Dear Tyler,

Hi pumpkin. How are you doing on this Sunday? Well, today is the day that I have been dreading.. it finally is Mother's Day. I have been trying to stay busy so that I don't think about it all that much. Mom didn't end up going to NH today as this morning I was not feeling so great so I didn't want to chance it. I called Meme & she didn't even know that it was Mother's Day. I told her what my plan was but it was going to have to change & she understood as she knows that we are going up there this coming weekend. That makes me feel better. 
 I spoke to Debbie, Aunt Becky, & a few others as well today. Mom wished them all a relaxing & wonderful day. Aunt Becky was saying that she has been ill the last few days. Debbie still is feeling yucky from her nasty cold. She has had laryngitis for several weeks & is feeling a little better but she still sounds awful. Meme is still sore from the fall she took a couple weeks ago, Uncle Joe is still not awake from his surgery 2 weeks ago & really is not doing well at all. So much is going on & I know that you are with them all & Mark & Mom. It means so much to me for you to be with us all. Brandy will be taking that big test soon for her Pharmacy Tech. I know it is sometime this month but not sure when. Joe is leaving on the 19th to go to Vegas again for a couple months like he did last year, & Brandy & Joe's wedding anniversary is the day before Mom's Birthday. It is on May 14th. It will be 4 years for them. When Aunt Becky told me this I was so happy for them both but it sadden me a great deal to know that we never went to their wedding as we were not invited. Mom knows that was during the rough times that happened between us all. Mom knows that we can't ever change the past but we can make things better now & in the future. I am so happy that we are all taking now & Mom will do anything & everything to make sure it stays this way. I am sure you will do everything you can to make sure this happens to.
 The weather was so warm & beautiful. It was in the upper 80's & the sun was just a shining. The sky is starting to cloud up as we are in for some rain the next few days. It felt like Texas weather. It was so nice! Mom was not even warm...lol! Guess I am still thinking of the 115 degree summertime weather being so hot. I am not sure that the stars will be seen to us tonight but either way I will whisper to you as always. I know you are shining brightly wherever you may be. I hope that your evening is peaceful, restful, & everything you want it to be. I hope that if you rest tonight you have sweet dreams. I hope Mom sees you in my own dreams as well. 
 I miss you Tyler, & I love you so very much. Today was a tough day for Mom but I got through it again. I miss being a Mom daily. I miss being your Mom. You will be forever in my heart, mind, & soul.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!