Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son. How are you doing today on this cold & chilly Friday afternoon? I hope it is not cold where you are & the sun always shines on you.. just the way you like it! Mom is doing so so. I was so happy to see the sun shining for a bit today. I thought that everything was going well & now I have a headache & not feeling so hot. I wanted to write to you before I go lay down for a little nap. Maybe that will help me out. I will go snuggle on the couch with Snickers. Pull a blanket over me & just rest. Things have been non stop for the last several weeks so maybe it is just now catching up with Mom.  Anyways.... I was so surprised last night that after all the crappy weather we had...snow, ice, freezing rain, the clouds moved out quickly & the sky was clear & the stars were shining bright! It made me smile. I whispered to you. Did you hear Mom? I hope you did. I hope you hear me every time I whisper to you. 
 I want to write the daily prayer for today. January 16~O Lord my God, I will give thanks to you for ever. Lord, so many people are blind to miracles you do in the world around us. They go through life without noticing or experiencing your gifts. They miss the beauty of the natural world, they miss the miracle of love, & they miss the very joy of being alive. Please help me recognize these blessings & also let me help others realize that every second of life is to be cherished & appreciated. When I open my eyes upon the morning meadows & look out upon the beautiful world, I thank God I am alive. So many people do not see what they have, what they need to be grateful for, & what blessings they have in their life. They don't see how lucky they really are. I am so thankful that I am not one of those people. I am thankful, grateful, & blessed with everything that I have in my life right now. I wish I did have you still but as I have said before I know that is not possible & you are where you are suppose to be. You are with God & you are finally & truly happy again. That is all Mom has ever wanted for you, Tyler. I would love the opportunity to show others what they have & to be happy with that instead of always wanting more. Thank you Lord for all that you do for me, my family & my friends. Amen.
 Tyler, I am going to end this letter to you for now. My head is pounding & I just really need to go lay down. Please be with Mom. I need you... I always need you. Watch over everyone else too. Thanks pumpkin. I hope that you have a wonderful night. May it be all that you need & want it to be. Sweet dreams my precious son. You are forever in my heart, mind, & soul.
 I miss you so much & I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!

PS. If I am feeling better later I will try & write some more to you but if not I will write to you tomorrow night.