Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Wednesday evening? Mom is doing ok at the present moment. Before writing to you I had received my grades for the 2 exams that I submitted yesterday & today. To say the least I am quite happy with the results. So far I have taken 7 exams in 2 weeks & my grades are 5~100's a 98 & a 91. Right now I am sitting at a 4.0 GPA & I owe it all to you. I wouldn't be able to do all that I am doing if it wasn't for you, Tyler. You gave Mom the knowledge that I have in this field. I thank you from the bottom of my heart. I just hope that you are proud of me. 
 The day has been quite busy doing all kinds of things from housework, laundry, chatting on the phone a couple of times to doing my schoolwork. The weather was another hot day & it will be again tomorrow as well. The humid & muggy temps do break as of Friday so that will be nice for a few days at least. It will be another busy weekend coming up but I am looking forward to it. 
 I feel so badly as I do not have any updates for you at all. I have not spoken to our family for the last 5 days or so. It is unusual but I guess that we have all been quite busy with the every day life things. I hope to chat with Meme & Grandpa later tonight but if not then definitely tomorrow. I promise I will have something for you in the next night or 2. 
 Here is the daily prayer for today though. July 27~ So teach us to count our days that we may gain a wise heart. My Lord, my days on earth have a number. That number is unknown to me or anyone else but you. What I do know, however, is that I have this moment in which I can seek you, seek to know you & seek to walk in your wisdom. Please help me not squander or fritter away the time that you grant me to live. I want to go about my days purposefully, yet with a light & joyful spirit, as I entrust myself to you & obey your Word & your Spirit in all things. Twelve-step recovery programs urge participants to take life one day at a time, one moment at a time. There is great wisdom in this, since none of us can retrieve the past nor can we know the future; we can only live & act in this present moment----the gift of life granted to us right now. Amen. 
 Wow... that prayer was something else, huh? It is so true in every way. We don't know how much time we have in the physical world. It is a day to day thing for everyone. There is a quote that says..." Live each day as it was your last. " So true. Live life the way you want to with no regrets. One of Mom's favorite sayings of all times is " Life is not measured by the breaths you take but by the moments that take your breath away "  You gave me so many of those moments. You made me happy to be a Mom. I loved it even in the rough times we faced. I wouldn't trade it for the world. I don't take anything for granted...not even a single breath. Mom considers herself very lucky even though I lost you. That was the toughest thing ever to face not having you here but it was the most rewarding as well to be the one you chose to live this life we did together. I miss it every day. I miss you so much. I hope you know just how much that is. I hope you can feel it still. You will always be my everything. You are my hero & my wind beneath my wings. You will forever remain in my heart, mind & soul. I love you beyond words....to the moon & back & all the way around the world.
 Mom will whisper to you later tonight. I will look to the sky to hopefully see the moon & stars shining bright. I hope your evening is filled with all the things you need to do & want to do. Enjoy your adventures along the way as well. Smile & be happy while I sleep tonight. Come be with Mom. I need you by my side. Thanks pumpkin. I will be looking for a beautiful " sunset painting " as well this evening. I will smile so I hope you see me. Good night my sweet precious son. Sweet dreams.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!