Tuesday, November 7, 2017

Dear Tyler,

Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this Tuesday afternoon? Mom is really not having a good day but I am trying really hard not to be so negative & find some kind of positive. There are just a few things that are stressing me out right now. Mark's job for one is really getting on my nerves & I don't think I have many more before I blow up at someone or everyone, for the very 1st time in the last 3 years of my college classes I failed my exam big time. I got a 60 on it. This class really sucks & I have no interest in it. The questions on the exam are bullsh*t. Mom really just wants this class to be done with so that I can move on & move forward. I just want it to go away...lol. Mom is eating marshmallow ghosts ( they are like the peeps ) in hopes that will cheer me up. I remember how much we would eat them. I so remember the time where Mom ate a whole package with you. Boy did I ever have a sugar rush & then crashed while visiting you. I also remember driving home that evening & when Mom got home I was so sick. I swore I would never do that again & I haven't even after 5 years...lol! Mom is probably going to call it a day on the computer when I am finished up with your letter. I am just not in the mood to really do anything. I just want to be less stressed & in a better  mood! I will probably go & watch TV or prep dinner early. Maybe I will paint my nails.... I guess I am just looking at doing anything to cheer me up today.
 Th weather is so cold outside today. It is the coldest day by far to date. The sun was suppose to be shining but that is not happening. It is cloudy & windy. I guess the next few days is going to be like this. The weekend is going to be even colder. It keeps us on our toes & lets us know what season is coming next & I am afraid it is going to be coming sooner rather than later here in New England. 
 Last night was a very quiet night again. The telephone did not ring at all. Mark & Mom ate dinner & watched TV for the most part. Earlier in the evening Mark was playing with Ozzy & he must have pulled a muscle or something in his back. He was in a lot of pain for most of the night. We went to bed around 10 pm in hopes that a good night sleep would help him out but he woke up this morning still in pain. Hope he feels better soon. We are hoping that tonight will be a repeat of last night as far as being quiet....but with no pain! 
 Mom did speak to Meme briefly today while she was on her break. She was saying that everything was good but boy was it super cold there. It is like 10 degrees colder where they are. I told her she could keep it...lol! Mom has not spoken to anyone else at all & I really don't plan on it today either. I think I will just let the phone ring & I will get back to everyone tomorrow at some point. I haven't heard from Aunt Beck so I am assuming that she is either gone or extremely busy with work. It has been about 2 1/2 months since I spoke to Bean. Guess she is doing well or at least I am going to also assume so. Mom will fill you in on here when I get some news but for now that is all I got for ya. Here are the daily prayers for the day:
 No matter what you're going through, may you know, in the depths of your soul, that you are loved. Your identity is completely secure. It's not up for grabs or changeable with popular opinion. Jesus is sold on the idea of you and loves how He made you! Seasons come and seasons go, but God's love for you never changes. It’s abundant, profound, and amazingly real, right here, right now. Walk like you're loved, because you are, beyond your wildest dreams. Have a beautiful day!
May you experience the love of Christ, though it is too great to understand fully. Then you will be made complete with all the fullness of life and power that comes from God (Ephesians 3:19 NLT).

 May you cherish this truth: The Lord is your very dear and precious Shepherd. In Him, you have everything you need. He’ll lead you to still waters and sacred spaces to restore your soul. He’ll lead you in paths of righteousness for His Namesake. Even when you walk through the deepest valley, He’ll be right there with you, close beside you. He’ll correct and direct, guide and provide, and He'll never forsake you. He’ll establish you and honor you in front of your enemies. He’ll anoint your head with oil and fill you to overflowing. His goodness and mercy will chase after you all the days of your life. God invites you to dwell in the house of the Lord all the days of your life.
The Lord is my shepherd; I have all that I need (Psalm 23:1 NIV).
 Here are a couple quick inspirational sayings for the day as well:
 STRESS LESS ( this is a good one for Mom to always read...lol ) Dance it out. Go for a walk. Talk about it. Breathe. Go to bed earlier. Focus on what you can control. Reminisce about the good times. Ask for a hug. Look for opportunities in life's challenges. Smile.
 Sometimes the strength within you is not a fiery flame that all can see, it is just a tiny spark that whispers softly, " You got this ", " Keep going! "
 Well Tyler, it is already after 2 pm & Mom needs to be going so that I can do something productive with my day other than what I have already done...got up, got ready, walked the pups, etc... It will be dark again in a couple of hours so I need to make good use of the daylight time that I have left. Mom is hoping that you have a peaceful evening later doing all the things you need to & want to do. If you can, please come & be with Mom tonight. I need you my sweet precious son. I miss you so much & I love you to the moon & back & all the way around the world. You are & always will be my hero & the wind beneath my wings. I will whisper to you later this evening. Smile when you hear Mom & I will smile back to you. Mom will be back tomorrow afternoon with another letter to you.  I have an appointment at noon for my nails to get done but I will be home right after & I will do your letter then. Remember you are in my heart, mind, body & soul. You are my shining star!
 Until tomorrow.... good night & sweet dreams.
 Always, Mommy xoxo. Muah!

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