Dear Tyler,

Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this Thursday afternoon? Mom is doing the best she can. My emotions have been up & down all day long. This morning started out fine. Mom got up, fed the pups, got ready, made myself breakfast, made cupcakes, took the pups for their walk all while Mark was on a conference call. After all that was done I got the chance to call Auntie Kristina. I haven't spoken to her in 3 plus weeks. She & I chatted on the phone for over an hour. Mark had another conference call this afternoon. When he got off that call is when my attitude started to change. Mom is trying so hard to understand that his job is the means to us financially... it pays the bills but Mom is so tired of Mark being the one who always gets the clients that are over 3 hours away. His other 2 co-workers never seem to get them...they always have some excuse to why they can't. Mark never says no either & at times I wish he would. He has been sick since last week when he did that 19 hour straight cut over. He doesn't see the outside of what is happening as Mom does. It hurts to see him get so run down & so sick all the time. I try to talk to him but it always ends up looking & sounding like I am nagging him when I am not. I am just tired of him getting the sh*t end of the stick all the time. Maybe I worry too much but if I don't then who will? Certainly not his boss or co-workers. Mark would never tell them that he is sick or doesn't feel well or that he needs a break. If there is anything that you can do from where you are Tyler, Mom would appreciate it so much. I need your help. I want Mark to be healthy. Thanks pumpkin. 
 Today I was so busy doing all kinds of other things that I didn't even open up my book to study. I will tomorrow though. I am so close to finishing that I don't want to get stuck in this rut again. I will read the last chapter & then I will take the next exam & then next week will be my final. Not much else is new really. Mom did not talk to Meme, Grandpa or Aunt Beck so I am assuming that all is well with them all. I promise to be in touch with them over the weekend. It has been a couple weeks since I chatted with Aunt Beck. I miss her. It is always so good to chat up with her & hear about Bean too. I will keep you posted on everything with our family & friends as I know of things. 
 The weather today was so nice & sunny. I was so shocked to see that it was not raining. I forgot what the sun looked like...lol. It was really nice taking Princess & Ozzy outside for their walk. The sun was so warm on my skin. These are the days you & I loved. We loved being outside in the sun. I hope wherever you are you have the sun all the time. I can close my eyes & just picture you sitting facing the sun & letting it shine on your face. Your eyes would be close & you would be so content. At times you would fall asleep because you were so peaceful. These memories make Mom smile but it hurts my heart still as I can't see you doing this anymore. Mom misses you so much my sweet precious son. I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. You are my everything, my hero, the wind beneath my wings. Mom is hoping to see the stars twinkling in the sky tonight & the moon shining bright. Hopefully you will get your brushes out & paint the sky for Mom too...hint hint! I will whisper to you as I always do later this evening so be listening out for my voice. Smile & I will too. 
 Before Mom ends her letter to you tonight.... I hope that you have a peaceful night & have fun doing what you do while Mom is sleeping. Come visit me if you can. I would love that. Thanks Tyler! Here is a prayer for you today: O Lord, thank you for sustaining me through the hard times in my life. Thank you for helping me soar, doing things for you that I never dreamed I could accomplish. Father, thank you for blessing me during the every day comings & goings of life. I depend upon you for help & strength. For every good thing in my life I praise you & thank you. In Jesus' name I pray. Amen.
 Here is a thought for the day ( This is one of Mom's favorite quotes ) : Life is like a camera. Focus on what's important. Capture the good times. Develop from the negatives. If it doesn't work out, take another shot. 
 Mom will be back tomorrow night with another letter so until then....good night & sweet dreams. I love you with all my heart. You forever live inside my heart, mind, body & soul.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!