Dear Tyler,

Hi sweet son of mine. How are you doing? I hope everything is well wherever you may be! Mom is having a tough time as I am sure you have noticed & I know that you are with me at this very moment. I am not sure what is going on but I was & still am scared. I am hoping that it goes away on its own & I don't have to go back to the ER to be seen again. I haven't had this happen to me before so I am winging it at this point. Please be with Mom. I need you pumpkin. Thank you! 
 I wanted to write you a quick letter tonight so that I can just relax & figure things out. I am sure that you are understanding. Thank you for that too. Everything else is the same here with family & friends so I wanted to write the 2 daily prayers that I missed the other days & todays before I ended this for the night. 
 May 19~ We are troubled on every side, yet not distressed; we are perplexed, but not in despair; Persecuted, but not forsaken; cast down, but not destroyed. Lord, today I pray for all those who are in desperate need of help in order to survive; victims of earthquakes & tornadoes, the homeless, & the physically & emotionally destitute people of our world. Make yourself known to them, Lord. May they all see that their true help comes only from you! You who created them will not leave them without help, nor without hope.
 May 20~ And the work of righteousness shall be peace; & the effects of righteousness quietness & assurance for ever. Lord, how grateful we are for the rest you bring to even the most harried souls. The young soldier on the battlefield knows that peace, & so does the young mother with many mouths to feed but too little money in her bank account. You are the one who brings us to the place of restoration in our hearts & minds, Lord. Thank you for being our shepherd. 
 May 21~ Behold, I will do a new thing; now it shall spring forth; shall ye not know it? I will even make a way in the wilderness, & rivers in the desert. Enliven my imagination, God of the new life, so that I can see through today's troubles to coming newness. Surround me with your caring so that I can live as if the new has already begun. 
 Hope you are enjoying these prayers again as I am writing them to you. I was so happy to have found this new book. It makes me smile to write them to you. I feel so close to you when I write anything. My letters are from my heart on how I am feeling at that exact moment. I hope you smile too!
 The evening sky is upon us & I know that the stars will be out this evening as the sky is super clear. The weather was nice today. It was chilly though & will be again tomorrow. I will take it as it is not snow...lol. I will whisper to you as I always do so be listening out for Mom. I miss you so much & I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. I can't express just how much that is, but I know that you can feel it & that you know what I am saying. 
 I hope that you night is restful & peaceful as you need & want it to be for yourself & all the other Angels that are with you. Please hug each of them for me... even hug our pups as I miss them just as much, but I know you are taking good care of them for Mom. May you have the sweetest of dreams if you fall asleep tonight & may you be in Mom's dreams as well. Please watch over us all, Ty. I know you do but I always want to ask.
 You are forever in my heart, mind, & soul. Never forget this my sweet precious son.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!

P.S.  Today is Uncle Dick's Birthday. Hope you had the chance to go visit with him & say hello. Hope that if you did.. you didn't scare him...lol! Love you, pumpkin. Write to you again tomorrow night. xoxoxo.