Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Friday night? Mom is really sorry that I did not write to you last night but all day yesterday I was in bed. I was tired & did not feel good. I didn't do anything not even school work or make dinner. Mark ordered out for us & all I did was chat on the phone really quick to Meme & Grandpa. It just was not a good day for Mom at all. For some reason I am having a hard time lately. I am just not myself. Maybe it is because it will be your Birthday in 7 days...actually a week from today you would have been turning 26 years old. Guess this is just a tough time for your Momma right now. Anything you can do to help me through this will be greatly appreciated. Thank you, pumpkin.
 Today has been a better day for me but still not up to where I normally am. I am just really quiet lately. Many friends have noticed & have mentioned it to me. I know they are right but I just don't know what to say as it is true. Maybe in the next few days it can be better. I wanted to let you know that I will not be writing to you tomorrow night but will try to write in the morning or afternoon as Marion & Charlie are coming down for  visit. We are going to head out for some fun time with shopping, dinner & drinks. I think we will be getting in pretty late. If I don't write to you Saturday then I will be writing to you on Sunday with telling you how it went & the adventures we had. Mom does not have any updates for you but maybe I will on Sunday as well. I do however have a couple daily prayers to catch up on again for you so here they are.
 July 21~ But I, O Lord,cry out to you; in the morning my prayer comes before you. When I wake up with my needs standing before me, Lord, standing right where I left them when I fell asleep, let let prayer be my first response. As I lift my soul to you right now, let me continue to lift it all day long. From the time my alarm clock sounds to get up to the time I set it again at bedtime, may my prayers rise up to you as though in a continual conversation with a beloved friend, for that is what you have called me---your beloved & your friend. My love returns to you today as I seek you & consult you in all things. Our spiritual need to pray is comparable to our physical need to breathe. Amen.
 July 22~ Turn, O Lord! How long? Have compassion on your servants! It is oftentimes a small thing which casts me down & troubles me.... Strengthen me with heavenly fortitude, lest the old man, the miserable flesh, not fully subject to the spirit, prevail & get the upper hand, against which we must fight as long as we breathe in this most wretched life. When life seems unbearable, sometimes the best thing we can do is stop trying to bear it ourselves & cast ourselves, headlong with our circumstances, on God. This is not " escapism " or denial; it is simply faith in action. Amen.
 Well the night sky is upon us early tonight & there is nothing to be seen in the sky. The sky is dark but nothing is shining. Actually Mom is going to be closing this letter to you very quickly as we are getting some lightning & thunder at this time. Looks like we could be in for some severe thunderstorms tonight & tomorrow night. Mom is hoping that you will have a wonderful night filled with adventures of your own & things that you need to do & want to do. Come visit with me if you can tonight when I sleep. I need you, Tyler. Mom will whisper to you as I always do so be listening for me. I will smile & i hope you do as well. I miss you so much my sweet precious son. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. To infinity & beyond. You are my hero, my wind beneath my wings & forever will you be in my heart, mind & soul. Good night, Ty & sweet dreams.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!