Dear Tyler,

Hi pumpkin! How are you doing on this Thursday afternoon? Mom is doing alright. I started the day with wanting to do a few things and then get to studying while Meme and Bob were out for a doctors visit today but only half of that happened. Mom managed to get up at 7:15 am and get coffee made while Mark fed the pups. I relaxed for a bit before getting ready. I made the bed, did laundry and I vacuumed the entire house..... carpets and floors. I made something to eat and then came into my office. Mark was in a pretty bad mood because of work and he started to take it out on me and I said to him to stop. "Don't take it out on me, take it out on the ones who made you mad. " He had lunch by himself and then a cigar out by the pool. I left him alone because I didn't want to deal with it at all. I sat quietly in my office minding my own business and I paid the bills for this week and then tinkered around on line. I tried to talk to a couple of people but no responses. I did however chat with Auntie Kristina over the phone. Things are pretty rough there with her Dad. She was saying that the nurse came to the house today and spoke to him sternly with what is going on. They said that there was nothing more that they could do for him now. Hospice will be entering the home sometime next week and that it will be day to day. Auntie Kristina was saying that her Dad is very frail, doesn't eat a lot anymore and he is in a lot of pain now. When she was telling me this, she was trying to sound so strong but I know her and she wanted to just start crying but she didn't. I can't imagine what she is going through and I told her that. She knows that I know what it is like to lose you but not a parent. I told her that I would be here for her no matter the time or day...she could call me. Mom will be saying a lot of prayers for Jim and Alice and Auntie Kristina. I know that you will do whatever you can as well when it comes to him. He has always liked you, Tyler. When you passed away, he performed a song for you that touched Mom so deeply. It pops up on my memories on here every year and I listen to it. He is such a wonderful man. It breaks my heart.
 Mark is working right now. He started at 8 am and he has a cutover starting in about 5 minutes. He is hoping it only goes until 7 pm but 9 pm at the latest. He already had dinner so Mom will just go and make something in a little bit and then come upstairs and just watch TV. Meme is on the phone and Bob, I guess is sleeping. Who knows. He hasn't said anything since his doctors visit today. He came in and ate and has said nothing. Mom isn't saying a word anymore. I will treat others the way I am being treated and that is it. That is my new motto for the coming year. I started to down size again on social media. If I don't talk to the person on a regular basis then they don't need to know what is going on in my life anymore. I deleted about 16 people this morning. I don't wish any ill or harm to them, only happiness but Mom just really needs to keep her circle small. I am tired on getting hurt by my so call friends and I won't let that happen anymore. I have suffered enough by them all when all I ever was was good to them. Lots of new changes for the New Year. Less drama and more love to those that I can give it to. More time for Mark and Mom and the pups of course and hopefully some travel from time to time for us. Mark and Mom will be celebrating our 5 year Anniversary and we never got to take a honeymoon. All the vacations that we have been on we have taken Meme, Bob, Grandpa and Debbie. It is time to go somewhere by ourselves even if it is just for 4 days. Just a short get away. we are going to plan it for the Spring time I think. Mom will keep you posted. Not much else for updates I am afraid. I will fill you in when I know of anything. 
 I sure do miss you so much my sweet precious son. I love you to the moon and back and all the way around the world. You are my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Forever you live inside my heart, mind, body and soul. Mom will be back tomorrow afternoon with another letter to you. I will be going Christmas shopping and then to get my nails done in the afternoon. It will be early to bed for me tonight as well so that I can get up in the morning and head out early. Mark is taking the day off. He has things he wants to do as well. We will meet up later in the day to do something together. The weekend is going to be a bust as it will be raining both days but we do have the movies on Sunday to look forward to. Next week is Christmas so it is a short week for everyone for work. Mark only works 3 days and 3 days the following week as well for New years. I will whisper to you later this evening so smile for me and I will smile for you. Have fun tonight while I get some sleep. Come visit me in my dreams if you can. Thanks Tyler. Until tomorrow comes...good night and sweet dreams.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!