Dear Tyler,

Hi my sweet son! How are you doing on this beautiful Wednesday afternoon? I hope that where ever you are & what ever you are doing you have a cheshire grin on your face & that you are so happy! Mom is doing much better today than I was doing yesterday. Mark had told me that there might be a chance that he was going to be traveling all next week again... that made me so upset that I couldn't focus or sleep. I prayed so hard last night for this not to come true & today he let me know that he would not be going after all. The power of prayer is awesome!!!! I prayed to you to help with this situation & for it not to come true. Thank you for hearing Mom & making my day today. As you could see it has put a huge smile on my face. I feel so much better all because of you, the angels, & God!
 Really nothing much has been going on here in Texas. We have been laying low because Snicks is still healing his foot. We have watched football over the weekend ( the Cowboys won again & so did the Patriots!!!! ) & did things for the wedding. All invitations are mailed out & headed to all our guests. You got the very 1st one Tyler. I know you will be there in your own way. I can't wait pumpkin! I know that Amy will be with you. I have this vision that she will be nudging you saying that she was the reason for this wedding & she would be correct. She is the one who introduced Mark & Mom. I miss you, I miss her.
 I have a couple prayers to write to you so I guess I shall start them. September 22~ Strive for his kingdom, & these things will be given to you as well. Lord, you said to first seek your kingdom & all else will be given me. I tried for so long to seek those other things first, those material things I thought would make me happy, & all it left me was feeling lost & alone & cold. But the kingdom you offer is one of love, mercy, & everlasting comfort. Your wisdom is far more precious than rubies, & more priceless than gold. I understand that all good things can come to me only when I first immerse myself in your loving presence. That thought brings me a comfort nothing outside of me ever could. Thank you, God. Just a tiny seed of faith grows into a majestic tree of blessings. What did I always say to you Tyler... material things mean nothing. People always try to have the best of everything & make others jealous with it. Where does that get them? Sometimes in debt & sometimes lonely because of their attitudes. The only thing that truly matters is love. The love for God, the love for family, & for friends. I don't need material things anymore. I realized this when I moved & when I lost you. Nothing matters to me like it used to. I have love in my heart & that is all I need now. It was a hard lesson to learn but a powerful one that I am forever grateful for. 
 September 23~ The patient in spirit are better than the proud in spirit. Lord, help me be patient with my children, loving with my spouse, & caring to my family even when they tax & trouble me. Your compassion has given me the strength to be a rock to those who depend on me. I would like to have compassion for others, so that I may be their rock in times of despair. Build in me a character worthy of your love, & show me how to give the fruits of that love to those in need. Amen. All I have to say about this is that I have asked this & learned all this many years ago. I have helped so many folks out in need & in return they have hurt me. I was angry at first but have forgiven each of them now. No need to have hate. It gets you no where. I will continue to help those in need when I can. It is just my nature & I am proud of it!
September 24~ For you who revere my name the sun of righteousness shall rise, with healing in its wings. You shall go out leaping like calves from the stall. Today, dear God, I celebrate your awesome love in my life, & I want everyone to know about it. You have never let a day go by without showing me that you love me utterly & completely & that I walk in your grace & mercy at all times. I celebrate sharing your presence with everyone with whom I come into contact, spreading that heavenly grace to all I can so that they, too, can join in this celebration. Only God's love can truly satisfy my soul. All I can say to this prayer is thank you, God. Amen!
 I hope you still enjoy getting to read all these prayers I write to you. I enjoy it & I enjoy telling you how each one is effecting me in my life now or how it has. It helps me to bring awareness to myself for all that I can be, will be, & what I have to be thankful for even during the dark days that I have. I know that if you were here with Mom we would read these together & have a discussion every night about the prayer. I wish I would have got this book years ago. It would have been another way for us to be close. Religion became important to you in your last several years of living. I admired you for this. I wish you could have made your Confirmation. You were working so hard to get to that point. I was proud of you. I just wanted you to know this. I miss you every day & I love you beyond the whole world.
 When I go for the walk this evening I will make sure to whisper to you. I saw a few stars last night but no moon. I will look again so be listening out for my conversation to you. I hope you have a wonderful evening. May it be peaceful for you my sweet precious son. Sweet dreams to you. Fly high & free. Watch over me, Mark, & our family & friends. Thank you for all that you do. You are forever in my heart, mind, & soul.
 Always, Mommy xoxoxo. Muah!