Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Thursday afternoon? Mom is doing alright. I am just not in the mood to do anything. I have been up early this morning with very little sleep again last night and I am just exhausted as all h*ll today. The weather is nice but pretty windy out. I took the pups for a walk and they wanted nothing to do with it at all. They just wanted to go right back inside again...lol. Mom came in and I made something to eat and then did the dishes. I spoke to Debbie for quite awhile today while Grandpa was working. Looks like they are coming down this weekend but it is not 100% just yet. Grandpa will be calling Mom later this evening to give me the final answer on it and then I will call Meme to let them know as well. I also got to speak to Bonnie today too. That was nice. It has been a long time since we spoke. A few others have reached out to me to see how I have been doing which shows Mom these folks really do care about me. I have heard nothing from Charlie and nothing from Marion for months now. I have completely given up on them both. You know Mom, I never give up on anything but with this I had to and I needed to walk away from it. Too toxic and negative for me. New Year is approaching and it will be a time for new beginnings and looks like it appears to be a whole new beginning for Mark and Mom. I have lived through the years that some change is good and is needed for the soul. Some things however Mom is still having a hard time with....especially when it comes to you my sweet precious son. It will never get easier and it will always be a huge hole that is left in my heart. A void that can never and will never be filled ever again. Mom tries her darnest but I have my off days and lately those off days are more than normal. Please be patient with me... I will continue to try harder. 
 Not much else is new today. Mom should be working on her exam 6 and I may do a bit of it later but right now I don't really feel up to it at all. I just want to curl up on the couch and do nothing at all. Mark is working and the pups have finally settled down so it is quiet. I think I am going to go for a walk in the sun shine and crisp air. Maybe when I return I will have a clearer head and a better attitude. We shall see. I will be back in a bit to finish up my letter to you.....
 Well, Mom is back from that brisk walk and I have to say even with the wind it was a good walk. My heart is pumping and I am thinking I am going to be doing that more often. It was a good little walk and I am almost at my goal for my fitbit because of it and it is only 2:40 pm. I think if I do that daily I will not only feel good but I will be losing weight and building muscle. For that walk I walk downhill, uphill and level...all 3 is great exercise! Mom is pumped now to do that daily. I think it was just what I needed. I may even do it a couple times a day...once in the afternoon and then the evening. I love walking in all kinds of weather...even rain. There is just something about it! I think after Mom writes to you I will work on my studies for a couple hours to make some progress. Power of positive thinking..whoot whoot! 
 Tonight will be an evening of having dinner and dessert and then a movie before the football game starts. Tonight is the Cowboys against the Saints and they, the Cowboys, unfortunately are going to get their butts beat hard. It will be a difficult game to watch. The Saints are looking so good this year and their record is 10-1 where the Cowboys are at 6-5....ouch. I know you are smurking and laughing right now. Knowing that makes me giggle and smile. I miss you so dang much. I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You have and always will be my superhero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you will live inside my heart, mind, body and soul. Tonight I will light the candle for you just as I do every night. I will whisper to you as I always do as well. Be listening for my voice and please smile when you hear Mom. I will smile to you to, pumpkin. I sure hope your night will be everything you need and want it to be. Come be with me or visit me in my dreams. Have fun while Mom sleeps. Mom will be back tomorrow with another letter to you after I prep and do the housework....vacuuming, dusting, mopping, garbage, etc.... Need to have everything ready for everyone on Saturday! Mom is going to get going for now and do some studying so until tomorrow comes.... good night and sweet dreams my bright shining star.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!

Here is the prayer for the day:

I assure you that the man who believes in me will do the same things that I have done, yes, and he will do even greater things than these, for I am going away to the Father. John 14:12, Phillips

Lord our God, we call to you, "Abba, dear Father!" because your Spirit draws us to Jesus Christ the Savior and to his gospel. We call to you for we belong to your kingdom. Give us strength to remain steadfast through all the troubles of our lives. Let your hand remain over us and over the warring nations. Your hand directs, your hand carries out the thoughts of your heart. May the time soon come when you will bring everything to fulfillment and give peace on earth. In expectation we praise your name, for you will bring this time and you will bring it soon. For your kingdom must come, your will must be done on earth as in heaven, and everything must go according to your plan. Amen.