Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son. How are you doing this evening in the Heaven's above? I hope that you are doing everything you want to do & you are so happy! Mom actually had a really good day today with Mark. We went out shopping & had lots of fun getting things for the loft & for the wedding. We also did grocery shopping but that is ok... it needed to be done! Tomorrow we have more shopping to do & a skype call with Mark's Dad & Step Mom. I sure do miss skyping with you 2 to 3 times a day. Oh how I miss the sound of your voice & your wonderful smile. I miss you so much Tyler. I can't even put it into words just how much I miss you. My life will never be the same again no matter how I try, no matter how many times I smile or how many times I laugh. I will never be the same person ever again. I really am trying so that you don't get mad at me. I know you don't want me to grieve for you anymore because you are better off but that is easier said than done. I think I will grieve the rest of my life because I don't have you. It is the hardest thing ever to live without you. It just sucks!
 Anyways.... There is a challenge going around called " The Ice Bucket Challenge" to raise awareness for ALS. I was nominated by Auntie Kristi & I did mine yesterday & I nominated Mark to do it & he did his a few hours ago. What you do is take ice cold water & put ice cubes in a bucket & dump it over your head. If you accept the challenge you also have to donate $10.00 to ALS & if you don't accept it or don't do it within 24 hours you have to donate $100.00 to ALS. Lots of Mom's friends have done it & donated their $10.00 which is awesome. When I did mine I dedicated it to Ron... 1 of your Amigos. Please share that with him so he knows that "  Momma T  " was thinking of him as I was doing it. I miss him too. It is pretty funny to watch friends, family, celebrities, & strangers do this for such a wonderful cause. Hope they are raising lots of money for research! 
 There is another challenge going around now as well. Guess it just started to raise awareness for suicide in honor of Robin Williams passing this week. I wonder how that will do because you have to take a cake & smash it in your face. I think it would be fun... hope I get nominated for this too... anything to help causes out! I will keep you posted on this one...lol  = ]
 We went to a store that Mom likes called Garden Ridge. It is a place where you can get home decor for your house. It is a great place. You would have liked it. Lots of Halloween & Christmas stuff already up. I ended up getting these glass cylinders with 2 black & 2 white floating candles to put in them with some blue stones for the wedding. These will be the memorial candles that will be lit the entire time until they burn out for you, Amy, & Mark's Mom & Dad. I think it is very simple but classy & elegant all at the same time. I hope you will like them. You men will have the black & the ladies will have the white. I hope Mom & Mark will make you proud that day. I would do anything to see your smile & for you to be there so I can see you. 
 Got a phone call that Max's ashes were ready to pick up. Only took 4 weeks to get them to us. We got to the place & saw that they gave us the wrong Urn for him. We wanted a black ceramic vase & we got a wooden box. They are going to make the necessary changes for us. Hope it doesn't take too long. We are also going to get Daisy's ashes put into one as well so that they match instead of that wooden box that her ashes are in. I think that would make you very happy. The place who cremated Max gave us a paw print of him. It is so nice & sweet of them to do. It made me smile. Today is 1 month since we lost him. We miss him every day but I truly believe that he is with you along with Daisy, Baxter, Spencer, Ziggy, Snapples & Friskie. Give them all big hugs & kisses for me.
 Well it is night fall & the sky is dark. Hopefully when I walk Snickers I will get to see the stars & moon shining brightly. I will whisper to you regardless. I hope you hear me. I love you with all my heart & soul. Always have & always will. Have a peaceful night my sweet precious son. Fly high & fly freely. Sweet dreams & know you are forever in my heart, mind, & soul.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!