Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Monday afternoon? Mom is having an off day today. The weekend was busy & I didn't really sleep all that much. I just don't quite feel myself today at all. I am sure that you can see that with me. I am pretty quiet as well. Not much to say at all & you know that is not Mom at all. I always have something to say. I apologize for not writing to you over the weekend. To be honest I never even turned my computer on at all. I shut it down Friday night & never turned it back on until about 1 hour ago. The weekend was busy for us. Saturday we went to the mall to pick up a few things, then went grocery shopping & more shopping. We got home around 4:30 pm or so & then relaxed for the night. Sunday we got up early & we went to the movies to see The Secret Life of Pets. It was such a cute movie. Mom laughed which was a nice switch. You would have been proud of me.... in the movie there were a lot of Mom's least favorite creatures & I didn't scream... I was quiet but Mark kept telling me to close my eyes. I think I didn't see at least 10 minutes of the movie...lol. After that was over we had to go pick up a few more things that we forgot on Saturday plus I needed to get some supplies as I start college on Thursday. We got home around 2 pm or so & then Mom made a nice meal as the weather was only in the low 60's. Finished that up & really relaxed for the night with playing golf on the PS3. I know you were laughing at me as I really am bad but that's ok as it is just for fun. I am learning that I should never try to play golf in real life though. Although I missed writing to you for 2 days I have to say it was really nice not being near a computer or cell phone. It reminded Mom of how it was before all these dang electronics. Sometime I wish we could go back to " those days. " I seem to think life was a little easier then. Today, Mom has done a lot of housework. 2 loads of laundry, folded & put away, dusted, vacuumed, dishes & in an hour or so I will be prepping for dinner tonight. That is why I wanted to write to you right now. Once  get done with this letter to you I will be turning my computer off & relaxing for the night again. I think Mom needs some down time as Thursday my life is about to get crazy for many many months ahead. I am not sure what happened over the weekend with Mom not sleeping but Saturday, early morning, I had a really bad dream that I can't seem to shake. I spoke to Aunt Beck about it & she even said it was creepy & didn't know what to think. I think the dream is still disturbing me some & not to mention Mom saw a couple things this morning on facebook that really rubbed me the wrong way as well. I have a hard time understanding how people can be 2 faced. Just be honest & then folks will give you the respect, but not this case. Guess I am finding out more & more these days exactly who my real friends are & who isn't. Just another part of life.
 Over the past few days Mom spoke to Meme, Grandpa & Aunt Beck. I also chatted with Aunt Shirley & got to see these sweet videos of Great Grammy singing & listening to music. They were adorable. They made me smile. I guess she is doing well. She has her good days & her bad days just like us all. John got his results back from his bone scan. The doctors didn't say much. They didn't find anything abnormal which is a good thing & they told him to come back in 6 months for another set of testing. Things are good with Grandpa & Debbie & Meme & Bob. Meme is starting to really get nervous as our trip is coming up in 60 days. Anxiety is starting to hit her... I told her to calm down as it is not next week. Please help her out, Tyler. She needs it but so don't we all! Thanks pumpkin! My friend told me to tell you hello today & so I am doing so before I forget...like I always do! Mom will have more updates for you later in the week. Right now, I do have 3 daily prayers that I need to write to you as I am behind so here they are. July 9~ Glorious are you, more majestic than the everlasting mountains. We salute the kings of the earth with " your majesty. " How much more worthy are you of that honor than they, Lord! How regal are your works, such as the mountains! How they reflect your own majestic nature! And yet in another sense, only dimly, for I'm aware that a full revelation of your glory would be my undoing. Thank you that you show me, though, what you are like in ways that I can perceive & to which I can respond. These revelations inspire worship & awe in my spirit & point ahead to the day when you will make me able to " handle " the unveiling of your majesty as I worship in your very presence. The truly majestic is found in few things on earth & yet when we encounter your majesty, we know it immediately, instinctively. It, perhaps more than any other quality, inspires our worship. We must be careful, then, not to allow ourselves to worship at the altar of any majesty other than God's own. Amen.
 July 10~ You are the God who works wonders; you have displayed your might among the peoples. I have seen your interventions in my life & in the lives of those around me, Lord. Time & again, I have seen you heal & provide & protect & save. Help me speak up about the mighty things I've seen you do. Grant me an opportunity today to tell someone about how wonderful you are, how powerful are your works & how good you are to me. Miracles happen every day. It's my perspective that often misses them. Do I see the miracle of sunrise? Of a functioning body? Of a flower blooming or changing seasons? May the Lord change my perspective so I won't miss the miracles of his provision, protection & salvation in my life. Amen.
 July 11~ Help us, O God of our salvation, for the glory of your name; deliver us & forgive our sins, for your name's sake. Lord Jesus, you taught us to pray to our heavenly Father as a community, using " our " and "us " in the prayer you taught your disciples. Help me remember to pray in an attitude that is concerned for the welfare of the entire community of faith. We belong to you & in you we are united as one body. Together & individually, we are identified with you, called by your name & in need of your daily help & intervention in our lives. And O, how we need you! Be pleased to glorify yourself today through the ways you bring salvation to us. Jesus Christ brings freedom to your total person, even your individually is transformed. The transformation is brought about by love----personal devotion to Jesus. Love is the overflowing result of the one person in true fellowship with another. Amen.
 Ok... Mom is all caught up. Wow...that was a lot. Yesterday marked 3 years that I started my blog, my letters to you. It amazes me that it has been that long...but saddens me as it is a reminder that you have been gone for 3 years & 9 days. No days are easy for Mom at all. I miss you more every day. Through it all Mom has posted a total of 3,170 letters, quotes, pictures, etc...to you, I have had 25,881 hits on my blog from folks all over reading my letters to you. Right now they are in the US, France, Portugal, Spain, South Africa, Germany, & China. Mom will continue to write to you for as long as I can & as long as I am able to. I don't see me stopping anytime soon that's for sure. I may miss a day or two but I will always write to you as I feel so much closer when I do. 
 It is that time of day again when I need to get going & start to prep dinner. Mom is hoping that the sunset will be pretty tonight. Haven't seen one in 4 nights now & I am sure missing it. The weather has finally warmed up as well. It has been in the low 60's the last few days & now we are going to be in the lower 90's for the remainder of the week. Weird weather we are having this summer. Anyways.... Mom will look to the sky tonight to see if I can see the stars & moon shining bright. I will whisper to you no matter what. Be listening out for my voice. Smile as you hear it & I will smile too. I hope that your night is filled with all the things you need to do, want to do & adventures that you may take while I sleep tonight. Come see me in my dreams. Make it a better one than a couple nights ago. That scared me. I didn't like it at all. Thanks Tyler. Remember that you are forever in my heart, mind & soul. You are my hero & my wind beneath my wings. Good night my sweet precious son & sweet dreams.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!

P.S. Today is your cousin Jeffery's Birthday. Make sure to go to Nashville Tennessee to say hello. This time just don't scare him but make your presence known xoxoxo.