Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this Friday afternoon? It is already 4 pm and the day has gone by so fast. Mom really didn't do anything that she wanted to but that is just fine by me. I was up early again this morning. I think it was 7:15 am. I got up, fed the pups and then went back and lounged in bed for a bit. It was nice to do seeings how I have not been able to do that in almost 3 weeks. Mom got up about 2 hours later and I made something to eat and came right into my office to check emails and such. I was going to do the dishes and then make the bed and get ready but neither of them happened. Mom started studying and I haven't done that in over 2 weeks either. I was on a roll so I decided to continue with it. I guess after I write to you I will go get ready...lol.
The weather today is so nice. It is in the 70's and the sun is shining bright. I think we are in the clear with the roofers being done on our side. It is so nice not to hear the pounding. They are working on the next building but we only hear them when they are talking. Mom has had the balcony door open now all day and it is nice to not have the heat or ac on. I guess the weekend will be nice as well. In the upper 70's. Just perfect weather. Mom and Mark have no plans other than to go out and grab a few groceries and that is it. Mom wants to do a few things around the apartment for cleaning and then weed out things in the kitchen that I no longer need or want. It will be a good day to do that. I plan on having a productive weekend.
Mark is doing better today but I have to say we got into a fight this afternoon. The first one in 3 weeks. I listened to him on a couple of things but I have to disagree with the way he is thinking. His boss called him up to see how he was doing and he told him he was doing great and he felt like he was at 100%. That is so not true at all. He is doing better by far from what he was almost 3 weeks ago but he is no where close to being at 100% and he won't be for a few more weeks. His boss let him know that he had him lined up for 3 different jobs that are all starting next week. That is going to be way too much but again, Mom has to sit back and just let Mark do what he wants to. If he does too much then he will be putting himself in danger of falling backwards instead of frontwards in the healing process. He is pretty stubborn headed when it comes to that. I get that he is tired of not doing much and it is taking longer to heal than what he thought it would but again...everything happens for a reason. So much for his job understanding that he needed to take it easy for a few weeks. I can not wait for him to get a new job. Mom is praying like crazy that something comes up very soon for him. He needs this for his own health and well-being. The other thing we didn't see eye to eye on was the fact that I don't think he is taking this move serious enough. Everyone else is doing their part to get this whole process going and he is not doing a dang thing. He would rather play video games all day and night. That doesn't fly with Mom and I let him know that. He got very angry with Mom and hasn't spoken to me since then (about 3 hours ago). That is fine. Maybe everything I said will sink in. He needs to stop acting the way he is and start taking his responsibility of things. I have done everything for the last 3 weeks. I didn't mind at all so don't get me wrong but if he can stay up and play games all day and night and not be sore then he can help out around the apartment and not have me do everything all the time. There is a difference of being thankful for me doing things and then there is the thing of being taken advantage of and that is where I feel I am. He only seems happy when he is doing work and playing games again. How funny that things slip right back to the way they were before he got sick. Mom is very hurt and sad by it all. I tried explaining myself but he didn't want to hear it. He ended up not talking to me and then taking about 1 1/2 hour nap. I guess Mom doesn't know what to do. I figured that I would just throw myself back into my "old" routine again...studying and doing everything else. Gosh, I wish you were here so that we could talk. I miss you so much. No matter what was going on in the world or my life, I always had you and now I feel so alone at times. I have no one really anymore. I hate the feeling of emptiness and feeling alone. Mom has no friends at all. They are just acquaintances now. For the most part I can deal with it but there are times that I just have a hard time with it all. Guess today is just one of those days.
Grandpa indeed called last night. We talked for a little bit. I will be calling them over the weekend to chat with them about a few things. He asked me too and I have no problem with it. Guess we shall see how that goes tomorrow and I hope that Mom can help matters and not make them worse. I will get in touch with Meme as well to just check in and hope that I will have some updates for you over the weekend. It is going on 5 pm and Mom needs to get going to feed the pups and then get dinner going for Mark and I. I will be back tomorrow with another letter to you so until then.... I hope that you have fun tonight while Mom is sleeping. Come visit if you can. Thank you my sweet precious son. I will whisper to you later and I have already lit your candle for the night. Please watch over us all and keep us in your loving care. Thank you. I love you with all that I have and every ounce of my heart. To the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. You will forever live inside my heart, mind, body and soul. Good night and sweet dreams later....
Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!
Here is the prayer for the day:
Lord, you have been our dwelling place throughout all generations. Before the mountains were born or you brought forth the earth and the world, from everlasting to everlasting you are God. Psalm 90:1–2, NIV
Lord our God, our refuge forever, bless us who have gathered in your presence and who turn to you in all distress, not only in our personal need but also in the distress of the nations and peoples of the whole world. Grant that we may be your children, with a simple faith that gives us strength to go on working even when life is bitterly hard. We thank you for giving us so much grace, for helping us and never forsaking us, so that again and again we can find joy and can glorify and praise you, our Father. May your name be praised from heaven above and among us here below. May your name be praised by all people throughout the world, and may everyone on earth acknowledge you and receive all that they need from you. Amen.
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