark's Princess, a silver heart that says Mom...because I still am a Mom to you even if you are in Heaven, 2 silver spacers, and 3 white crystal stoppers. It is so pretty and sparkles. I know you would like it. Maybe you were even with us when we were picking it out. I always wonder when you are with me. I mostly have to rely on Aunt Becky to tell me. That sounds so sad but it is true. Could you do me a favor the next time you are near... can you make it really known so that Mom picks up on it? Thanks pumpkin.
Took the pups for a walk already and I was so surprised to see that after such a clear blue sky today..tonight sky is cloudy and no stars shining. It didn't matter because I know you are still up there shining brightly. I whispered to you. I hope you heard Mom. I will look again one last time before going to bed t see if anything changed. Again, I will whisper to you. Be listening. I miss you so much and I love you more than I can say.
I hope you have a peaceful evening. Continue to watch over us all like you always do. Sweet dreams my sweet precious Angel. You will always be my everything. Just remember that. Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Friday, February 14, 2014
Dear Tyler,
Happy Heavenly Valentines Day my sweet son. This is my 1st Valentines Day without you and I know that it is a " couples holiday " and not a " Mother & Son holiday " , but I ALWAYS spent my day with you and I always asked you the same question... Will you be my Valentine??? You would always say " Yes " and make my day. You would either draw me pictures of roses or buy me some. You were always so sweet to me. I still have the picture of the roses you painted for me & the picture that was taken of you & I with the roses you bought me for the very last time. I will cherish both of them always! I asked Amy today to find you and give you a hug & kiss and to make sure to tell you hat was from Mom! I miss you so much my precious Angel. I love you beyond any words that I could ever say!
Today is so beautiful here. Texas is 70 degrees and sunny with blue skies! I couldn't have asked for a better day. I spoke to Meme & Uncle Dick today and they are just sick of the dang snow that is still coming down in New Hampshire & Massachusetts They got over 17" and still more on the way tomorrow. I feel so bad for them but I am so not missing that white stuff, Ty! I know just how much we would b*tch about the cold and the snow. Now neither of us need to worry about that any longer. Please continue to keep everyone safe and sound back home. Thank you!
I wanted to write a little letter to you today and then write a couple lines from a song that I love. I thought it was appropriate for today.. it is called:
One Sweet Day
Sorry, I never told you
All I wanted to say
Now it's too late to hold you
Cause you've flown away
So far away
Never had I imagined
Living without your smile
Feelin' and knowing you hear me
It keeps me alive
Alive
And I know you're shining down on me from Heaven
Like so many friends we've lost along the way
And I know eventually we'll be together
One sweet day
Picture a little scene in Heaven
Darling, I never showed you
Assumed you'd always be there
I, I took your presence for granted
But I always cared
And I miss the love we shared
And I know you're shining down on me from Heaven
Like so many friends we've lost along the way
And I know eventually we'll be together
One sweet day
Picture a little scene in Heaven
Although the sun will never shine the same
I'll always look to a brighter day
Yeah, Lord, I know when I lay me down to sleep
You will always listen
As I pray
And I know you're shining down on me from Heaven
Like so many friends we've lost along the way
And I know eventually we'll be together
One sweet day
And I know you're shining down on me from Heaven
Like so many friends we've lost along the way
And I know eventually we'll be together
One sweet day
Picture a little scene in Heaven
Sorry I never told you
All I wanted to say.....
I hope you like the lyrics to this song. It is another special one for Mom to you. I hope you have wonderful and peaceful evening tonight in Heaven. I will look to the clear dark sky to see you shining brightly. I will whisper to you as I always do. Be listening for Mom. Sweet dreams pumpkin and know you are missed so much by many but nobody misses you more than I do. I love you all the way around the world and back. Forever!!!
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Happy Heavenly Valentines Day my sweet son. This is my 1st Valentines Day without you and I know that it is a " couples holiday " and not a " Mother & Son holiday " , but I ALWAYS spent my day with you and I always asked you the same question... Will you be my Valentine??? You would always say " Yes " and make my day. You would either draw me pictures of roses or buy me some. You were always so sweet to me. I still have the picture of the roses you painted for me & the picture that was taken of you & I with the roses you bought me for the very last time. I will cherish both of them always! I asked Amy today to find you and give you a hug & kiss and to make sure to tell you hat was from Mom! I miss you so much my precious Angel. I love you beyond any words that I could ever say!
Today is so beautiful here. Texas is 70 degrees and sunny with blue skies! I couldn't have asked for a better day. I spoke to Meme & Uncle Dick today and they are just sick of the dang snow that is still coming down in New Hampshire & Massachusetts They got over 17" and still more on the way tomorrow. I feel so bad for them but I am so not missing that white stuff, Ty! I know just how much we would b*tch about the cold and the snow. Now neither of us need to worry about that any longer. Please continue to keep everyone safe and sound back home. Thank you!
I wanted to write a little letter to you today and then write a couple lines from a song that I love. I thought it was appropriate for today.. it is called:
One Sweet Day
Sorry, I never told you
All I wanted to say
Now it's too late to hold you
Cause you've flown away
So far away
Never had I imagined
Living without your smile
Feelin' and knowing you hear me
It keeps me alive
Alive
And I know you're shining down on me from Heaven
Like so many friends we've lost along the way
And I know eventually we'll be together
One sweet day
Picture a little scene in Heaven
Darling, I never showed you
Assumed you'd always be there
I, I took your presence for granted
But I always cared
And I miss the love we shared
And I know you're shining down on me from Heaven
Like so many friends we've lost along the way
And I know eventually we'll be together
One sweet day
Picture a little scene in Heaven
Although the sun will never shine the same
I'll always look to a brighter day
Yeah, Lord, I know when I lay me down to sleep
You will always listen
As I pray
And I know you're shining down on me from Heaven
Like so many friends we've lost along the way
And I know eventually we'll be together
One sweet day
And I know you're shining down on me from Heaven
Like so many friends we've lost along the way
And I know eventually we'll be together
One sweet day
Picture a little scene in Heaven
Sorry I never told you
All I wanted to say.....
I hope you like the lyrics to this song. It is another special one for Mom to you. I hope you have wonderful and peaceful evening tonight in Heaven. I will look to the clear dark sky to see you shining brightly. I will whisper to you as I always do. Be listening for Mom. Sweet dreams pumpkin and know you are missed so much by many but nobody misses you more than I do. I love you all the way around the world and back. Forever!!!
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Thursday, February 13, 2014
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet Angel in Heaven. How are you doing on this Thursday afternoon? I hope that you are so happy. Mom is again so sorry that I didn't write to you last night. I am still feeling quite tough. Last night was another rough night for me. I miss writing to you and when I can't I don't feel as close to you as I do when I am writing to you nightly. I know it might sound crazy but it is just how I feel. Today is a much better day for me. I am finally starting to feel like me again. My stomach is doing well right now. I am making sure I am drinking lots of fluids and eating meals but not so much all at once. Every one I know is getting this stomach bug and it is so nasty and rough on the body not to mention it lasts for awhile.
Today the weather is just so beautiful. It is blue skies, no clouds and it is about 65 degrees outside. It is so nice to finally see the sun after 10 days of cloudy, cold, and overcast rainy days. NH is getting hit really hard again with major snow storm. They are calling it Storm Nemo and it is suppose to be a really big Blizzard. Lots of snow, ice, and the worst one in years. I heard from Meme today and she told me that she didn't go to work because of the weather. I was so happy to hear that. I just hope that Grandpa & Debbie are safe ( and all our other family & friends that have to drive too. ) Can I ask you a favor.. can you please watch over everyone for Mom. I worry about every one I care about and seeings how I can not be there in person... I need my Angel Family to watch over them. Thank you so much Tyler. The things you do to help Mom out is just so amazing and incredible. It makes me feel so special and privileged to have you watching over me & others from above.
Everything else going on with Mom is the same. Just trying to get better. Wanting to start working out again and I am hoping I can start back up in a couple weeks. I am also trying to help some friends that are having some trouble in their lives. I am hoping to give them some advice because I have been there in their shoes. I am trying my best to do all kinds of things to better my life. I am trying to be less stressed at things, trying not to have drama in my life and I am just trying to live " simple ." I am trying to do all that I can to get by without you here with me. It is a day to day struggle for me. People may see me laugh and smile and having a good time but deep down I am hurting. My heart is crushed and in pain. I miss you so much. I look at your pictures all the time and I get tears in my eyes. I immediately start remember our times together and it makes me smile and happy but sad because we don't get to have anymore. I wish there was a way that you could help me out and tell me what I could do and what is the best way to mend my broken heart. I don't know what to do. Some days are good and then some days I am just so lost. I don't know what to do with my life let alone what to do with myself. I find there are more days that I am depressed again. I need to get out of this " funk " so if there is anything you can do on your side to help Mom out that would be great.
Tomorrow is Valentines Day and this will be my first year that I won't be able to ask you if you would be my Valentine in person. This makes me so sad. I would ask you every year and you would tell me yes and give me a kiss on the cheek. It meant so much. I will be asking you again so be listening for Mom. I love you so much my sweet son. You still are the most precious person to me.
I am hoping that this evening the stars will be shining brightly. I will be looking and wanting to see you up in the Heavens. I will whisper to you as I always do. Be listening for me tonight too. I love you so much. All the way around the world and back. Sweet dreams pumpkin.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Hi my sweet Angel in Heaven. How are you doing on this Thursday afternoon? I hope that you are so happy. Mom is again so sorry that I didn't write to you last night. I am still feeling quite tough. Last night was another rough night for me. I miss writing to you and when I can't I don't feel as close to you as I do when I am writing to you nightly. I know it might sound crazy but it is just how I feel. Today is a much better day for me. I am finally starting to feel like me again. My stomach is doing well right now. I am making sure I am drinking lots of fluids and eating meals but not so much all at once. Every one I know is getting this stomach bug and it is so nasty and rough on the body not to mention it lasts for awhile.
Today the weather is just so beautiful. It is blue skies, no clouds and it is about 65 degrees outside. It is so nice to finally see the sun after 10 days of cloudy, cold, and overcast rainy days. NH is getting hit really hard again with major snow storm. They are calling it Storm Nemo and it is suppose to be a really big Blizzard. Lots of snow, ice, and the worst one in years. I heard from Meme today and she told me that she didn't go to work because of the weather. I was so happy to hear that. I just hope that Grandpa & Debbie are safe ( and all our other family & friends that have to drive too. ) Can I ask you a favor.. can you please watch over everyone for Mom. I worry about every one I care about and seeings how I can not be there in person... I need my Angel Family to watch over them. Thank you so much Tyler. The things you do to help Mom out is just so amazing and incredible. It makes me feel so special and privileged to have you watching over me & others from above.
Everything else going on with Mom is the same. Just trying to get better. Wanting to start working out again and I am hoping I can start back up in a couple weeks. I am also trying to help some friends that are having some trouble in their lives. I am hoping to give them some advice because I have been there in their shoes. I am trying my best to do all kinds of things to better my life. I am trying to be less stressed at things, trying not to have drama in my life and I am just trying to live " simple ." I am trying to do all that I can to get by without you here with me. It is a day to day struggle for me. People may see me laugh and smile and having a good time but deep down I am hurting. My heart is crushed and in pain. I miss you so much. I look at your pictures all the time and I get tears in my eyes. I immediately start remember our times together and it makes me smile and happy but sad because we don't get to have anymore. I wish there was a way that you could help me out and tell me what I could do and what is the best way to mend my broken heart. I don't know what to do. Some days are good and then some days I am just so lost. I don't know what to do with my life let alone what to do with myself. I find there are more days that I am depressed again. I need to get out of this " funk " so if there is anything you can do on your side to help Mom out that would be great.
Tomorrow is Valentines Day and this will be my first year that I won't be able to ask you if you would be my Valentine in person. This makes me so sad. I would ask you every year and you would tell me yes and give me a kiss on the cheek. It meant so much. I will be asking you again so be listening for Mom. I love you so much my sweet son. You still are the most precious person to me.
I am hoping that this evening the stars will be shining brightly. I will be looking and wanting to see you up in the Heavens. I will whisper to you as I always do. Be listening for me tonight too. I love you so much. All the way around the world and back. Sweet dreams pumpkin.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Tuesday, February 11, 2014
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing in Heaven today? Mom is so sorry that I have not been able to write to you in the past 3 days. I have once again been so sick. It started Saturday night and it is still continuing today. This stomach bug is so nasty. It comes with vomiting, headache, stomach bloating, and the worst stomach pains ever. I have never been 3 days without writing to you and that made me so sad. It hurt me a great deal. I feel so close to you when I write to you. I did however whisper to you every night. I hope you did hear me nightly. Not much has been going on here as you know. Mark has been such a gem and taking care of me these last few days. He is so kind and sweet. Making sure I am doing well. I am very lucky. Please tell Amy I said " Thank you. "
The weather here in Texas has been so chilly and rainy. Mom's old bones ache..lol! The rest of the week is suppose to be sunny and starting to warm up. Weekend is looking wonderful..sunny and 72 degrees. Bonnie is coming on Monday for 10 days. I haven't seen her in 8 months so it will be fun! Mark & I leave for Vegas in 8 days. I can't wait to go and see Celine Dion in concert. Please be with us so that we have safe travels.
Aunt Becky will be flying back to the states next week too. Please be with her so she travels safely too. Watch over all our family and friends just like you always do. Thank you for all that you do for us. I haven't spoken to Meme or Grandpa lately because of being sick so I hope that everything is ok. Please watch over them too! I miss them so much. I miss you so much it hurts. I love you!
I know this letter is not long at all, but I couldn't go another day without writing to you. I needed and wanted you to know that I am thinking about you every second of every minute of every hour of every day. You are always on my mind. I am always thinking of you. Always remembering the times we shared. Thinking about those times brought many tears to my eyes these last few days. I miss you so bad. I hate that you are not here with Mom. I am sorry for feeling this way but I do. I have to be honest with you. I am happy that you are happy so don't get me wrong but I just want you to be with me and be happy.
This evening is not going to be clear so I won't be able to see the stars but I know you are shining bright just like you always do. I will be waiting these next few days to see you shining! I hope you have a wonderful and peaceful evening tonight. Sweet reams my sweet precious son. I love you with all my heart and soul. To the moon and back.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing in Heaven today? Mom is so sorry that I have not been able to write to you in the past 3 days. I have once again been so sick. It started Saturday night and it is still continuing today. This stomach bug is so nasty. It comes with vomiting, headache, stomach bloating, and the worst stomach pains ever. I have never been 3 days without writing to you and that made me so sad. It hurt me a great deal. I feel so close to you when I write to you. I did however whisper to you every night. I hope you did hear me nightly. Not much has been going on here as you know. Mark has been such a gem and taking care of me these last few days. He is so kind and sweet. Making sure I am doing well. I am very lucky. Please tell Amy I said " Thank you. "
The weather here in Texas has been so chilly and rainy. Mom's old bones ache..lol! The rest of the week is suppose to be sunny and starting to warm up. Weekend is looking wonderful..sunny and 72 degrees. Bonnie is coming on Monday for 10 days. I haven't seen her in 8 months so it will be fun! Mark & I leave for Vegas in 8 days. I can't wait to go and see Celine Dion in concert. Please be with us so that we have safe travels.
Aunt Becky will be flying back to the states next week too. Please be with her so she travels safely too. Watch over all our family and friends just like you always do. Thank you for all that you do for us. I haven't spoken to Meme or Grandpa lately because of being sick so I hope that everything is ok. Please watch over them too! I miss them so much. I miss you so much it hurts. I love you!
I know this letter is not long at all, but I couldn't go another day without writing to you. I needed and wanted you to know that I am thinking about you every second of every minute of every hour of every day. You are always on my mind. I am always thinking of you. Always remembering the times we shared. Thinking about those times brought many tears to my eyes these last few days. I miss you so bad. I hate that you are not here with Mom. I am sorry for feeling this way but I do. I have to be honest with you. I am happy that you are happy so don't get me wrong but I just want you to be with me and be happy.
This evening is not going to be clear so I won't be able to see the stars but I know you are shining bright just like you always do. I will be waiting these next few days to see you shining! I hope you have a wonderful and peaceful evening tonight. Sweet reams my sweet precious son. I love you with all my heart and soul. To the moon and back.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Friday, February 7, 2014
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son. How are you doing today? I hope you are well. Mom is under the weather today. The coldness outside for the last 10 days is getting to me. My bones hurt and all the places that I have broken are just screaming with pain. I shouldn't complain because I know back home they are colder than we are here, but no one would expect Texas to be 34 degrees for the last several days. It is just cold and rainy. Just a nasty chill in the air. It will really be nice to see the sun the next couple of days. Looking forward to that for sure. My days are busy filled with looking for apartments to where we will be relocating to and looking at stuff for the wedding. It is really frustrating though. Not too many apartments available and many you have to be put on a wait list that comes with a hefty price tag. It is so discouraging. It just sucks. As far as the wedding plans we have a couple leads on where to hold it but again to secure the site money needs to be put down as well. I think that there is just too much going on at the same time for me. My computer is running so slow so that doesn't help matters either. Ugh.....
Not much else is really going on here. Haven't spoken to any of our family all week. I usually do on the weekends. I know that Meme has her hands full at home and I also know that Grandpa has been working these last several days. The weather has played a big part to as they all have been slow blowing and shoveling their way out. I guess New England is headed for another major snow storm again this weekend. It is suppose to dump more snow then the one they got on earlier this week. I just hope that everyone who has to drive is safe on the roads. I have to chuckle because I remember last year... you & Jeremy went outside and were doing doughnuts in the snow. I laughed and smiled as I am right now remember it all. What I wouldn't do for another day with you. To hold you close and just be with you. Talk about everything and anything. To laugh and to cry with you. Just to hear your voice, see your face, and see that smile. I really miss you Tyler. I miss you so much. Words can't even describe just how much but I am sure that you can guess or at least I hope you can.
I have tried to contact Cindy for an update on Jeremy but I keep getting his voicemail. I just hope that everything is ok and he is getting better. I worry about him a lot but I know you got this. I know you are with him and watching over him with whatever is going on. I am going to try again tomorrow. I hope that I get them. Keeping my fingers crossed that's for sure.
Another evening that it is cloudy and there won't be any stars in the sky but I know you will be shining just the same. I know you will be watching over Mom & our family and friends just as you always do. Thank you so much for that. I will whisper to you as I always do each night. I hope that you will be listening for me.
I hope you have a peaceful evening Tyler with many sweet dreams. I love you with all my heart. To the moon & back & all the way around the world.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Hi my sweet son. How are you doing today? I hope you are well. Mom is under the weather today. The coldness outside for the last 10 days is getting to me. My bones hurt and all the places that I have broken are just screaming with pain. I shouldn't complain because I know back home they are colder than we are here, but no one would expect Texas to be 34 degrees for the last several days. It is just cold and rainy. Just a nasty chill in the air. It will really be nice to see the sun the next couple of days. Looking forward to that for sure. My days are busy filled with looking for apartments to where we will be relocating to and looking at stuff for the wedding. It is really frustrating though. Not too many apartments available and many you have to be put on a wait list that comes with a hefty price tag. It is so discouraging. It just sucks. As far as the wedding plans we have a couple leads on where to hold it but again to secure the site money needs to be put down as well. I think that there is just too much going on at the same time for me. My computer is running so slow so that doesn't help matters either. Ugh.....
Not much else is really going on here. Haven't spoken to any of our family all week. I usually do on the weekends. I know that Meme has her hands full at home and I also know that Grandpa has been working these last several days. The weather has played a big part to as they all have been slow blowing and shoveling their way out. I guess New England is headed for another major snow storm again this weekend. It is suppose to dump more snow then the one they got on earlier this week. I just hope that everyone who has to drive is safe on the roads. I have to chuckle because I remember last year... you & Jeremy went outside and were doing doughnuts in the snow. I laughed and smiled as I am right now remember it all. What I wouldn't do for another day with you. To hold you close and just be with you. Talk about everything and anything. To laugh and to cry with you. Just to hear your voice, see your face, and see that smile. I really miss you Tyler. I miss you so much. Words can't even describe just how much but I am sure that you can guess or at least I hope you can.
I have tried to contact Cindy for an update on Jeremy but I keep getting his voicemail. I just hope that everything is ok and he is getting better. I worry about him a lot but I know you got this. I know you are with him and watching over him with whatever is going on. I am going to try again tomorrow. I hope that I get them. Keeping my fingers crossed that's for sure.
Another evening that it is cloudy and there won't be any stars in the sky but I know you will be shining just the same. I know you will be watching over Mom & our family and friends just as you always do. Thank you so much for that. I will whisper to you as I always do each night. I hope that you will be listening for me.
I hope you have a peaceful evening Tyler with many sweet dreams. I love you with all my heart. To the moon & back & all the way around the world.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Thursday, February 6, 2014
Dear Tyler,
Hi pumpkin! How are you this evening? I hope that all is well in Heaven tonight. Mom is doing fine. Keeping myself busy during the day. My letter is not going to be the usual one to you because I found something that I wanted to type to you. It was given to me and I wanted to share it with you and all the folks that read my nightly letters to you. I believe this is what you would say to Mom if you could.....
Whispers To Heaven
When I left this world without you
I know it made you blue.
Your tears fell so freely,
I watched; I know this is true.
While you were weeping,
Days after I passed away-
While all was silent within me,
I saw you kneel to pray.
From this wonderful place they call Heaven
Where all my pain is gone,
I send a gentle breeze to whisper,
" My loved ones, please go on "
The peace that I have found here
Goes far beyond compare
No rain, no clouds, no suffering-
Just LOVE from everywhere.
You need not be troubled
Just stay close to GOD in prayer
Someday we'll be reunited
My love, HIS love surrounds you always,
EVERYWHERE!
I thought this was such a beautiful poem. It would be something you would really say to me if you could. I just know it would be. I can almost hear your voice saying it to Mom. I miss you so much my sweet precious son. I love you beyond anything that I can ever express to you or anyone else. You still are my everything. I strive to make you proud of me every day.
I will look to the sky tonight to see the stars shining brightly. I hope they will be out for Mom to see. If not I know you are shining in Heaven anyways. Please continue to watch over us all. Thank you :) Sweet dreams Tyler and may you have a peaceful night. Fly high and fly free!
I love you... Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Hi pumpkin! How are you this evening? I hope that all is well in Heaven tonight. Mom is doing fine. Keeping myself busy during the day. My letter is not going to be the usual one to you because I found something that I wanted to type to you. It was given to me and I wanted to share it with you and all the folks that read my nightly letters to you. I believe this is what you would say to Mom if you could.....
Whispers To Heaven
When I left this world without you
I know it made you blue.
Your tears fell so freely,
I watched; I know this is true.
While you were weeping,
Days after I passed away-
While all was silent within me,
I saw you kneel to pray.
From this wonderful place they call Heaven
Where all my pain is gone,
I send a gentle breeze to whisper,
" My loved ones, please go on "
The peace that I have found here
Goes far beyond compare
No rain, no clouds, no suffering-
Just LOVE from everywhere.
You need not be troubled
Just stay close to GOD in prayer
Someday we'll be reunited
My love, HIS love surrounds you always,
EVERYWHERE!
I thought this was such a beautiful poem. It would be something you would really say to me if you could. I just know it would be. I can almost hear your voice saying it to Mom. I miss you so much my sweet precious son. I love you beyond anything that I can ever express to you or anyone else. You still are my everything. I strive to make you proud of me every day.
I will look to the sky tonight to see the stars shining brightly. I hope they will be out for Mom to see. If not I know you are shining in Heaven anyways. Please continue to watch over us all. Thank you :) Sweet dreams Tyler and may you have a peaceful night. Fly high and fly free!
I love you... Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Wednesday, February 5, 2014
Dear Tyler,
Hi sweetie! How are you doing today? I hope that you are doing wonderful up in Heaven! Mom is doing ok today. I had a kind of down day after 2 days of running around. I made a brunch for Mark & I and then did those dishes, took a shower after that I got on my computer to do some things, then I spoke to Auntie Kristina on the phone for awhile. Now I am writing my daily letter to you.
It is early evening right now. I am sitting at the table and the sun is shining in because it is setting. It is so bright. A yellow/ orange sunset tonight. It is cool outside but it is very pretty. The night sky will be coming in about an hour so I am keeping my fingers crossed that the stars will be shining brightly so I can see them. The sky was clear when I took the pups out about a 1/2 hour ago. I hope I get to see you up there!
Boy, In NH and in New England they are getting slammed with snow again. The updates that I keep getting is that it has been snowing all day and they have about 1 foot of snow right now. Some places they are getting ice on top of it. Just a nasty winter storm. I know folks were saying that there was another coming this weekend too. That one is suppose to dump more snow then this one today. They were estimating that these 2 storms would be close to 3 to 4 feet. Just crazy! I just hope that our loved ones and friends are safe on the road and get home safely. Are you missing the snow, I wonder??? I know we both used to think it was so pretty when it was falling on the trees and yard. It was a fluffy blanket of snow that looked like marshmallows. I know I miss seeing it but I do not miss shoveling it. I don't miss dealing with a furnace and running out of fuel in the middle of the night. I do miss the 4 Seasons though. I miss you and I miss sharing it with you. I miss our walks and our talks, I miss our laughs and our fights. I miss everything about you!
This morning I had a nightmare. It scared me so bad. It was about you. I won't go into details about it but I will say that it was so real that I jumped out of bed and ran to go to you. I realized where I was and that it was indeed a nightmare. I then realized that you were no longer here with me. I started to cry. I did fall back to sleep only to wake up and remember the ordeal and I started to cry again. Some days are just so hard not being able to see you and talk to you. Other days are difficult too but I can handle them. This morning was not one of those days. I hope wherever you are and whatever you are doing you are safe and happy all the time. I hope that the other side gets to see those long big brown eyes & the long eyelashes that you had and they get to see your sweet smile. That wonderful beautiful smile that I miss so damn much.
The sun is now setting and it is really pretty setting behind the trees here. I bet you get to see beautiful sunsets and sunrises, huh? I hope that you have a wonderful evening that is filled with peace, blessings, love & happiness. Please tell all of our family & Mom's friends in Heaven that I miss them and I love them dearly. I think of everyone daily. I think of you Tyler all the time. Every minute of every hour of every day and sometimes more! I love you pumpkin with all my heart and soul.
I miss you like crazy. Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Hi sweetie! How are you doing today? I hope that you are doing wonderful up in Heaven! Mom is doing ok today. I had a kind of down day after 2 days of running around. I made a brunch for Mark & I and then did those dishes, took a shower after that I got on my computer to do some things, then I spoke to Auntie Kristina on the phone for awhile. Now I am writing my daily letter to you.
It is early evening right now. I am sitting at the table and the sun is shining in because it is setting. It is so bright. A yellow/ orange sunset tonight. It is cool outside but it is very pretty. The night sky will be coming in about an hour so I am keeping my fingers crossed that the stars will be shining brightly so I can see them. The sky was clear when I took the pups out about a 1/2 hour ago. I hope I get to see you up there!
Boy, In NH and in New England they are getting slammed with snow again. The updates that I keep getting is that it has been snowing all day and they have about 1 foot of snow right now. Some places they are getting ice on top of it. Just a nasty winter storm. I know folks were saying that there was another coming this weekend too. That one is suppose to dump more snow then this one today. They were estimating that these 2 storms would be close to 3 to 4 feet. Just crazy! I just hope that our loved ones and friends are safe on the road and get home safely. Are you missing the snow, I wonder??? I know we both used to think it was so pretty when it was falling on the trees and yard. It was a fluffy blanket of snow that looked like marshmallows. I know I miss seeing it but I do not miss shoveling it. I don't miss dealing with a furnace and running out of fuel in the middle of the night. I do miss the 4 Seasons though. I miss you and I miss sharing it with you. I miss our walks and our talks, I miss our laughs and our fights. I miss everything about you!
This morning I had a nightmare. It scared me so bad. It was about you. I won't go into details about it but I will say that it was so real that I jumped out of bed and ran to go to you. I realized where I was and that it was indeed a nightmare. I then realized that you were no longer here with me. I started to cry. I did fall back to sleep only to wake up and remember the ordeal and I started to cry again. Some days are just so hard not being able to see you and talk to you. Other days are difficult too but I can handle them. This morning was not one of those days. I hope wherever you are and whatever you are doing you are safe and happy all the time. I hope that the other side gets to see those long big brown eyes & the long eyelashes that you had and they get to see your sweet smile. That wonderful beautiful smile that I miss so damn much.
The sun is now setting and it is really pretty setting behind the trees here. I bet you get to see beautiful sunsets and sunrises, huh? I hope that you have a wonderful evening that is filled with peace, blessings, love & happiness. Please tell all of our family & Mom's friends in Heaven that I miss them and I love them dearly. I think of everyone daily. I think of you Tyler all the time. Every minute of every hour of every day and sometimes more! I love you pumpkin with all my heart and soul.
I miss you like crazy. Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Tuesday, February 4, 2014
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son! How are you on this Tuesday evening? I hope all is well with you up in Heaven tonight. Mom is doing ok. Been another busy day for me today. I actually got up, took a shower, and I went to the store all by myself without even hesitating. It felt great. I got home and had some lunch and then did a few things on the computer for Grandpa. Spent the night cooking dinner, doing dishes and talking to Bean, Meme, and Marion on the phone. Now I am writing to you.
I got the nicest surprise when I took the pups out. It was cold and heavy rain all day today so when I opened the door and walked out I looked to the sky and saw the stars shining brightly. I whispered to you... did you hear Mom? It made me smile because I was not expecting it at all. I know you are always shining brightly in the sky but it was just so nice to finally see it after so many nights of not being able to. I am hoping I get to see the stars the rest of the week but I know it is suppose to rain like all week here. I will keep my fingers crossed that I do. If not I again know that you are always up there shining brightly. Thanks for the sweet surprise tonight. It really made my evening!
I received an email from Aunt Becky today. She said that her and John were having a great time and that the weather was sunny and in the 70's. I am so happy for them. I think that she is just so at peace being in South America. I miss talking to her like we usually do a couple times a week but I will be chatting with her in roughly 3 weeks. I wonder if you have gone to her and she has seen you yet?? Can't wait to find out. She usually tells me when she has a visit from you. It is always so nice to hear! Makes me smile to know that you are on the other side and that you are happy.
I really miss you. I miss you so much. I wish you could know just how much I really do. No words could and can express it though. I love you beyond words. I love you with all my heart and soul. Facebook just did this thing today where they show you a movie video that they did of your profile. I viewed mine and I thought it came out wonderful. You don't choose anything.. it is all done on their end. My movie video had a ton of pictures of you and Mom. One of you and Brandy, and a couple of Mark & I. It was great. It actually made me tear up a bit. The memories of all the good times we all had. In some cases that is all I have are just memories and it makes me so sad. It hurts like hell and I hate it. I am trying so hard to make you proud. To show you that I can be strong through this. Some days are just better than others. Bare with me, Tyler. Please help me out. I still need you. I will always need you!
I hope that you will have a peaceful evening tonight. May it be all that you want and need it to be. Please continue to watch over all our family, loved ones and friends. I will whisper to you again when I walk the pups for the last time. Hope you will hear me. I miss you my sweet precious son. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. Forever!!!
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Hi my sweet son! How are you on this Tuesday evening? I hope all is well with you up in Heaven tonight. Mom is doing ok. Been another busy day for me today. I actually got up, took a shower, and I went to the store all by myself without even hesitating. It felt great. I got home and had some lunch and then did a few things on the computer for Grandpa. Spent the night cooking dinner, doing dishes and talking to Bean, Meme, and Marion on the phone. Now I am writing to you.
I got the nicest surprise when I took the pups out. It was cold and heavy rain all day today so when I opened the door and walked out I looked to the sky and saw the stars shining brightly. I whispered to you... did you hear Mom? It made me smile because I was not expecting it at all. I know you are always shining brightly in the sky but it was just so nice to finally see it after so many nights of not being able to. I am hoping I get to see the stars the rest of the week but I know it is suppose to rain like all week here. I will keep my fingers crossed that I do. If not I again know that you are always up there shining brightly. Thanks for the sweet surprise tonight. It really made my evening!
I received an email from Aunt Becky today. She said that her and John were having a great time and that the weather was sunny and in the 70's. I am so happy for them. I think that she is just so at peace being in South America. I miss talking to her like we usually do a couple times a week but I will be chatting with her in roughly 3 weeks. I wonder if you have gone to her and she has seen you yet?? Can't wait to find out. She usually tells me when she has a visit from you. It is always so nice to hear! Makes me smile to know that you are on the other side and that you are happy.
I really miss you. I miss you so much. I wish you could know just how much I really do. No words could and can express it though. I love you beyond words. I love you with all my heart and soul. Facebook just did this thing today where they show you a movie video that they did of your profile. I viewed mine and I thought it came out wonderful. You don't choose anything.. it is all done on their end. My movie video had a ton of pictures of you and Mom. One of you and Brandy, and a couple of Mark & I. It was great. It actually made me tear up a bit. The memories of all the good times we all had. In some cases that is all I have are just memories and it makes me so sad. It hurts like hell and I hate it. I am trying so hard to make you proud. To show you that I can be strong through this. Some days are just better than others. Bare with me, Tyler. Please help me out. I still need you. I will always need you!
I hope that you will have a peaceful evening tonight. May it be all that you want and need it to be. Please continue to watch over all our family, loved ones and friends. I will whisper to you again when I walk the pups for the last time. Hope you will hear me. I miss you my sweet precious son. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. Forever!!!
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Monday, February 3, 2014
Dear Tyler,
Hi pumpkin! How are you on this Monday evening? I hope you are happy and well up there in Heaven. Mom is doing ok. Had a few tough days & nights these last couple weeks but I would like to think that I am getting it out of my system so that I will start feeling better in a couple days. The flu is really hitting everyone everywhere and it hits fast and stays for a few days and then comes back. It has been a rough Winter so far between the cold temps, the large amounts of snow, and all the illnesses. It is just crazy!
Hope you went and visited Meme today as it was her Birthday. I know she would love to know that you are around and watching over her. Sounds like it was a good day all around. We sent her a bouquet of flowers with a balloon and had them delivered at work and Bob gave Meme a nice card and made a nice dinner. She was surprised by it all. It was good for her. She deserves it and it made me happy to now she had a nice day!
Mom had a busy day. Spent the morning on the phone with a friend that needed someone to talk to as she is going through a difficult time. Then I went and had my hair highlighted, got home and swept the floor, mopped it, took out the trash and did laundry. Even had a chance to talk to Grandpa & Debbie too. Made dinner and now I am relaxing for the evening and writing my letter to you.
I did talk to 2 more people on the phone today as well. I spoke to your Dad. He called to get some info but also to see how I was doing. Don't talk to him much anymore but he still keeps in touch every few weeks. We talk about you and I can hear the pain in his voice and how much he misses you too. Guess he is going for a Sheriff's job. I wish him luck. He would be great at that job plus he would be taking after his Dad and your Grandpa Ed.
The other person I spoke to was Cindy, Jeremy's Mom. Didn't speak long because of the Doctor's going in to chat with her. What she did tell me was that he is weak, his vent is not working correctly and that there are a few medical issues going on. He is in a lethargic state. Cindy said that she was finding it difficult and hard to deal with it all because she has always been able to interact with Jeremy and now at this time she can not. Made me so sad and my heart hurt to hear this. I know exactly how she feels. Jeremy is at the same hospital that you passed away at. He is in the ICU just as you were. I again feel helpless for Cindy & Jeremy. I wish I was closer to them so I could help out. Please go and be with them both. I know you watch over them but I just need to ask you. Thanks Tyler. I know Jeremy was like a brother to you. He feels the same way. Please have Ron go with you and watch over him too. The 3 Amigos have to stick together, right?
Again... the evening sky is cloudy and no stars are shining that we can see. I know you are though just like you always are. I miss you so much. I know you are the brightest one up there watching over Mom & the rest of our family & friends. I hope you have a wonderful night. Flying high & flying free. May it be peaceful & all you want it to be my sweet precious son...Mom's Angel from above. I love you beyond any words could ever say.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Hi pumpkin! How are you on this Monday evening? I hope you are happy and well up there in Heaven. Mom is doing ok. Had a few tough days & nights these last couple weeks but I would like to think that I am getting it out of my system so that I will start feeling better in a couple days. The flu is really hitting everyone everywhere and it hits fast and stays for a few days and then comes back. It has been a rough Winter so far between the cold temps, the large amounts of snow, and all the illnesses. It is just crazy!
Hope you went and visited Meme today as it was her Birthday. I know she would love to know that you are around and watching over her. Sounds like it was a good day all around. We sent her a bouquet of flowers with a balloon and had them delivered at work and Bob gave Meme a nice card and made a nice dinner. She was surprised by it all. It was good for her. She deserves it and it made me happy to now she had a nice day!
Mom had a busy day. Spent the morning on the phone with a friend that needed someone to talk to as she is going through a difficult time. Then I went and had my hair highlighted, got home and swept the floor, mopped it, took out the trash and did laundry. Even had a chance to talk to Grandpa & Debbie too. Made dinner and now I am relaxing for the evening and writing my letter to you.
I did talk to 2 more people on the phone today as well. I spoke to your Dad. He called to get some info but also to see how I was doing. Don't talk to him much anymore but he still keeps in touch every few weeks. We talk about you and I can hear the pain in his voice and how much he misses you too. Guess he is going for a Sheriff's job. I wish him luck. He would be great at that job plus he would be taking after his Dad and your Grandpa Ed.
The other person I spoke to was Cindy, Jeremy's Mom. Didn't speak long because of the Doctor's going in to chat with her. What she did tell me was that he is weak, his vent is not working correctly and that there are a few medical issues going on. He is in a lethargic state. Cindy said that she was finding it difficult and hard to deal with it all because she has always been able to interact with Jeremy and now at this time she can not. Made me so sad and my heart hurt to hear this. I know exactly how she feels. Jeremy is at the same hospital that you passed away at. He is in the ICU just as you were. I again feel helpless for Cindy & Jeremy. I wish I was closer to them so I could help out. Please go and be with them both. I know you watch over them but I just need to ask you. Thanks Tyler. I know Jeremy was like a brother to you. He feels the same way. Please have Ron go with you and watch over him too. The 3 Amigos have to stick together, right?
Again... the evening sky is cloudy and no stars are shining that we can see. I know you are though just like you always are. I miss you so much. I know you are the brightest one up there watching over Mom & the rest of our family & friends. I hope you have a wonderful night. Flying high & flying free. May it be peaceful & all you want it to be my sweet precious son...Mom's Angel from above. I love you beyond any words could ever say.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Sunday, February 2, 2014
Dear Tyler,
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Sunday evening? I hope that it is warm & sunny were you are because it is everything but here. It is cold, damp, and rainy. Just a blah day. So today is Groundhog Day and yep you guess it... the dang rodent has predicted 6 more weeks of Winter. Everyone up North is a little angry at this. They have had such a cold bitter Winter this year. I feel bad for them. We have had cold temps but nothing like they are having that's for sure. Today is also Superbowl Sunday. I am watching the 3rd quarter as I am writing your letter. It is Seattle Seahawks vs Denver Broncos.. it is not game.. it is a slaughter. The score right now is 29 -0. The commercials sucked this year too. The only thing so far that is great was the Half Time Show. It was Bruno Mars and Red Hot Chili Peppers. It was good, clean and one of the better ones in a very long time. I was impressed! Anyways...
Today was a pretty basic day for Mom. Din't do to much because of the weather. It was raining so hard that we couldn't even go for our usual long walk with the pups. We kind of just didn't do anything all day. Did however play a game of Chess and I won. I think I am getting the hang of it. Mark says that I am doing really good. I told him I had a good teacher in both him and you :). I really like playing Chess and I regret that I was never able to learn it with you. I would have loved the chance to play with you. It would have been an Honor. You were such a great player. I know you see me play and you are proud of me!
Mom hasn't been feeling well again and I have been in the bathroom most of the night. Went in and the score was 29 -0 still...came out and it is 43 - 8. Wow... is all I can say. Not a good night for Broncos fans! 11 minutes left of the game... my guess is that Seattle is going to win...lol! I really wish that you were here so we could be chatting abut this. I know you would have so much to say! You also were so good at picking the Football Teams and such. I remember all the time I would hear you yelling at the tv during the game. It still to this day makes me smile & laugh. I just wish you were here. I miss you so much, Tyler. More than I could ever express to you or anyone. It is just not possible for anyone to know how I feel.
I won't be able to see the stars tonight due to the clouds and overcast sky. I know you will be shining so bright up there and if you could you would let me see you. I will be whispering to you as I always do. Be listening for Mom. I love you so much. Please continue to watch over us all. Thank you for all you do. That you for being you my sweet precious son. You continue to amaze me daily. Keep up the great job in Heaven. Tell everyone hello for me. I miss them too.
I hope you have a wonderful night. Sweet dreams. I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Sunday evening? I hope that it is warm & sunny were you are because it is everything but here. It is cold, damp, and rainy. Just a blah day. So today is Groundhog Day and yep you guess it... the dang rodent has predicted 6 more weeks of Winter. Everyone up North is a little angry at this. They have had such a cold bitter Winter this year. I feel bad for them. We have had cold temps but nothing like they are having that's for sure. Today is also Superbowl Sunday. I am watching the 3rd quarter as I am writing your letter. It is Seattle Seahawks vs Denver Broncos.. it is not game.. it is a slaughter. The score right now is 29 -0. The commercials sucked this year too. The only thing so far that is great was the Half Time Show. It was Bruno Mars and Red Hot Chili Peppers. It was good, clean and one of the better ones in a very long time. I was impressed! Anyways...
Today was a pretty basic day for Mom. Din't do to much because of the weather. It was raining so hard that we couldn't even go for our usual long walk with the pups. We kind of just didn't do anything all day. Did however play a game of Chess and I won. I think I am getting the hang of it. Mark says that I am doing really good. I told him I had a good teacher in both him and you :). I really like playing Chess and I regret that I was never able to learn it with you. I would have loved the chance to play with you. It would have been an Honor. You were such a great player. I know you see me play and you are proud of me!
Mom hasn't been feeling well again and I have been in the bathroom most of the night. Went in and the score was 29 -0 still...came out and it is 43 - 8. Wow... is all I can say. Not a good night for Broncos fans! 11 minutes left of the game... my guess is that Seattle is going to win...lol! I really wish that you were here so we could be chatting abut this. I know you would have so much to say! You also were so good at picking the Football Teams and such. I remember all the time I would hear you yelling at the tv during the game. It still to this day makes me smile & laugh. I just wish you were here. I miss you so much, Tyler. More than I could ever express to you or anyone. It is just not possible for anyone to know how I feel.
I won't be able to see the stars tonight due to the clouds and overcast sky. I know you will be shining so bright up there and if you could you would let me see you. I will be whispering to you as I always do. Be listening for Mom. I love you so much. Please continue to watch over us all. Thank you for all you do. That you for being you my sweet precious son. You continue to amaze me daily. Keep up the great job in Heaven. Tell everyone hello for me. I miss them too.
I hope you have a wonderful night. Sweet dreams. I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Saturday, February 1, 2014
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