Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you on this Tuesday evening? I hope all is well with you up in Heaven tonight. Mom is doing ok. Been another busy day for me today. I actually got up, took a shower, and I went to the store all by myself without even hesitating. It felt great. I got home and had some lunch and then did a few things on the computer for Grandpa. Spent the night cooking dinner, doing dishes and talking to Bean, Meme, and Marion on the phone. Now I am writing to you. 
 I got the nicest surprise when I took the pups out. It was cold and heavy rain all day today so when I opened the door and walked out I looked to the sky and saw the stars shining brightly. I whispered to you... did you hear Mom? It made me smile because I was not expecting it at all. I know you are always shining brightly in the sky but it was just so nice to finally see it after so many nights of not being able to. I am hoping I get to see the stars the rest of the week but I know it is suppose to rain like all week here. I will keep my fingers crossed that I do. If not I again know that you are always up there shining brightly. Thanks for the sweet surprise tonight. It really made my evening!
 I received an email from Aunt Becky today. She said that her and John were having a great time and that the weather was sunny and in the 70's. I am so happy for them. I think that she is just so at peace being in South America. I miss talking to her like we usually do a couple times a week but I will be chatting with her in roughly 3 weeks. I wonder if you have gone to her and she has seen you yet?? Can't wait to find out. She usually tells me when she has a visit from you. It is always so nice to hear! Makes me smile to know that you are on the other side and that you are happy. 
 I really miss you. I miss you so much. I wish you could know just how much I really do. No words could and can express it though. I love you beyond words. I love you with all my heart and soul. Facebook just did this thing today where they show you a movie video that they did of your profile. I viewed mine and I thought it came out wonderful. You don't choose anything.. it is all done on their end. My movie video had a ton of pictures of you and Mom. One of you and Brandy, and a couple of Mark & I. It was great. It actually made me tear up a bit. The memories of all the good times we all had. In some cases that is all I have are just memories and it makes me so sad. It hurts like hell and I hate it. I am trying so hard to make you proud. To show you that I can be strong through this. Some days are just better than others. Bare with me, Tyler. Please help me out. I still need you. I will always need you!
 I hope that you will have a peaceful evening tonight. May it be all that you want and need it to be. Please continue to watch over all our family, loved ones and friends. I will whisper to you again when I walk the pups for the last time. Hope you will hear me. I miss you my sweet precious son. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. Forever!!! 
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!