Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing today on this Monday evening? I hope wherever you are you are doing well & that you are the happiest that you have ever been! Mom has had a very crazy 3 or 4 days. I am so sorry that I have not written to you in that time but so much needs to get done on Mark & I's end to get this new change started. I was on the telephone almost all day long getting things set up...finally finished at 4:00pm. I am so tired & my ear is so sore..lol! That never happens to Mom..hahaha!
 We are 5 days into the new year & things are going really well so far. I hope this is the year that everything will fall into place. We have made some really big changes & I hope we have made the best ones for us. Please be with Mom & Mark as we continue to go through all this stuff. I know you know what I am talking about & I really don't want to give all personal details on here in my letter if you don't mind. I know you are with Mom & see & hear everything so that makes me feel better, happy & safe. You are my Guardian Angel along with Nana & Pepe plus many other family & friends that are with you in Heaven. I appreciate it all... everything that y'all do for me, Mark, & our family & friends. It is never gone without notice or taken for granted. I miss you so much & I miss everyone else too. I love you with all my heart. 
 The next few nights are going to be busy & I will try to write to you but if I don't please do not get upset. I will not have any service to write until Friday evening as we will be in our new apartment by then. I will do my best though. I promise that when we are back on line I will be writing to you & updating you on everything. Thank you for your patience with Mom. You are the best, Tyler. 
 I have quite a few daily prayers to do so I better get that started. January 3~ What sort of man is this, that even the winds & the sea obey him? Lord, even when the storm is raging all around me, I feel your still, comforting presence. Thank you for letting me know that no matter how dark the skies are & regardless of how high the waters rises, you are always with me. You meet me in the midst of the storm, wherever you find me, & you calm my troubled spirit. And so, Lord, I praise you in this storm. For in it, I find you. Thank you. Amen.
 January 4~My grace is sufficient for you. Gracious God, of all the gifts you give us, grace may be the most glorious! With your unmerited favor falling upon us, we can survive most anything. Whether in times of plenty or of want, your grace is sufficient. When we feel so exhausted that we don't know how we'll get through the morning, let alone the day, your grace is sufficient. And when serious illness strikes or death imminent, your grace is sufficient. Thank you, God, for your marvelous & glorious gift of grace. 
 January 5~ Faith is the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen. Dear Father in heaven, how often our faith seems utterly depleted. We come to you asking for more faith, but we ask for such a small amount. You are willing to douse us with life-giving faith, but we come asking for just what we can carry in our cupped hands. We ask for a bit of faith for a certain situation or the faith to get us through the next task at hand. Please immerse us in a complete renewal of our faith, Lord! Let our faith in you empower us---heart, mind, & soul---that others may see you in all we do. We never outgrow our need for faith. No one is too strong, too mature, or too experienced to benefit from it's grace. 
 January 6~ The Lord will keep you from all evil; he will keep your life. The Lord will keep your going out & your coming in from this time on & forevermore. Heavenly Father, there are tough times facing me ahead. I am scared to even wake in the morning, for fear of what the day will bring. Please help me feel your presence & know that I am not alone, though it often feels that way. Please also remind me that no matter what happens on this earth, I have already received the greatest blessing imaginable---salvation through Jesus Christ our Lord. Be with me now & always. Amen. 
 The night sky has fallen upon us & it is so cold & dark outside. Guess we are suppose to get so snow tomorrow. The sky looks that way tonight. I couldn't see any stars or the moon shining brightly but I will look later if I have to walk Snicks. No matter what I will whisper to you has I always do. I love you so much, Tyler. I need you to be with Mom & Mark. We leave here on Thursday morning. Please be with us both as we will be driving separate vehicles. Thank you so much.
 I will be able to write to you tomorrow so until then.... I hope you have a wonderful evening that is restful & peaceful for you. I hope you have sweet dreams my sweet precious son. I hope to see you in my dreams tonight. You are forever in my heart, mind, & soul.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!