Dear Tyler,

Hi sweetheart! How are you doing this evening? I hope all is well with you in the Heavens above. May you be happy as can be while flying high and free. Mom is doing just fine. I have has a lot on my plate with getting getting things set for Marion & Charlie's wedding, getting things set for our wedding, getting things in order to get my license renewed and going to get a new social security card because mine was stolen out of my wallet. Things are just a mess right now. I still need to find flights to NH that are within reason that we can afford and I still have a ton of stuff to do for our wedding. I know I can do it all. It just takes more time than I would like it to. I can't really complain though because it does keep me very busy during the day when Mark is working and I am alone. It keeps my mind from thinking. I find that days that I am not busy and doing things I am very emotional and tend to cry very easy. I miss you so much. Days are so hard and the nights are harder for me again. I just want to pick up the telephone and call  you or grab my tablet and skype with you. I miss your voice and your smile so much. This is so hard for me. I know you see me smiling and laughing but I know you also can see behind all that and see just how sad and crushed I really am. I am trying..really I am. I want you to know this. I want to make you proud of me as I am so proud of you. I know seeing all of us here in the physical world living life smiling and laughing helps you to learn and grow on the spiritual side and I would never do anything to jeopardize or hold you back. I want you to be everything you can. I want you to do all the things you have to and want to for our Lord and for yourself. Please just try to understand.. which I believe I know you do..just how dang hard it is for Mom. I miss my son. I miss my life..my whole world. I love you so much!
 Sunday night up in NH the weather was really bad. Sleet & freezing rain I was told. Monday morning plastered all over facebook was a friend of Mom's daughter was killed in an car accident. I didn't know the daughter personally but I cried for my friend. I cried because that was her only child. She stated that her daughter was her whole world. Everything that I have been grieving for the past 9 months she is just starting out. The hell on a day to day basis. My heart just goes out to her. I know just how she feels losing the one thing that made her entire life. You were and her daughter was hers. Just so sad.
 Everything else is good. Spoke to Meme and Grandpa tonight. Everything is good there. Guess Bob is doing a little better. I sure hope so. I worry about our family and friends. I miss them too. Aunt Becky must be in South America by now. It is 7:30 pm where I am so it must be later than that there. I hope they had a safe flight. Guess things are not good near Chile. A major earthquake touched down .. 8 on the rector scale that left several injured and some lost their lives. I hope they will be ok. Watch over them for us so that they come back home to the States safely. Thank you Tyler. Please watch over the rest of our family and friends too. I always ask for your guidance and help nightly. I hope you hear me. 
 I am sure that the stars will not be out tonight as it has been cloudy and overcast most of today. The winds were high but 80 degrees out. I looked last night to see the stars and not a single one. I still whispered to you. I will do it again tonight just like I always do. I hope you have a peaceful evening. May you have sweet dreams in Heaven. I miss you and love you with all my heart and soul...Forever!
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!