Dear Tyler,

Hello sweetheart! How are you doing today on this Saturday evening in Heaven? I hope that you are happy as ever and you are so busy. May you be flying high and flying free today and tonight. 
 Mom is doing better today. The weather has just been so warm and beautiful. No rain in the last few days so that has been such a nice treat for us here. Yesterday was a tough day for me. Mark & I decided that we were going to rearrange the office so I was moving stuff around and dusting everything.... came to a point where I needed to put some things away in the wicker trunk and that is when I saw it.... your blue fleece blanket you use to lay your head against. At first I picked it up and touched it..smiled and set it down. Mark came into the room and I showed him what I found. I picked it up again and told him it still smelled like you. I placed it down and lost it. Had a huge meltdown. I cried as Mark held me and just listened for a few minutes. He then started to tell me something funny you would say and I started to smile and laugh. Some days are harder than others that is for sure. I miss you every day! It hurts so much still. Mark told me that I would have meltdowns every so often. I told him he was right but what he didn't know is that I have mini ones every day when no one is around me and I am alone. I know you probably see them and that is ok. I just need you to know I am trying..really I am. 
 Thank you for the stars shining brightly last night. I couldn't see many but I saw a few and that was good enough for me. I smiled and whispered to you. Hope you heard me chatting away! I hope that I get the chance to see the stars tonight as well. I know the clouds are rolling in because we are suppose to be getting some rain the next 2 days. Either way as usual.. I will chatting and whispering to you as I always do. Hope you will be listening for Mom.
 Spoke to Meme tonight. Guess things are the same there for her and Bob. Makes me so sad to hear. I wish I could do more for them but I can't. Please go and be with them. I know they need you badly. Thanks Ty. I also spoke to Grandpa Friday evening. He said that things are well with him and Debbie so that was nice to hear. Guess we are going to try and skype with them soon. I sure hope so. I miss them bunches. I can't wait to see them in 57 days. I do have to say it will be bittersweet for Mom. It will be hard to go back because I have not been to NH since you passed. I promise to come visit you every day for a bit. I really want to even though I know I do not have to go to the cemetery to chat with you because you are not there. As you know I chat with you all the time... day or night. I think of you all the time and wonder what special things you are doing. What other family members are doing. So many questions.... guess it really is time to have another session with Forrest. I keep saying it but I just need to have the money and make the call or send him an email. 
 I hope that you have a peaceful and relaxing night in the Heavens above. Please watch over us all. Thank you for all you do for us. I love you so much. To the moon and back and all the way around the world. Forever. Sweet dreams my precious son.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!