Dear Tyler,

Hi sweetie! How are you doing today? I hope that you are doing wonderful up in Heaven! Mom is doing ok today. I had a kind of down day after 2 days of running around. I made a brunch for Mark & I and then did those dishes, took a shower after that I got on my computer to do some things, then I spoke to Auntie Kristina on the phone for awhile. Now I am writing my daily letter to you. 
 It is early evening right now. I am sitting at the table and the sun is shining in because it is setting. It is so bright. A yellow/ orange sunset tonight. It is cool outside but it is very pretty. The night sky will be coming in about an hour so I am keeping my fingers crossed that the stars will be shining brightly so I can see them. The sky was clear when I took the pups out about a 1/2 hour ago. I hope I get to see you up there!
 Boy, In NH and in New England they are getting slammed with snow again. The updates that I keep getting is that it has been snowing all day and they have about 1 foot of snow right now. Some places they are getting ice on top of it. Just a nasty winter storm. I know folks were saying that there was another coming this weekend too. That one is suppose to dump more snow then this one today. They were estimating that these 2 storms would be close to 3 to 4 feet. Just crazy! I just hope that our loved ones and friends are safe on the road and get home safely. Are you missing the snow, I wonder??? I know we both used to think it was so pretty when it was falling on the trees and yard. It was a fluffy blanket of snow that looked like marshmallows. I know I miss seeing it but I do not miss shoveling it. I don't miss dealing with a furnace and running out of fuel in the middle of the night. I do miss the 4 Seasons though. I miss you and I miss sharing it with you. I miss our walks and our talks, I miss our laughs and our fights. I miss everything about you!
 This morning I had a nightmare. It scared me so bad. It was about you. I won't go into details about it but I will say that it was so real that I jumped out of bed and ran to go to you. I realized where I was and that it was indeed a nightmare. I then realized that you were no longer here with me. I started to cry. I did fall back to sleep only to wake up and remember the ordeal and I started to cry again. Some days are just so hard not being able to see you and talk to you. Other days are difficult too but I can handle them. This morning was not one of those days. I hope wherever you are and whatever you are doing you are safe and happy all the time. I hope that the other side gets to see those long big brown eyes & the long eyelashes that you had and they get to see your sweet smile. That wonderful beautiful smile that I miss so damn much. 
 The sun is now setting and it is really pretty setting behind the trees here. I bet you get to see beautiful sunsets and sunrises, huh? I hope that you have a wonderful evening that is filled with peace, blessings, love & happiness. Please tell all of our family & Mom's friends in Heaven that I miss them and I love them dearly. I think of everyone daily. I think of you Tyler all the time. Every minute of every hour of every day and sometimes more! I love you pumpkin with all my heart and soul. 
 I miss you like crazy. Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!