Dear Tyler,

Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this Sunday evening. I hope that all is well with you & you have had a very busy day. Mom is doing a little better today. I have a few bad days like I was telling you in the last letter. I just had no desire to do anything, talk to anyone, or go anywhere. I was really hurt, upset, & angry. I know you already know what is going on so it makes it easier for Mom because I still can't say much to anyone about why I was feeling the way I did. In due time everyone will know & I can be more open about everything. I know that you are watching out for Mom & Mark during this time. I know I don't have the answers to why this is all going on but I know that you will be with me every step of the way guiding me to do the right things & make the right choices. Thank you so much. I really need you. I wish we could chat even if it was through skype. I miss our times. I really miss you so much!
 The weekend went by so fast for us. Friday & Saturday we didn't do anything. We had 2 down days which I believe is what I needed. Did a couple things around the apartment but that is all. Today we actually went grocery shopping, and did a couple other errands. It felt good to get out but boy am I tired. I didn't sleep much last night as I was not feeling so well. I was sick & up until 2 am. Finally fell asleep around 3 am or so and up at 9 am. I am hoping to go to bed early this evening so that I can get up & do lots of things tomorrow morning.
 Didn't really speak to anyone at all over the last couple days. I guess you could really say that I am boring...lol! I am sure that I will be speaking to many this week to get back into the swing of things & get all kinds of updates from family & friends. I smile when I start to think that you already know everything. I would have told you that you were a " smarty pants " & I can see you smile & hear you laugh. God do I miss that. Your voice, your smile, your everything. It makes me sad to think about it. I try to make myself remember that you are free, you are happy, & that you are always around Mom. I also remind myself that you can do all things that you longed to do for years now. I guess I want to be selfish... I want to see it for myself. Even if it was for just a few seconds. I wanted to get another reading from Forrest done this past week as it was a year since my last one but with all that is going on it slipped my mind. I will have to get in touch with him soon. I really want to know what has been going on with you & I have so many questions....
 Tonight the sky is overcast but I hope to see the moon & stars shining brightly. Please be listening out for Mom to whisper to you. I always hope that you can hear me. I hope you have a wonderful night. May it be all you need & want it to be. Fly high & fly free my sweet precious son. Sweet dreams & you are forever in my heart, mind, & soul.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!