Dear Tyler,

Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this Thursday afternoon? I hope all is well with what you are wanting to do & are needing to do. I am sure that it is bright & sunny where you are & you have the warmth of the sun warming that sweet face that I miss. Mom is doing ok. The day started out slow due to being tired but I am doing much better. Took the pups outside for a walk today while it was quiet, did some more studying, already have dinner in the oven & now I am writing to you. I have also done laundry, dusting, & vacuuming too. My days are pretty busy now with my classes & juggling everything else, but it is such a nice change!
 Mark had a busy day as well. He was on his computer & phone calls most of the day. He spoke to a few recruiters & there may be so possible opportunities. I am definitely keeping my fingers crossed that something comes up soon. I continue to pray every morning, every evening & throughout the day. I am holding on & keeping faith that something & the right job comes along for Mark. 1 of the calls he took was for a position in Taunton. I know that will sound familiar to you but I am sure you don't remember it as you were so little..just a few months old. It is a town right near Uncle Ray & Auntie Ann. It is not that far from where we are so the commute will be better than what Mark had. I know you are still doing all that you can from where you are & we thank you both from the bottom of our hearts. 
 Ozzy goes for 2 shots tomorrow afternoon. I am sure that he will not be a happy pup after but he will do just fine. They are important shots so it must be done! Princess is doing really well except now all she does is bark at everything & everyone all the time. She definitely has come into her own now & out of her shell & shows us her personality daily. Most times it is cute but other times it can get quite annoying. 
 Spoke to Grandpa yesterday & he did not have any updates about Uncle Joe but I guess he was going to call up there today to see how he was doing. I know they still have him sedated so that he won't move much. Today was 7 days that he had the surgery. I will keep you posted on it all. I believe everyone else is doing well. I know this because they & Mom & Mark have a wonderful Guardian Angel watching over us... that is you! I love you my sweet precious son. I miss you so much. 
 I was texting back & forth with your Dad yesterday. I sent him some pictures of you & him through the years. I know he didn't have many as Chris threw all his out so I know it meant the world to him to have the ones I had. He said that they made him cry... some sad tears & some happy tears too. He misses you so much. I truly believe that. There is no doubt in my mind. I know he has had to go through so much guilt because of not seeing you as much while you were growing up. He is very much into his faith & I believe that is helping him get through this. I don't think... no let me rephrase that.. I know it will be something that neither of us will ever get over. We just have to relearn to live life. Some days are so hard & other days are just hard.. none of them are ever easy at all. I have been through a lot but nothing compared to the feelings & emotions of losing you, Tyler. 
 I think that I am more emotional right now because this Sunday is Mother's Day. One of the hardest days to have to go through. While others are celebrating the day with their children I can not. I have to go through the motions of the day just to get through. This will be my 2nd Mother's Day without you. It sucks so bad. It hurts like hell. If you can.. please send Mom a sign to show me you are near me. I could really use it pumpkin. Thank you so much. 
 Last night the sky was so beautiful. We took the pups out for a walk & the sky was just so bright with all the stars. I smiled & whispered to you as I always do. I hope you heard Mom. I am hoping that tonight's sky will be the same. No matter what I will whisper to you as I always do. Be listening out for Mom. 
 I hope that tonight is everything you need & want it to be. May it be peaceful & restful for you as well. If you sleep then I hope you have the sweetest dreams ever & I hope that when I go to sleep tonight I see you in my own dreams. I miss you so much Ty. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. You are forever in my heart, mind, & soul.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!

P.S. Did you go & see Jeremy on May 4th? It was his Birthday. I am sure you did. I bet you & Ron went together so you could say hello to your " brother " or as you both would say... the 3rd out of your 3 Amigos....lol! We wished him a Happy Day. We miss him & should go see him once things settle down for us here. 
 Anyways... Love you pumpkin xoxoxo.