Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son. How are you doing on this Friday night? Happy Friday the 13th to you in heaven. It's always been one of your favorite days. Usually it is a good luck day for Mom but today was not one of them at all. It was actually one of the worst days ever. There aren't many of those for Mom but this one ranks right up there. It started out at 6 am this morning. Mom had a conversation with Debbie over the phone. I thought it might go well but that was a huge mistake. It went downhill fast. Mom will spare the details to you but I will say that Debbie made it clear that she will not be moving down here. She gave Grandpa a choice between staying with her or coming down here to be with us. Mom could not believe it. I told Mark and Meme about it. They both couldn't believe it either. Mom thought about the conversation all day. I did laundry and pretty much nothing else. My head was not in it to do a thing. I was an still am so upset. I went through the day just staying busy so my mind didn't wander. I spoke to Auntie Kristina for a bit and then around 4:30 pm I called Grandpa. I had to. I told him that Debbie and I spoke this morning and that she said she was not moving down here. He said that was true. I asked how he felt about that. He said he was still going to come down here for a few months but he was going to try and stay here and keep the house in NH for Debbie. I asked why would he do that? Being separated from one another was not a marriage. They needed to be together. Obviously what we hoped for was not going to happen now so everything needed to be changed. I told Grandpa that I want him to stay in NH with her and not come here to live with us. He needed to be there. I told him I couldn't imagine how he was feeling and how torn he was over this. I said I would be the bigger person and tell him I would never want him to make the choice between Debbie, his wife and me, his daughter. He said he understood and Grandpa thanked me. It was heartfelt and I know he was grateful for it. Mom stayed strong on the phone but the minute we hung up, Mom let the tears flow freely. I cried so hard. I came downstairs and let Meme and Bob know what I did. I tried so hard not to cry again but I failed miserably. I got myself together and finished talking. Meme was upset but understood why. Bob said nothing. Mom is just so upset and sad. I miss Grandpa so much but I refuse to let him lose his home and marriage. I love him too much to do that to him. I hurt but eventually Mom will be okay. I sure hope that Debbie is happy now. That relationship has ended between her and I. I have nothing to say to her ever again. I don't wish her any ill as I do no one but Mom is done. I can't anymore. I can't believe all this is happening still but it is. It is a nightmare for sure just like the day you left this Earth. I wish that  you were, Tyler. I sure could use one if your pep talks and a squeeze. I miss you so much my sweet precious son. Mom loves you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live inside my heart,mind,body and soul. Always remember that. You might see Mom shed a few more tears but know that I will be okay. I need to release it and not keep it bottled up inside. I promise. 
 I have the candle and warmer going for you. I will whisper to you later this evening. I do hope you have fun tonight while Mom is sleeping. I will be back tomorrow with another letter to you. Right now everyone is watching the second Harry Potter movie. Mark hasn't seen any of them. Mom will join them now. Not in the socialable mood but I will do my best. Until tomorrow comes....good night and sweet dreams pumpkin. 
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah 🖤