Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Tuesday afternoon? Mom is doing alright. It just has been a very off day right from the start. Mark played his game with his brother and nephew last night until 10 pm and Mom cuddled on the couch and watch a movie. We went to bed after 11 pm and again, Mom did not sleep all that well. I was up every couple hours and it was tough getting back to sleep. Mom woke up at 8 am and lounged in bed for a bit. Aunt Beck called me and we spoke for about an hour and then Mom continued to lounged in bed. I thought maybe an hour had gone by but when I looked at the clock it said 11:50 am. I couldn't believe it. Mom hopped out of bed, made it, got ready,made something to eat all by 12:30 pm...lol. I did the dishes after and then settled in to study. Low and behold my instructor messaged me back after 3 days. I looked at the message and I was so beside myself. She was giving me hits to a question that I wasn't even asking about. So I emailed her back with what I needed help with and I know I will not hear anything until after the holiday break so I get to wait another 5-6 days. I am not pleased at all. I am crossing my fingers that I hear someone tomorrow but I am not going to hold my breath on it. I have never had this much of a problem before. Anyways.... to say the least I had no desire to do anything after that and that is exactly what I did was nothing. The phone call today with Aunt Beck has been on my mind heavily since we got off the phone as well so that is not helping matters either. Aunt Beck called Mom to see if what I thought about what happened with Meme last week. I told her that I spoke to Meme on Sunday but I didn't know what she was referring to. She told me that when Meme was driving home last Thursday from work, she decided to take a back road that she does quite a bit so she can avoid traffic so it was a familiar road to her. It was dark because it was after 5 pm and somehow Meme was driving on the back road and then the next thing she knew was that she was literally on someones front lawn. She looked around like she didn't know where she was or how she got there. There was a vehicle in front of her and traffic behind her. She almost hit someone as she was backing out because no one would let her get through. Meme said that she blacked out again. I guess this has happened a couple times before as well. That is how she hit someone last year. Same thing...she was driving down the road on the correct side and then the next thing she knew she was on the complete other side of the road and hit a vehicle. She said she blacked out then too because she had no recollection of any of it happening...same thing with last week. This is scary to think about. Aunt Beck told her she needed to tell her doctor about it but she said no. She said that the doctor wouldn't be able to do anything about it so why bother. I think she honestly would be afraid to find out what it could be let alone there could be a chance that her license gets taken away. She needs to be doing something because she could hurt herself, others or both. Mom is going to try and talk to her about this the next time we talk. I think I need to. Please watch over Meme for Mom. Thank you my sweet precious son. 
 Mom has not spoken to anyone else since last week. The phones have been very quiet. That is okay though. I know that everyone is getting ready for the holiday in a couple days. Mom will touch base with everyone then. I will update you on things on Thursdays letter. Tonight will be a very quiet evening. It will be dinner and a movie and then bed. Mom is hoping to get a good nights sleep so that I can be well rested for tomorrow so that I can just knock out these 2 exams so that I can start my final. I just need to get this course over with. I need to have a better mind set too. I want to get on to the next class. I sure hope that your night is everything that you want it to be and need it to be. Have fun while I sleep and come visit Mom if you can. I will whisper to you later so smile when you hear me and I will smile back to you. The candle has been burning all day today. The weather has been so dark and gloomy. We have been getting rain, sleet and high winds while in VT and NH it has been snowing all day. I will take what we are getting. Mark worked from home so no one had to be on the roads. Tomorrow looks like another gloomy day as well. This weather sure is not helping Mom at all. I need the sun regardless if it is cold outside or not. I am so tired of all the rain...ugh! 
 It is that time of the night where Mom needs to feed the pups and then get dinner going. It is almost 5 pm. I will be back tomorrow though with another letter to you. So until then....know that I miss you like crazy, I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world, you are my super hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you are in my heart, mind, body and soul. Good night and sweet dreams my bright shining star.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!

Here is the prayer of the day:

Lord, my strength and my fortress, my refuge in time of distress, to you the nations will come from the ends of the earth and say, "Our ancestors possessed nothing but false gods, worthless idols that did them no good." Jeremiah 16:19, NIV

Lord our God, we come to you burdened and driven by every kind of need and oppression, but you will bring light into every situation; in your great goodness and faithfulness you will continue to help. We come to you because you are our help. We want to draw strength from your Word so that we can remain steadfast in these times, awaiting your help and already finding joy and certainty in our expectation. For your kingdom is coming, and your will is being done on earth as in heaven. Amen.