Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Sunday afternoon? Mom is doing well....at least better than I was a couple days ago. Friday was a tough day for Mom as it was your Birthday & during the day I was feeling quite sick that is why I didn't send balloons up to you & Saturday was a pretty good day. Grandpa & Debbie came down to visit Mark & Mom. They surprised us. Guess they were around the Manchester area & decided to make the extra hour drive to visit us for a few hours. Boy it sure was nice to see them. I miss our family & friends so much. Mom is getting excited as our vacation is coming up & I get to spend 10 days with everyone. I don't care what we do...I am just looking forward to the time away. The only thing that will be missing is you my sweet precious son. I know that you will be with us all during our trip but it is just not the same. I wish I could see you, I wish that you could be with Mom & our family...laughing & joking. I miss you so much. Nothing will ever be the same. I am sorry that I did not write to you last night but Grandpa & Debbie left around 4 pm & then Mark went to the store & I was just plain tired as I did not sleep the night before. I know that is no excuse but it is the truth. Mark & Mom relaxed last night for a bit & then Mark did not feel good later in the evening. We went to bed early & got up at 8 am this morning. Today has been a pretty good day. Sat out on the balcony this morning while it rained & watched the birds. I saw a couple cardinals. After that I did vacuuming, laundry, dusting, & got ready. Went out & did grocery shopping & Mom got her nails done. Got home at 3:30ish & now I am writing to you. We have a skype call coming up soon so I need to get going & make dinner so we are done by then. 
 Mom has no updates as I have not spoken to anyone at all today. I might later tonight but if not I sure will chat with many during the week as I have time because my college books won't be here until Thursday afternoon. I basically get a week break from studying. My next class is Psychology. I am excited for this one. I hope I will do well in it! I know you will be right by my side so I know everything will be ok with Mom. Thank you so much.
 I know Mom will not be seeing anything shining in the sky tonight as it is still very much overcast & cloudy & there is no blue skies which means there will be no clear skies tonight. I know you are shining bright somewhere for others that need it more than Mom. I will whisper to you as I always do so be listening out for me. I will smile when I chat with you so smile back & I will picture it in my mind. I hope that you night is all that you need & want it to be. I am sure you will be learning a lot & having a few adventures along the way as well as I sleep tonight. Come visit Mom if you can. I love it when you do. It means so much to me. Go see Meme as well. She really wants to see you. She misses her Peanut so much. It would mean the world to her...even if it is just for a few moments. Please remember that you are forever in my heart, mind & soul. You are my hero & my wind beneath my wings. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. To infinity & beyond. Before I close I will write to you the daily prayers that I need catching up on.....here they are. July 30~ As a father has compassion for his children, so the Lord has compassion for those who fear him. For he knows how we are made; he remembers that we are dust. Sometimes I want to believe that I'm made of physical & moral titanium. Lord, but I am not. My best efforts are more like wood, hay, & stubble. It's only because of your mercy & grace at work in my life that I see good spiritual fruit being produced there. Thank you that you remind me I am made of mere earthly elements & my body will someday return to the dust. Thank you that knowing my frailties, you are compassionate toward me. I receive your kindness with deep gratitude today. Humility acknowledges God & opens the door for his compassion to flow into my life. Amen.
 July 31~ The steadfast love of the Lord is from everlasting to everlasting on those who fear him & his righteousness to children's children. Almighty Father, in a world where everything seems to be changing by the minute, the word " steadfast " is like a neon sign, indicating a place of refuge. And that is what your love is, Lord: a refuge, the one thing we can count on in life & the thing that doesn't change. I never know what the price of fuel will be in the morning, but I know I will wake up with the assurance of your love. May each successive generation----my children, grandchildren, great-grandchildren & beyond----come to know the assurance of your steadfast love. It is said, in life, only death & taxes are certain but what is truly certain in this life? For starters, God's love & his faithfulness. How much better are these certainties than the other supposed ones! How much better life seems in the light of them! Amen.
 Good night, Tyler. Sweet dreams. I love you beyond any words can express. Until tomorrow.....
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!

P.S. Go visit Uncle Ray & Auntie Ann.... today is their 34th Wedding Anniversary! They would love a visit from you.