Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son. How are you doing on this Wednesday evening? I hope that you are so happy. I am sure you are doing all that you want and you are flying high and flying freely. Mom is doing well. Today was a pretty good day. Been getting up early in hopes that it makes me go to bed early. I have changed a few things in my life style. I am working out for 1 hour 6 days a week, I am not eating fast food, drinking soda, no snacking at night time anymore, & no eating junk food. I am eating fruit, veggies, granola bars, fruit chews and no sodium rice cakes with peanut butter along with meat, chicken & fish. I have little bread, pasta, and potatoes. I feel so much better and I have a ton of energy now. My clothes are fitting looser and I am extremely happy about this. Mark has started a new work out routine and he is sore but getting into it again. He is eating healthier as well. I am very proud of him.
 Spoke to Meme for awhile tonight. She seems to be doing well too. Bob is doing ok. He has a doctors app't at the end of the month so I hope he gets good news. He is such a great guy and doesn't deserve what he is getting. I pray every night for all our family, friends, and their families. I just hope I am helping in some small way. She loves her VW Beetle car. I am so happy for her. I think it was a great move on her part to buy it! I will be seeing it in about 7 weeks. I can't wait to see everyone. I miss them. I know I have said it before but I am going to say it again... I wish I was going home to see you. I wish I could just pick up the phone and call you. I just want to see your face and hear your voice. I want to give you kisses and tell you I love you and to hear you say you love me. I miss you so much Tyler. I say it all the time.
 I was looking at old pictures and remembering the times when they were taken. Remembering the memories. It made me smile but also made me shed some tears. This just sucks that you had to go. My heart hurts so much every day. I hate this feeling. Some days I am just so lost and confused and other days I am just sad and lost. I try so hard to stay positive but some days are just so trying for Mom. I want to make you proud of me but I still need to stay true to myself and grieve. I hope I make you proud. I love you.
 Thank you for the bright stars that were shining so bright last night in the sky. I whispered to you so I hope you heard me. The moon was beautiful. I didn't get the chance to see the Lunar Eclipse or Red Moon here but it was so big and so bright. I smiled because I knew you were up there watching over Mom & Mark. Please continue to watch over us all. I thank you for all you do and thank the rest of the Angels that help. I will be walking the pups one more time tonight so I hope to see the stars. I will whisper to you as I always do. Hope you will be listening for me again. 
 Have a restful & peaceful evening in the Heavens above. Sweet dreams my sweet precious son. I miss you like crazy. I love you with all my heart & soul. 
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!