Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet Angel in Heaven. How are you doing on this Thursday afternoon? I hope that you are so happy. Mom is again so sorry that I didn't write to you last night. I am still feeling quite tough. Last night was another rough night for me. I miss writing to you and when I can't I don't feel as close to you as I do when I am writing to you nightly. I know it might sound crazy but it is just how I feel. Today is a much better day for me. I am finally starting to feel like me again. My stomach is doing well right now. I am making sure I am drinking lots of fluids and eating meals but not so much all at once. Every one I know is getting this stomach bug and it is so nasty and rough on the body not to mention it lasts for awhile. 
 Today the weather is just so beautiful. It is blue skies, no clouds and it is about 65 degrees outside. It is so nice to finally see the sun after 10 days of cloudy, cold, and overcast rainy days. NH is getting hit really hard again with  major snow storm. They are calling it Storm Nemo and it is suppose to be a really big Blizzard. Lots of snow, ice, and the worst one in years. I heard from Meme today and she told me that she didn't go to work because of the weather. I was so happy to hear that. I just hope that Grandpa & Debbie are safe ( and all our other family & friends that have to drive too. ) Can I ask you a favor.. can you please watch over everyone for Mom. I worry about every one I care about and seeings how I can not be there in person... I need my Angel Family to watch over them. Thank you so much Tyler. The things you do to help Mom out is just so amazing and incredible. It makes me feel so special and privileged to have you watching over me & others from above. 
 Everything else going on with Mom is the same. Just trying to get better. Wanting to start working out again and I am hoping I can start back up in a couple weeks. I am also trying to help some friends that are having some trouble in their lives. I am hoping to give them some advice because I have been there in their shoes. I am trying my best to do all kinds of things to better my life. I am trying to be less stressed at things, trying not to have drama in my life and I am just trying to live " simple ." I am trying to do all that I can to get by without you here with me. It is a day to day struggle for me. People may see me laugh and smile and having a good time but deep down I am hurting. My heart is crushed and in pain. I miss you so much. I look at your pictures all the time and I get tears in my eyes. I immediately start remember our times together and it makes me smile and happy but sad because we don't get to have anymore. I wish there was a way that you could help me out and tell me what I could do and what is the best way to mend my broken heart. I don't know what to do. Some days are good and then some days I am just so lost. I don't know what to do with my life let alone what to do with myself. I find there are more days that I am depressed again. I need to get out of this " funk " so if there is anything you can do on your side to help Mom out that would be great. 
 Tomorrow is Valentines Day and this will be my first year that I won't be able to ask you if you would be my Valentine in person. This makes me so sad. I would ask you every year and you would tell me yes and give me a kiss on the cheek. It meant so much. I will be asking you again so be listening for Mom. I love you so much my sweet son. You still are the most precious person to me. 
 I am hoping that this evening the stars will be shining brightly. I will be looking and wanting to see you up in the Heavens. I will whisper to you as I always do. Be listening for me tonight too. I love you so much. All the way around the world and back. Sweet dreams pumpkin. 
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!