Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son. How are you doing on this Tuesday evening? Mom has had a very busy day with school work. I wanted you to know that I did start writing to you last night but as I was writing something happened & I went to hit the " shift " key & I ended up deleting it all. I was so angry & upset that I walked away from the computer & didn't turn it back on again. I am so sorry. I wanted to wish you a Happy Memorial Day to you on here as well. I did wish you one as I was chatting with you though. Mom & Mark did nothing the entire weekend. It was a very low key, not go anywhere kind of thing. We stayed in on Saturday & Monday & watched movies all day. Sunday, we did go out for about an hour & did the shopping we needed to do & that was it. It was so nice to have a few down days. I know you have loved the movies we watched... they were Taken 3, Dracula Untold, Dumb & Dumber 2, Wild Card, & I know there was another one but I can't think of it right now. Anyways.... lets see about some updates on the family. Meme called & told me that Bob fell again a couple nights ago. Guess it was a pretty good fall. I feel so bad for him, Ty. He is a good man & does not deserve anything that he has been given..just like you didn't deserve it either. I fear for him & Meme. I wish I could do more but I can't. It hurts Mom to watch this. I know you are with them all the time. Thank you for this. Makes me feel a little better knowing they are in good hands with you. Uncle Joe is still the same. No changes. Grandpa keeps me pretty updated on him. It has been almost 1 month now since his surgery. Great Grammy still does not know & Uncle Joe still doesn't know that his son passed away 2 weeks ago. Breaks my heart on this as well. Mom is all better. Her infection is all gone. I am back to being myself again. Just making sure that I stay hydrated so that I can keep the infection away. Thank you for being there with me & watching over Mom. It means so much to me. I love you & miss you so much.
 I found out over the weekend that Megan is pregnant! She is having a boy. I know you are happy for her as well. You two were close when Ramon & Mom were together. Guess she found out last Wednesday that she is due on October 15th. That was the day that Ramon & Mom got married. Funny how things like that happen. She will be a wonderful Mom as she is great with children. I chatted with her over the computer & wished her luck. She said that both her Mom & Dad were excited. I am sure they are as they are awaiting their 1st grand baby. 
 Everyone else seems to be doing well. Haven't spoken to Aunt Becky in about 1 1/2 weeks now so I guess I will be given her a call to make sure things are well on their end. Brandy is good too. Grandpa & Debbie are doing well also. I know you watch over us all & we all appreciate it a great deal. We all love & miss you. Meme put flowers at your grave site yesterday. They were orange. Very pretty. Your stone & bench should be ready in another few weeks. I can't wait to see what they look like. I hope you like them. 
 I have several prayers to write to you so I am all caught up so let me start them right now. May 23~ And he saith unto them, Why are ye fearful, O ye of little faith? Then he arose, & rebuked the winds & the sea; & there was a great calm. Touch & calm my turbulent emotions, God of the still waters. Whisper words to the listening ears of my soul. In hearing your voice, give me assurance beyond a shadow of a doubt that you are my companion in life, eternity.
 May 24~ The Lord hath my supplication; the Lord will receive my prayer. Lord, we've tossed our prayers aloft, & hopefully, expectantly, we wait for your answers. As we do, we will: listen, for you speak in the voice of nature; see you as a companion in the face & hand of a friend; feel you as a sweet- smelling rain. We feel your presence.
 May 25~ The Lord is my strength & song, & he is become my salvation: he is my God, & I will prepare him an habitation; my father's God, & I will exalt him. Dear Father God, you sent your son to us to be our Lord, to watch over us, to bring us comfort, strength, hope, & healing, when our hearts are broken & our lives seem shattered. We will never be alone; not when you are here with us always & forever. Remind us to look to you for strength. Amen.
 May 26~ And let us not be weary in well doing: for in due season we shall reap, if we faint not. Lord, you are the light I follow down this long, dark tunnel. You are the voices that whispers, urging me onward when this wall of sorrow seems insurmountable. You are the hand that reaches out & grabs mine when I feel as if I'm sinking in despair. You alone, Lord, are the waters that fill me when I am dried of all hope & faith. I thank you, Lord, for although I may feel like giving up, you have not given up on me. Amen.
 Ok... I am finally all caught up on the daily prayers...lol. I will make sure to write to you every day so this doesn't happen again. The night sky is upon us much more quickly tonight than normal. I think we are in for some rain. Much needed rain. The sky was not clear last night so there were no stars or moon shining. I did talk to you as I was sitting outside though. Did you hear Mom? I am not sure that the sky will be clear tonight either but when I go outside to sit on our balcony I will be whispering to you again. Be listening out for Mom. I love you with all my heart. I miss you beyond any words can express to you or to anyone. You are forever in my heart, mind, & soul my sweet precious son. 
 I hope that your night is filled with everything that you need & want. If you do get a chance to rest, I hope you have the sweetest dreams. I hope to have some of my own tonight & I am hoping that you will be in them. 
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!