Hi my sweet son! How are you doing today on this Monday evening? It is already going on 5 pm. Mom needs to get her butt in gear and feed the pups and cook dinner but I wanted to write to you first before I did that. Today is June 10th. It is a day that is forever etched in my mind on what happened. I wrote something on your page on social media that I wanted to share with you on here. This is what Mom wrote:
Days like these are hard ....Sometimes I hate how my mind works and the way it remembers so many things. This day, June 10, 1994 is forever etched in my brain. This was the morning that changed so many lives forever. This is the morning that our living nightmare started. Tyler, you were so brave at the young age of 3 years old to fight all that you did for 22 years. Never did I think that on this day doctors would tell me that you would probably never walk again or breath on your own again. So many " nevers " awaited us.... The horror of it all never leaves my mind. This day every year continues to remind me of it all. From the moment that you got sick to 22 years and 10 days you went through more than multiple people could and lived to talk about it. You were & still are my true HERO.
In 10 days, on June 20th it will be 6 years since you left us in the physical world. I know you are now at peace and happy that you have no limitations and can do all that you have wanted to for so many years. I truly am happy for you through the tears that fall from my eyes. You fought for so long and deserved the rest, the peace, and the comfort. I know every day was tough and some days were the worst, but I would do it all in a heart beat if I was able to. I loved being your Mom. You were my world. I miss you so much my sweet precious son. I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You will forever be in my heart, mind, and soul.
Continue on with your new journey. Continue to fly high and fly freely. One day we will be together again and this time no one can tear us apart. I know Mom has many more years here, but I do look forward to that day, the day we will reunite for eternity.
You forever will be ~ The Wind Beneath My Wings ☆☆☆
I love you xoxoxo. Muah!
This day is pretty tough for Mom as far as remembering everything that happened to you, to Mom, to your Dad, to us as a family. As I said above, you were so little and yet so brave. We had no idea what was going to happen and the days and months (7 to be exact) that you would be in the hospital. We literally lived our lives minute to minute. It was so scary as you were 3 years old and Mom was only 22 years old. We did it though. Together we got through every obstacle that we were faced with. Mom was your cheerleader in it all. I would do it again if I could with no questions asked. I miss you do damn much. My heart aches every day since you have been gone. As I said above....I love you with everything I have. To the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you will live inside my heart, mind, body and soul.
June is just a sh*tty month all around for Mom but I am doing and trying my best to get by! I tend to keep myself busy so that I don't give my mind a lot of time to think or wander because especially this month and on your Birthday it is very easy to do. Mom is emotional a lot these days and this is probably why. Please if you see Mom being sad, don't worry about me. I need to be sad, I need to feel those raw emotions and I need to shed the tears to help me grown but also to help me with my journey of grieving. Just be beside Mom during those sad times and just hold me or send me a sign to let me know that you are near me. Thank you so much my sweet precious son.
Mom knows that this letter to you is short but I have kept myself busy today and I have lost track of time. It is way after the pups dinner time and I still need to make dinner for Mark and I. Mom will write to you tomorrow and tell you all about the updates and things that are going on here with us and also with our family. I have the candle lit for you already tonight. I will whisper to you later this evening. Smile for me and I will smile to you. Please continue to be with us and by our side. I know you are but Mom always likes to ask anyways. Continue to do amazing things wherever you may be. I know you are and I am so proud of you. Have fun tonight while I sleep. Come visit if you can. Until tomorrow comes....good night and sweet dreams pumpkin.
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Here is the prayer for the day:
May God be gracious to us and bless us and make his face shine on us – so that your ways may be known on earth, your salvation among all nations. Psalm 67:1–2, NIV
Lord, Almighty God, you are our Father and we are your children, who want to live for you through Jesus Christ our Lord. Strengthen and renew our hearts. When discouragement and fear try to mislead us, may your Holy Spirit help us again and again to hold fast, for no matter what difficulties arise, your will is being done and your will is good. Your name will be honored. Your kingdom will come for all nations. Your reign will come over all peoples, for they are all yours and must acknowledge that Jesus Christ is the Lord, to your honor, O Father. Amen.
Mom knows tha
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