Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son in Heaven! How are you doing today on this beautiful sunny Tuesday afternoon? I hope all is well for you and you are doing all that you want in the sky above. Mom is doing just fine. The weather today is warm, breezy, and super sunny. It i such a nice change from the rainy weather that we have been having. 
 I saw the stars shining brightly last night. It was such a nice surprise after not seeing them for a few nights. I automatically got a huge smile across my face. I whispered to you. I know you shine brightly every night whether I see you or not but it is always so nice to see it for myself. I miss you so much and I love you to the moon & back.
 Mom is still on her routine... wake up, do housework, do my 1 hour workout routine, shower, take dogs for their first walk, make lunch for Mark & I and then the rest of the day is to do what I want. Mostly it is preparing for our trip to NH, our Wedding and then our Honeymoon. I like to stay as active as I can. I am really starting to feel better and healthy. My clothes are fitting my better so I know I have lost a few pounds and inches. I am going to bed earlier and getting up at almost the same time as always now. It is definitely helping me. Staying on a routine is good for me. Working out is keeping me from a lot of sadness and depression. I am on my way to a better me. I plan on continuing too! I am proud of myself and I hope you are proud too..smiling down on Mom.
 I have to tell you that this morning I received a call from Crotched Mtn. When I saw the number come across the telephone my heart just sank. It was someone telling me that you have money there and they needed to make sure they could release it. I told them yes. It was so hard talking to someone there. I think I almost vomited in my mouth that is how much my stomach hurt. I don't know if I will ever be able to not feel that way about that facility. I don't want to feel the way I do but I can't help it. Maybe in time it will change but I am not counting on it or holding my breath. 
 Everything else seems to be smooth for our family & friends. That is a good thing. I miss them and will be seeing them in 41 days. Just wish I would be going there to spend time with you. I wish I could go see you and give you hugs and kisses. I wish to see your face, hear your voice, and see that beautiful smile again. You are missed so much by so many family and friends. It makes me feel good that your memory lives on in so many of us here in the physical world.
 Hope I get to see the stars tonight.. I will be whispering you to you as I always do. Hope you will be listening for Mom and that you hear me. May you have a wonderful afternoon..what is left of it and a restful and peaceful evening. May you have sweet dreams. Fly high and fly free my sweet precious son. 
 I love you, Always..Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!