Dear Tyler,

Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this Thursday afternoon? Mom & Mark got home from NH about noon time today. I called everyone to let them know we made it safely. Thank you for also watching over us during the ride home. The wind was terrible & there were some crazy drivers out on the road but all is well & we are here! 
 Last night was a lot of fun for Mom. We had Meme, Bob, Grandpa, Debbie, Marion & Charlie over at the hotel. We all had dinner together & had a good time. Lots of great conversation & laughs so that was nice. We talked about you...did you here us? Hope you smiled & got a chuckle out of it! Our visit to NH was a quick one this time. I got to see a few family & friends but not everyone that I wanted to. I didn't even get the chance to go see you for a little while. That made me very sad. I know I don't have to physically go there to your resting place to talk to you as I do it all day long every day but when Mom is on town I always go by & see you & this is the 1st time that I didn't. Please forgive me, Tyler. When I am there again in May I will be stopping by for sure as it will be Mother's Day weekend. I hope you will send me a sign to let me know that you are with me that day. I miss you so much. I know I write letters to you daily or at least try to daily but I don't think I will ever be able to find or put words to how much it hurts that you are no longer here with me & how much I miss you. I know you can feel it but I sometimes wish I could just express it for everyone to know how I feel...how the emotions are still so raw. Time does not heal a thing....at least not this. I will never heal from it. I know you want me to move forward & by doing so it doesn't mean that I will forget because that will never happen but I don't know if Mom ever will fully be able to. I guess I just still need more time. Have patience with me on this please, Thank you. 
 Everyone seems to be doing well & they all look good. I touched base with Aunt Beck today & we will be chatting on Monday when she has some free time so that will be nice. Uncle Chris, Lacie, Marion & Charlie are doing well too. Marion & Charlie are heading to Vegas next month for a vacation. They will have fun but Mom is jealous as they are staying at the Paris hotel. That place is awesome & when Mark & Mom were there we didn't get a lot of time to explore that place. I guess that means that someday we will just have to go back again. Not much else for updates as we spent the morning on the road & this afternoon has been quiet. I did chat with Auntie Kristina & Gary on the phone. I didn't get to see either one of them this trip but I know that Gary was busy with work & Auntie Kristina is sick. I will see them next time though for sure! I will be sure to have some more updates for you come this weekend. Here is the daily prayer for today: March 2~ When I look up to the heavens, the work of your fingers, the moon & the stars that you have established; what are human beings..... that you care for them? I am in awe of the depth of your love for me, dear Lord. You say in your Word that your thoughts towards me are too many to count. You watch over my life with such care & precision. If you counted me as mere matter in the universe, I would be but a mote of dust. Instead, you count me as your child & crown me with value & dignity by that distinction. I am humbled & delighted all at once. I love belonging to you & being invited into fellowship with you. Wonder looks up to unnumbered stars, in unfathomed deeps of midnight. This faraway fire stirs my desire for the unchanging face of Your light. And I sing, " O Lord, great are Your works; The moon & the stars speak of You! " O Lord, my heart has heard, And I long to say, " I love you. " Amen.
 Mom had heard a quote last night or the other day...can't remember exactly when but it stuck with me as I just loved it. It was " Why are you trying so hard to fit in when you were born to stand out? " 
 It is getting to be that time of the night now where Mom needs to be thinking of what to make for dinner & get that going plus feed the pups. Mom is hoping that you have a restful & peaceful night. May it be all that you will like it to be doing things you need to & want to do. Have fun while I sleep tonight. Come be with me & visit me in my dreams. I know it will be an early night as Mom is exhausted from not sleeping the past 2 nights. I will look to the sky tonight to see if I get to see any stars or the moon. I will whisper to you as I always do. Smile & Mom will too. Remember you are my hero & the wind beneath my wings. You live forever in my heart, mind, body & soul. I will write again tomorrow night but until then..... Good night & sweet dreams my sweet precious son. I love you unconditionally.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!