Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son. How are you doing on this Wednesday afternoon? I hope that everything is good for you wherever you may be & whatever you may be doing. I only want happiness for you & I believe that you have just that now. I think of this often as I speak about you ( which is always! )... I know you are no longer struggling with the limitations of the every day living on a daily basis. I know it was tough on you every minute even though you didn't tell me. I was & still am & always will be in awe of you & all you did. You are just amazing. I said it so many times but I will say it again... you are my true HERO. I love you beyond anything I could ever express to you or anyone else. Missing you is so tough for Mom. It hurts every minute of every hour of every day. I hold back tears all the time. I know you don't want to see me sad so I don't cry. If I do I hope you understand & you don't get mad! 
 I wanted to let you know ahead of time that I will not be able to write to you tomorrow night as we will be on the road driving. When we get to our apartment we will not have internet access until Friday night. I will write to you then though. Please be with us tomorrow as we start our travels. I now you will be with us but I wanted to ask just the same. Thank you, Tyler & all the other Angels that will be helping out. 
 Everything else is going well. Our family & friends are good. Debbie's surgery went really well. She is doing great. I think I may have told you that already but not sure. Meme & Bob are doing well too. Bob has a doctor's appointment coming up soon. I am crossing my fingers that all will be ok with that & he gets good news. I will be seeing Grandpa in a short bit. I am waiting for his call now. After that we are going shopping to get some things we need so we don't have to do it all this weekend. Always seems to be things to do & not much time to relax. Guess that is what we call life, huh?
 I wanted to let you know that I was told last night that another one of my friend's sister received her wings a couple days ago. She passed on January 4th from terminal ovarian cancer. I guess it was pretty bad & she was really suffering. I heard it was a blessing. I am glad that she is no longer in pain but I am so sadden & my heart hurts for her family as her parents lost their daughter & my friend, Ken lost his only sibling...his sister. Aunt Becky graduated with her. Her name is Christine but friends called her " Chrissy." If you see her at all tell her she is greatly missed by many & may she RIP now with no pain & suffering. I know her family laid her to rest today. Thanks pumpkin.
 Here is the daily prayer for January 7~ Who is it that conquers the world but the one who believes that Jesus is the Son of God? Yes, God, I know what I need to do next. Your words are clear & your meaning is obvious. But why is it so difficult to do what I know I must do? I'm weak in spirit & resolve, for even though I want to do the right thing, I find myself using excuse after excuse not to do it. Please give me the strength & the courage to follow through on my intentions. With your power, I can overcome my hesitations, conquer my fears, & submit to your will for me. The arms of God are strong enough to guide us toward a brighter life, free from fear. 
 I am going to write the daily prayer for tomorrow as well because I won't be able to so I thought I would be ahead of the game for once...lol!
 January 8~ Your word is a lamp to my feet & a light to my path. Dear God, this morning I come to you to ask forgiveness for my stubborn insistence on doing everything my own way. Gently& clearly you point out the things I need to let go of, but I hold on to them tenaciously. Forgive me Lord. Once again, I come to you asking that my will would become less & that your will would become more in me. I want to trust & obey you, for I know that you'll do a much better job with my life than I will. Live in me, & through me, Lord. That's my fervent prayer. Like a lighthouse beacon, faith guides our way through the fog of fear, doubt, & uncertainty to the sea of clarity beyond. Amen.
 Tomorrow is Mark's Dad's Birthday too. His name is Tubal. He is a wonderful man.. I am sure you saw him at the wedding. I know you have liked him a lot & him & Karen would have loved you too. Mark is so much like his Dad if that is any indication. If you get a chance go sneak a peek at Tubal in Ohio, don't scare him, & wish him a Happy Birthday = ]
 I will be out & about this evening so I will be looking to the sky to see if I will be able to see the stars & moon shining brightly. I hope I get to but if not I will whisper to you as I always do. Hope you will be listening for Mom. I miss you so much. I love you.
 Hope you have a wonderful night. Sweet dreams my sweet precious son. You are forever in my heart, mind & soul. Hope to see you in my dreams tonight.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!