Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Thursday evening? Mom is in the middle of writing to you & also cooking dinner. The multi tasking thing again is not a strong suit for me so I hope that I am able to pull this all off. Today the weather again was so muggy & hot & humid. No complaints though from me. The next few days will be sunny with clouds scattered around but the temps are going to dip back to the lower 80's. Still it will be nice but not muggy & humid. It will be a nice break though. I am looking forward to it. 
 Today would have been Mom's friend Wendy's 45th Birthday. She always used to give me crap about you not coming a day early so you 2 could share your special days together. I posted something on facebook to her so I know she will see it. I told her to give you a big hug & kiss from me for your Birthday. Can you do Mom a favor as well... Can you give her a big ole hug from me? I sure miss her bunches. She suffered for many years & was just an inspiration like you. She had many bad days but never showed it to anyone. She would always smile & she had such a big heart with lots of love to give...especially to her children & husband. You met her when you were little so I am not sure you would remember he or not but I know you know her now. Mom will be releasing balloons to you tomorrow like I always do on your Birthday. I will send Wendy up some as well. Hope you both like them & smile as you are floating on them. It sure is going to be a rough day for Mom but please be with me & just have patience with me. I will do my best to try & smile to you but if I can't & the tears come...please forgive me my sweet precious son. Every day is still a challenge for me & it is still difficult. I know you understand though. You see everything now. I miss you so much & I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. 
 I got to talk to Grandpa tonight & hopefully I will chat with Meme tonight. Things are good as far as I know with everyone. I got to see a recent picture of Aunt Beck on facebook as well. She looks amazing. She looks very happy & I am so happy for her. She sure is busy with life. I don't get to talk to her as much as I would like to that's for sure but I am grateful for the times that I do. I miss Bean as well. She seems to be even busier. Today, I got the chance to talk to Megan. It was really nice. I really miss her. We had our ups & downs through the years but she & Chris will always be special to me. Her little boy is so adorable. He will be turning a year old in 2 months. That sure flew right by. She was telling Mom that her family is all doing fine except her Great Gram. I guess she is pretty ill these days. I hope she gets better soon. I always liked her. She was feisty & sassy...kind of like Mom. I know she misses you a great deal. She talked about you today. That was so nice to hear. I know she calls on you a lot as well & I have no doubt in my mind that you watch over all of them as they were quite special to you to. 
 Today, Mom tried to help a friend out but I think that I made matters worse. I hate seeing my friend in dire straits & that is exactly what is going on right now. I told him the things that I would do, I offered advice to him as well & I think I may have come across harsh even though I didn't mean to. I know that my friend may have not wanted to hear all that I had to say because some of it was tough to hear let alone tough for me to say but it needed to be said. I am so tired of hearing that this person bust their butt just to have so many bad things happen to them when its not their fault & it is all because of someone else. I really hope that a miracle happens & many Angels are watching over my friend tonight, tomorrow & several days after that. I am worried , very worried. Please Tyler, you know who I am talking about....if there is anything that you can do please help. Mom would really appreciate it so much. Thank you pumpkin.
 Here is the daily prayer for today. July 28~ Know that the Lord is God. It is he that made us & we are his; we are his people & the sheep of his pasture. My precious Lord, what does it mean to know that you are God? The psalm for today gives me some clues; to remember that I'm not my own, that I belong to you & that you made me. That's a start. I'll gegin there, Lord & thank you for making me. I'm thankful that I am one of your " sheep " & that you are such a kind & good shepherd, who with wisdom & patience tends to all that pertains to my life. You are God, indeed. Help me pause often to remember it so that I won't get off track & wander from your kind & perfect purposes for my life. I am the good shepherd. I know my own & my own know me, just as the Father knows me & I know the Father. And I lay down my life for the sheep. Amen.
 The night sky is upon us quite early tonight. The sky is already almost all dark & it is not even 8 pm. Guess we will be getting some rain after all. The sky is pretty cloudy as well so I guess I won't see any stars or the moon shining bright. I will whisper to you as I always do later though. Be listening out for my voice. Smile when you hear me. I will smile too. I hope that you have an evening filled with all the tings you need & want to do. Come visit with Mom in my dreams tonight. I miss you more than words can say. You are forever in my heart, mind & soul. You are my hero & the wind beneath my wings. Good night, Tyler & sweet dreams. I love you to infinity & beyond. Until tomorrow.....
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!