Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing this afternoon? Mom is doing well. Been up early this morning & I have done quite a bit. Lots of housework, laundry, made 2 loaves of banana bread & mopped the floors & vacuumed the carpets. I am tired now. I am too old for this crap...lol! I wanted to write to you now before I started dinner because I knew that once I was done with that I would be wiped right out & probably going to bed early. We have workers coming to fix the apartment tomorrow as well. Nothing is wrong in ours but I guess there is a leak in the downstairs one that we lived in & the leak is coming from our shower in the master bedroom. Hope it is an easy fix. Glad we don't have to pay for it!
 Just spoke to Bean. She is doing well. She was driving home from work. Joe is finally back from his 7 or 8 weeks in Las Vegas so she is happy about that. Guess things are well & she is happy. She at least sounds it  = ] I know you watch over her all the time. You were always protective of Bean. Make sure you let her know you are there, but don't scare her! Spoke to Meme & Bob yesterday. Guess things are still pretty rough there. Breaks my heart that Bob is going through all this stuff. Like you, he doesn't deserve any of it. Please make sure to be with them both along with Grandpa, Debbie, & the rest of our family & friends. Make sure to be with & watch over Mom & Mark too. Always need you near me...always!
 So I started a " daily dog picture " on here. I hope you are enjoying the puppy pictures. I know how much you loved all kinds of animals. I am going to keep that going but I am also going to post all kinds of pics of cute & adorable animals to your letters. I can hear you know asking me if we can have them all  = ] Of course my answer would be YES!!! Well all kinds except reptiles! I know you are reading this & laughing... you can stop anytime now! Oh how I remember you teasing me with that fear of mine. I would do anything to have you tease Mom again... just not with those nasty creatures...lol!
 I wanted to let you know that I have this book called " Prayers For Every Day ". I was thinking that when I write my letters to you that I could write the daily prayer as well. I think it is a great idea & I hope you do as well. I know that you were really getting into your Faith before you passed away so I thought this would be something to add to the blog, your letters that was Spiritual. With that said... Today is August 18, 2014:
 The Almighty.... will bless you with his blessings of Heaven above. Father in Heaven when I count my blessings, I am overwhelmed with the sheer number of gifts you have given me. My friends, my family, the world around me, the air that I breathe, & the bed in which I lay my head each night- all these things are testaments to your greatness & generosity. Please let me continue to daily count my blessings so that I may always be reminded of how much you love me, and how good you are.
 Such a nice thing to read & write to you. This book has prayers in it for every day of the year. I wish I would have had this book when you were alive because it is something that we could have read nightly together & taken turns talking about the meanings. I miss you so much Tyler. I miss everything about you & all that we used to do together. Not 1 day is easy for Mom. These last 13 months & 18 days have been the toughest for me. I get angry, I get sad, I cry, I scream but I know none of that is going to bring you back. My heart hurts so much & the void is big... no one will ever fill it..ever! I know I am never really without you as you are always near Mom, but not in the way I want it to be. I love you Tyler.
 Well, the weather here has been hot, humid, & muggy with thunderstorms through out the day. I hope that the skies will be clear so I can see the moon & stars shining brightly. Even if I don't I know that you are up there somewhere doing great things & enjoying the peace that you now have. I will whisper to you as I always do. Hope you can hear Mom. You are forever in my heart, mind & soul. Have a wonderful evening & sweet dreams my precious son.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!