Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Friday afternoon? Mom is doing well as can be. Today is my birthday. I have officially turned 44 years old. I was looking at my baby book when we got our things from Texas & I noticed that I was born at 1:02 pm on May 15th. Like you, Mom was an afternoon baby as well. Another thing we had in common! We were suppose to go up to NH today & for the weekend like I was telling you in yesterday's letter but we had to change our plans. We are heading up there tomorrow instead. Mom wanted a " down " day with not doing anything if I didn't want to & everything if I wanted to do something. So far Mark & Mom have been chilling out at home & just doing odd jobs. Later we will take the pups for a long walk & have dinner at The Cheesecake Factory so Mom does not have to cook tonight. The evening looks pretty quiet & that is ok as well. Kind of the way Mom wanted it today. Before I started writing to you I was reading your message that you left me 2 years ago. It said : Happy Birthday Mom. I Love You & Miss You Lots xoxoxo. I can't lie.. when I read it today I started to tear up. It made me so sad. After I read it, I whispered to you..did you hear me? I hope so!
 Did you know that today is also National Chocolate Chip Cookie Day?  I never knew that. It made me smile & tear up again when Mark told me this. Why, you might be asking yourself... because for one...those were your favorite cookies & second.. I remembered what was said to you at your Angel reading & that was that you were going to meet your future wife over a plate of chocolate chip cookies. When I think of things like this it gets me sad because it is a constant reminder of all the things you were robbed of personally & for myself as well as being your Mom. I know you lost out on so much & that still hurts me a great deal. I know I can't change anything or do anything about it now so I just try not to think about those kinds of things. Sad, I know but it helps me get through the days with out you here with me. 
 On Sunday, May 17th it would have been Snickers' 8th Birthday too. I could always remember that date as it was only 2 days after Mom's. I miss Snicks so much & I think of him all the time. I have been calling Ozzy Snickers lately. A lot actually. I know that Snickers & Max are with you & that you are taking really good care of them. Make sure that when Sunday rolls around you give Snicks big hugs & kisses from Mom. Tell him I love & miss him too. Hope he gets to have all kinds of toys, cookies, & treats where y'all are. Thanks Tyler.
 The weather today has been really nice. In the high 70's & for the most part sunny. Couldn't ask for a better day. I know we are in for some rain over the weekend though. Last night the sky was so beautiful. The stars were shining so bright. I didn't see the moon though but that is ok. I whispered to you as I always do. I hope you heard Mom. I am not sure of what the evening sky will look like when it gets here in a few hours. I hope to see the moon & stars shining brightly but if I don't I know that you will be shining the brightest up there for Mom to see tonight! I will whisper to you again so be listening out for my voice.
 I hope that your night tonight will be all that you need & want it to be for yourself & others. I hope that if you take the time to slow down a bit & you can get some rest Mom wishes you nothing but the sweetest dreams. I hope that I get the chance to see you in my own dreams tonight. I miss you so much, Tyler. I love you... to the moon & back. 
 Remember that you will forever be in my heart, mind, & soul my sweet precious son. This will never change.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!