Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! I hope you are well on this Friday afternoon. Today is Good Friday and I bet there is one heck of a celebration going on in Heaven. Guess you get to have front row seats for this coming Easter on Sunday with the Lord himself. Many would say you are lucky and I agree but I sure do wish you were here with me and we were celebrating it together. Holidays are so different for me these days. Before when you were with me the Holidays were just a fun and joyous time to spend with family and friends. Lots of laughs, food, and relaxation. Now they are basically just another day for Mark & I. We are so far away from any of our families that it not worth it to celebrate any of them. We don't do anything.. we treat it like a weekend day and do nothing. That is sad but honestly it is fine with me. I miss you so much. On Easter Sunday it will be exactly 10 months since you left us in the physical world. Just another reason to dislike it. I know that is not the way you want Mom to be thinking and feeling but I can not help it. My emotions just are so raw during the middle of every month. The nightmares and the horror is brought all back to me with the phone calls, the plane ride, and the worst... losing you. I have such night terrors. I try like hell to not have them and think happy thoughts but it does not work. If you can help me out with this I would greatly appreciate it. Thank you pumpkin!
 Not much has been going on with me. Yesterday I did not feel good. I had a slight fever all day and night. I went to bed pretty early and slept for a few hours here and there. I do feel better today. Got up early this morning and I did my workout. Did some housework and now I am writing to you. Pretty boring huh? Welcome to my life..lol!
 In about an hour I will be getting dinner ready and vegging out in front of the tv for the evening and then heading to bed. We have our dog sitter for a couple hours tomorrow so we will get a chance to go out and have what I hope is some fun. 
 The stars were not out last night but the moon was sure bright again. I looked to the sky and whispered to you. Sure hope you heard Mom. I will be looking again tonight. I hope I get to see them. The sky is pretty clear today so my fingers are crossed. I will be whispering to you so be listening for me. I miss you beyond anything and any words that I could ever express. The hole in my heart is so huge. I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. It will always be you & I for the world now... as you put it!
 Have a peaceful and restful evening my precious son. Sweet dreams. Forever in my mind and heart. Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!