Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son. How are you doing on this Wednesday evening? I hope you are wonderful & you are doing all kinds of things you love. Mom has been quite busy the last few day as I am sure that you have seen. I am on day 3 of my online classes. It is pretty hard & challenging for Mom but I am enjoying it so far & I am actually retaining a lot of what I am studying. I am proud of myself for this as school was never a strong point for me growing up. I guess if you put your mind to it, you can do anything. I am hoping to get this course done & completed in 4 to 5 months time. We shall see if I can stick to that or if I have to cut back. I have been doing 5 to 6 hours a day. My brain is fried at the end of the day too. I know longer what to do anything that requires my brain working. I just want to do mindless things during the evening. i am so sorry that I skipped last night but I was beat. I just needed a break & to relax for the night. I know that you understand & I don't have to explain myself to you but I want to. Just because I don't write a letter doesn't mean you are not on my mind because you are constantly. I talk to you throughout the day & night. I believe in my heart that you can hear Mom when she does talk to you. I feel so much closer to you. I know it must sound weird but it is true. Anyways....
 Let's see what else is new.... Mark has a few leads on some job opportunities so hopefully by the end of the week or beginning of next week we will have something solid & concrete. Days are slipping by & our monies can only stretch so far. I am worried but I try not to show it or dwell on it as I know the good Lord above is watching over us & will provide all that we need. It is really hard on Mark too. He feels he has failed in so many ways & that is so untrue. It is not his fault that the company has done this to him. I don't blame him at all. I am just wondering where the next job will be, will it be here or will we have to move again & if so how far away???? 
 Mom has completed the design for your bench & stone. Meme is going to the funeral home Saturday to finalize it for me & get it ordered. It should take about 6 weeks for it to come in. That will be around the anniversary of your passing. I can't wait for it to come in & I can't wait to see it. I know that sounds so awful but this is something that has bothered me for some time now & finally you will have what you have always deserved. I am just so sorry it has taken 2 years to get it done. I hope you like it when you see it. I hope that when you do you will send Mom a sign to let me know. I miss you so much. I love you beyond anything I could ever imagine or express to anyone ever. 
 Uncle Joe is still holding his own since the surgery. Grandpa went up today to visit him so he will be calling Mom later this evening with an update. Meme said that Bob fell again. Guess things are still shaky there with them. Spoke to Aunt Becky last night too. They are well. Mark's side of the family are all well too. Grandpa finally is back to work after missing 1 1/2 weeks due to double pneumonia. I think all in all that things are good. I know you are with each of us & that you are doing all you can to make sure we all well. Thank you pumpkin. It means so much to Mom & to us all.
 The evening sky will be upon us in 1 1/2 hours. I am sure that the sky will be lit up with the moon & stars shining brightly. I can not wait to see them. It makes me smile. I will whisper to you as I always do. Be listening out for Mom. I hope that you have a restful, peaceful, & wonderful evening tonight. I hope that it is all that you need & want it to be for yourself & others. I hope you have the sweetest dreams too & Mom hopes that she sees you in my own dreams tonight. You are forever in my heart, mind, & soul. You always will be. That will never change my sweet precious son. I love you & miss you more than words can say....
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah.

PS. I will find so sayings for tomorrows letter. I just don't have any for tonight. Please forgive me.. I am sorry xoxoxo.