Dear Tyler,

Hi sweetheart! How are you doing on this cold and rainy overcast day? Mom is doing ok. Bonnie is still here visiting us until tomorrow. She is leaving on Thursday afternoon and it is going to be a sad occasion. I have enjoyed having company and someone to talk to all the time while Mark is at work. Having Bonnie here has been just like old times when she was living with us back in NH. I hope that she will come back for a visit really soon. I hope that other family and friends will come visit us soon too. I sure do miss everyone so much but I miss you the most. I can't believe that you have left Mom and this world 8 months and 6 days ago. I hate it. I hate not having you here with me and the rest of our family and friends. Some days I just want to scream to the sky and the world for taking you away so soon. It just is not fair but I am trying to be an adult and understand that you were here for a reason and purposes and you met them and now you were returned back to our Lord and his home that is now yours. I just wish I could talk to you, see your face, and see your smile. I just want you back. I want you home with me. I want to see you grow up into a older man and enjoy seeing you live a life that you want. I am so angry that all of this was taken away from you and from me. I am trying so hard not to have the feelings and thoughts that I do but I just can't help it. Some days are just easier than others for Mom. Guess this is just a rough day for me. I am sorry.
 I was hoping that I would be able to see clear skies tonight so that I could see the stars shining bright and see you up there watching over me but that is not going to happen as it has been raining all day and it is really cold and crappy weather. I do know that even though it is like this.. you will be shining brightly. Please continue to watch over us all. Keep us safe and healthy. 
 Please tell everyone in Heaven that I love them and miss them too. Give them big hugs for me. Oh yeah.. Can you do me a favor and be with your cousin Nancy tomorrow as she is going through a very scary surgery. She is having part of her Thyroid removed. The mass that is on there is also near her vocal cords. She has a 50 - 50 chance of waking up not be able to ever talk again or she can wake up and be just fine. Can you be with her and make sure that all goes well and she wakes up talking and that it is not cancer. I am worried for her. Thank you Tyler. 
 Sweet dreams my precious son. I miss you so much and I love you beyond anything in this world. Listen for me to whisper to you tonight. Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!